Jes and Laws have been together for 14 years, they are happily married, parents of 2 boys of 7 and 10 years old. They are still very much in love, and have a healthy sex life, but Laws is hiding a secret: he has dark fantasies, urges that make him want to act out violent scenes with his wife. Ashamed of these desires, he keeps them tightly leashed inside of him, and only indulges from time to time in solo cessions where he pleasures himself to these scenes in his head.
One night though, Jes sees him. She is shocked in the beginning but encourages him to talk about it. Together they take an online quiz to discover more about each other's true desires, and decide to act on them.
This book is about their journey into roleplay, rape fantasies, bondage, consensual non-consent, ... their newfound discovery of each other, the errors they will sometimes make.
I really enjoyed this book. I have read a lot of BDSM books, some that I found realistic, others much less, and all of them or close to, have been about a new couple, people meeting in a club, or strangers exploring things, but this is the first book I read where this is an established couple, married, with children, not struggling, but in love, and looking to explore more things in their sex life.
I loved our open and talkative they were, I loved Jes and her reaction, how she would reassure her husband and get him to open up and not make him feel judged or a monster for having those needs. How she even loved him more for it because she finally got to know him completely. I loved Laws and how he was so loving with Jes.
I need more books like this one