When we put up our much loved artificial Christmas tree this season I had a panic attack. I was in between chemo and radiation for the evil cancer, and everything just seemed SO MUCH WORK. Putting up our nine foot tree was too much. I caved. Big time.
The decision to leave the bottom half of the tree in the box (later it was taken to the dump because I do not EVER want to make that decision again) and just put up 4 1/2 feet of lovely tree on a low table SAVED my season. I survived. I had joy. And I could take the whole thing down by myself in the time it took my husband to run to the grocery store.
On Christmas night I started this book. I read half of it before I finally fell asleep. I realized my panic attack and half-tree-decision was the result of what Courtney Ellis, in her book Uncluttered, has defined for me. I was suffering from Decision Fatigue. And it was not just about the Christmas tree.
I work full time and have a family and church that I love. And I have, right now, a battle going with that evil cancer. My life is so full of decisions, appointments, doctors, stress, exhaustion, distractions, noise, pain, relationships, needs, longings, fears, hungers, emotions, and so much else, that I no longer felt the peace that we all long for. I no longer had the joy in the small things. I could not hear the still small voice of God for the noise of what was going on around me, and IN me. The weird part is that I did not even know it. I am a happy person. I have lovely friends who have been an incredible support through this season. I have a wonderful family. I pray. I have a positive attitude. I didn't even realized I was in trouble until I saw it on the pages of this book.
When I started to read Uncluttered I realized I was missing something. I was missing the peace, the joy, the grace, and yes, the SOUND of His voice. It was all around me, and I was not able to recognize it, let alone really hear it.
Courtney puts a name to what is missing, and gives good, solid, practical advice on how to find it again. Slow down, listen, rest, turn stuff off, throw stuff away, go, say no, stop, unplug, call it enough, make less choices, invite God in. Making room in our lives gives us space to breathe, think, pray, enjoy, renew, stay, encourage, invite, spread out, think, open up, consider, and even sleep. It's not about a formula. It's about strategic choices (our own, not hers) that can ground us again, and give us not only a chance to hear God's voice but to have a REASON to hear God's voice.
It won't be easy, but Courtney makes it very clear that anything worthwhile is never easy. Our hearts are worth it. Our spouse is worth it. Our kids are worth it. Our friends and our co-workers are worth it. WE ARE WORTH IT.
Courtney will speak to your heart as she did mine, with humor and grace (no judgement), conversationally and completely open and vulnerable. She has walked this path already (and admittedly continues to struggle toward the goal) and is not asking anything of me that she has not already done.
When I read a book that is supposed to change me, or take a bible study that is very intense, I always ask myself, "What ONE thing can it take away from this? What ONE thing can I do/not do that will make the biggest change?" The really practical part with this book is that the answer to this question can be different for each one of Courtney's readers. For me, UNCLUTTERED is going to be my Word of the Year for 2019 because I don't want to breeze through this lesson. It's going to take me awhile and I am going to make it last.