SOUNDTRACK:
Creeper - Misery
My Chemical Romance - Interlude
From First To Last - Emily
AFI - Silver and Cold
I made a full playlist on my spotify @fionamatilda !! (sometimes the links work and sometimes they don't lol)
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actual rating: 4,5 stars
This is me trying to bring my review schedule back on track once again, wish me luck lol
🌹 A (more or less) quick recap on the turbulent lovestory between me and this book 🌹
I read Nevermore for the first time when I was 17 and I fell in love with everything about it, from the subtle and not-so-subtle nods to Poe, to the characters, to the deliciously dramatic romance, to the fact that this was just so much more unique than all the other paranormal romances I've read before.
In fact, I was so obsessed with it that I immediately ordered the sequel, but then put it off, because I wanted to read it during the fall, so the vibe would be just perfect (yes, I am that extreme type of mood reader lol).
You can guess what happened then.
Exactly. I never picked up the sequel.
In fact, I pretty much forgot about this series alltogether, because I discovered so many new favourites over the following months that this underrated gem got kind of pushed to the back. And there, it stayed.
Until about a month or so ago, when I was in the process of moving and stumbled upon this book and its sequel and got flooded with beautiful, bittersweet memories, and then on a whim decided that I would finally, after all these years, continue the series.
But first, I had to reread book one. See if it holds up. And, admittedly, I was not just a little scared that it wouldn't. After all, my reading taste had matured quite a bit since 2016-ish, and reading the synopsis, it sounded even more cheesy than I remembered it to be.
I dared it though. I went to the huge, forest-like park near my new apartment where there are tiny pathways you can get lost on and little, almost-hidden stone bridges, seemingly leading into nowhere, and mysterious-looking old fountains and the most intense fall vibes you can think of, armed with a bag of cookies, my playlist of favourite autumnal emo jams and this book.
And I devoured it.
It's been over 3 years, this book is still angsty as hell, and I still ate it up like chocolate.
✉ Reasons to pick this book up despite its very bad cover and questionable blurb ✉
This books' first couple of chapters read pretty much like every other YA paranormal romance ever. Average girls meets mysterious and Dark and brooding guy who obviously has some Dark supernatural secret, dislikes him first, then falls in love with him, then angst ensues because for some reason they absolutely CANNOT be together, yadda yadda. Sounds yawn-enducingly familiar, right? Ha. You'd THINK.
Because pretty soon the novel makes it clear that, while it still is all of the above, it's also going places that by far exceed the realms of Twilight and suchlike, and for the longest time, the reader has no idea what these places are. Not only is the supernatural element in question something that I still consider fairly unique in comparison to other books in this genre (no vampires, no wherewolves, but something else entirely, pinky promise!), but Kelly Creagh also managed to put almost every single cliché there is in her book - and still made them not only somehow interesting, but sometimes even challenged them. Of course, now there are much better examples of trope defiance in newer YA, but everything needs a start, right? Also, I very firmly believe that all the vampire jokes in this book are definitely intentional.
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Speaking of defiance, one thing I loved loved LOVED when I first read the book, and that still stood out to me the second time around, was the way both (!) main characters had to overcome their mutual prejudices against one another in order to get to know each other. I've always loved highschool stories of kids from different social circles teaming up and breaking the habit, of not "sticking to the status quo" (yes, that was a halfhearted High School Musical reference), and this book is a beautiful example of that.
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You know what I also love? Enemies-to-lovers. Aaaand no instalove. And guess what? This book has that, too !! Okay, maybe it's more like mutual-dislike-to-mutual-respect-to-lovers, and their declarations of love towards the end of the book might be just a tad too dramatic to be realistic, but still. Watching them slowly open up and starting to see each other in a different light is just such a wonderful experience, especially with Varen. Also, their relationship kickstarts because they're paired together for a school project. Which is a trope I'm also such a sucker for, and I barely ever see that in a book. Instead I get love triangle and chosen ones. Why, authors, why? And can we take a moment for the fact that while there might sometimes be a certain awkwardness to some of their interactions, but it's still always sweet and genuine and, most importantly, it is never. creepy. And I very much appreciate that.
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And then, there's, of course, the characters in general. Who are all so much more than it seems in the beginning, just like the book itself. Well, most of them.
