Sawyer and Preston met 13 years ago at a Harry Potter style boarding situation, without the magic. Not a great first impression and not sure how they became besties.
Sawyer is the front desk manager for Mars Fitness, a safe and inclusive Mecca for Gay men - complete with bowls of lube and condoms.
He’s in love with Preston and lives with him.
Preston is undiagnosed neurospicy. He’s a genius who’s completing his PhD in neuroscience.
Fitz is a new gym member / hookup of Sawyers … and is the new grad student in Prestons department and Preston’s new mentee.
Fitz is asking all the right questions- like if there is anything between the roommates but Sawyers heart says Preston and his dick is saying he’s got no chance with Preston and I have needs.
Preston views Fitz as the enemy in his life. Fitz is in Preston’s eyes -“He’s an interloper. He’s annoyingly happy and frustratingly smart.”
Fitz is wary about the besties closeness but Sawyer reassures him that they are just friends.
“Logan narrows his eyes and crosses his arms. “Sure, it’ll be fine. Your co-dependent roommate and best friend will adjust to your attention being diverted by someone else.”
Preston is definitely co-dependent. He is mired in routine and struggles with change. He sleeps in Sawyers bed regularly.
Sawyer and Fitz go on a date which leaves Sawyer conflicted again. He loves Preston but he is straight . He wants a loving relationship but if it can’t be Preston can he move past the guilt and be with someone else ?
“Hmm.” Fitz flicks his eyes toward me. “The straight best friend, huh?” I’m not so oblivious that I miss the insinuation in his voice.
Madison, Preston’s highschool girlfriend and friend to both main characters , can see they are meant to be . Even though Preston’s rich snooty parents would prefer her to be their daughter-in-law. Preston’s also being pressured to join his family’s pharmaceutical company.
Sawyer is still conflicted with being in love with Preston and giving up on the fantasy to have something real with Fitz.
“I want to stay here forever. Hit pause on time so I can keep holding him and never let go. I want it so badly, it feels like I might die. I want him. I need him. I love him. But I can’t have him—not the way I want to.”
Sawyer dates Fitz but then Preston is eaten with bitterness and jealousy. He has an epiphany as Fitz is telling him how much he likes Sawyer.
“I don’t want him to have “something special” with Fitz. I don’t want him to have a relationship with Fitz at all. Happiness. Partnership. Love. I can give him those things. He should be getting it all from me. Sawyer’s mine. He’s mine, and I’m not letting anyone take him away.”
Preston runs around trying to find Sawyer and when he does he kisses him!
“How did I ever think I could be with anyone else? How did I ever believe there was anything left of me to give to another person? There isn’t. I’ve already given everything I am to Preston.”
Ok hold up a minute. Justice for Fitz! Green flag character that tried to ensure these two didn’t have a thing for each other multiple times and now this. Sawyer used him and wasted his time.
So yeah, Sawyer is avoiding Fitz and having all the sex with Preston. Like dude, break up with your boyfriend first.
“Fitz squeezes his eyes shut, his lips flatten into a straight line and his jaw starts ticking. “You and Preston.” He huffs, a short, annoyed, angry sound. “Are you fucking kidding me?” I’m pretty sure that is a rhetorical question so I don’t try to answer.”
While breaking up with Fitz, Sawyer realises Fitz looks like Preston. Omg 🤦🏻♀️
Preston with his analytical and just super intelligent brain doesn’t know if he’s in love with Sawyer because he doesn’t understand the specs for love. Poor Fitz resignedly breaks it down to him.
“When he’s facing me again, he holds up one finger. “You’ve been in love with Sawyer for god knows how long. He holds up a second finger. “Sawyer and I start dating.” Third finger. “You get super fucking jealous.” Fourth finger. “You take out your jealousy on me by treating me like shit at school.” Fifth finger. “I tell you I want to get serious with Sawyer and you freak the fuck out and go throw yourself at him. Have I missed anything?”
Anyway, Sawyer and Preston are happy together and by the end are engaged.
“Fitz isn’t so bad,” I say. Sawyer chokes out a, “What? Why are you thinking about Fitz?”I gaze up at him. “Because he brought us together.” Sawyer smiles down at me. “No, he didn’t. We were always meant to be together.”
Awww I really hope Fitz gets his own book - he deserves it!! The author stated at the beginning that there was dating other people before getting together - BUT it was one person , Fitz, and it was like half the book. It distracted from the main romance.