There's Isobel, full of energy and determination and glorious stubbornness, who's always been goal-oriented, but who only now discovers how selfless and brave she can be. Isobel, who's definitely not the one who needs saving, but the one who saves. Despite loving the color pink! Gasp! Shock!
There's Varen, who's wearing his goth outfits and piercing gazes and cool sarcasm like armor, but has a mind and imagination sharp as a knife, full of phantoms and poems, and who's also heartbreakingly lonely. (Varen, who also wears a lip ring and eyeliner, which, yes, is very important to me).
And Gwen, my actual favourite, who's so much more than a sidekick, wearing hippie skirts and masses of bracelets before it became cool again, who's as charming as she's smart as she's loyal and who I'd honestly love to have coffee and talk schemes with.
There are Isobel's parents, whose actions I might not always have understood, but who are definitely not absent and clearly care about her daughter very much.
There are Reynolds and Pinfeathers, who are many things, and I can't put my finger on most of them, but what I can say is that I absolutely want more. Of both of them.
And let's not forget Danny, Isobel's 12-year-old brother, also way more than a sidekick, an icon of support and loyalty towards his sister (if he wants to be), and most definitely secretly plotting world domination.
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Another big plus of the book, at least to me (and another thing that sets it apart from many books of that era): Instead of immediately throwing around weird and confusing worldbuilding, the book takes its time to introduce its supernatural element, and instead uses that time to focus on the characters, only to turn into a breathtaking and terrifying feverdream for the last 100-or-so pages. And while I love that part of the book, the slowly unfolding first half of it, when everything is still mysterious and new, just as the fragile, yet growing bond between Varen and Isobel, is still my favourite.
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Aaaaand, last but not least, let's talk Poe and athmosphere !! Because Poe's work plays a massive role in this book, and while it might occasionally be a bit on the nose, I still loved all the hints and new interpretations of his works woven into the story, and of course the beautifully vivid gothic vibe it creates. Also, this book was actually the reason why I decided I wanted to read Poe, which I now have, so there were many many tiny details I didn't even notice the first time around.
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Of course, not Everything with a capital E holds up. In fact, there where a couple of instances that most definitely turned my face into an image of confusion and irritation - here are a few examples of that:
✉ The things that made me go ???? ✉
🌹 Why is everything Isobel's friends say or do complete bogus ???? Like, I know this is a highschool in a YA novel from 2010 and the drama is guaranteed to be a bit over the top, but come on. They absolutely lose their shit about Varen writing his phone number on her hand (which, uhh yeah, dramatic much? but still, not necessarily something to freak out over) - because that means he's now officially stalking her/trying to murder her and that justifies literally threatening him and vandalizing his workplace ?? Mmmhh, 'kay.
🌹 Why, in the name of all that is good in the world, did the love interest, as much as I genuinely love his character, have to be named VAREN ???? (I mean, I get why, but that doesn't make things any better.)
This is a thing that genuinely didn't bother me when I first read it, but now I literally can't look at that name without having to stifle a tiny laugh of despair.
In case you didn't notice it yet and wonder whatever the hell I'm on about: This whole book is basically a huge reference to Poe's 'The Raven'. The love interest is named Varen.
Raven. Varen. Raven. Varen. Just let that sink in for a minute.
🌹 Why does Isobel keep trying to find excuses for Brad, when he treats her and everyone around him like shit from the start ???? And also, yes, he might not deserve to die, and yes, Isobel is a very bighearted person, but w h y is she still so hellbent on protecting him after he was the absolute worst during that porch scene (and also very much kissed her without her consent, mind you, and who knows what else if he hadn't gotten interrupted) ????
🌹 not necessarily a '????', but more of a trigger warning: there is also the occasional use of homophobic slurs (by Brad, of course, because who else would it be), and while it's never under a positive connotation, I think might be still good to know before going in.
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Apart from these little moments of irritation however, I still had such a good time revisiting this and relishing in the delicious angst this novel provides. And also listening to lots of AFI and MCR in the meantime (there may or may not be two very small nods to MCR in this, but my inner fangirl might as well just interpret too much into everything lol). If this sounds like something you'd vibe with, don't let the hideous cover fool you !! This book is so much more than it seems.