Maybe I'm a mess now, but I'm in the middle of everyone else's mess, too. Milo's and Shay's and Val's. We might not know where we fit yet, but we've got a strong gup on one another, and maybe that's all you get to ask for at this point in your life. Maybe it's the only thing you really need.
"I'm a mess, but I'm the mess that you wanted"🥰
I'm starting to think we take great romance novels for granted. Really. We pick them up for the relationship itself and less for the story. But that is wonderful about this genre, I guess. Properly done they are more than just books about love. They even become self-help ones.
How did this book make its way to me?
I almost bought it at the beginning of the year and a few weeks ago when I finally did I ordered it mostly for the title.
Begin again is a song I love deeply. The lyrics are simple, but they hide so much:
I'm sure everyone at some point forgot who they were. It's a risk we all have to face. The real challenge comes when we finally ask ourselves: "Who am I? What types of clothes do I like to wear? What is my favourite colour? What do I like to do?". Simple questions we all have an answer to, right? But how often is that answer coming from our heart? How often do we forget about ourselves, become part of the crowd and eventually start to answer these basic questions in relation to who we think we are? Some people do have that much of an influence over you. So the real question isn't "Who am I?", but "Who is the real me?". Don't worry. Every time you lose yourself it's the perfect time to begin again.
So, did this book live up to the title and how full of Taylor references was it?
First, let's talk about the writing and the characters.
Me and Emma Lord go back a long time ago when I read Tweet Cute. I felt closer to Begin Again. I don't know why. I thought it's going to be a quick summer read. It changed something inside me, though. I know I mentioned in a previous review that life is like a rubik's cube and you have to mix it up more than it already is in order to solve it. I don't know if at that time, before I read this book, I really meant those words. Now, however, I do.
The reality is that it's okay to have a list of steps you want to follow, but sometimes you just have to go with the flow.
Main characters:
Andie
I'll start by saying that I believe Andromeda it's a beautiful name. I loved how she tried to help everyone even being a matchmaker and at times all I wanted to do was give her a hug and tell her everything's gonna be alright. I wanted to tell her she's enough, she has nothing to prove to other people apart from herself. I guess this is what you get from this kind of suffocating relationship. She didn't deserve the unfortunate events that happened to her. I'm glad she found her own path, on her own. She'll be a great psychologist one day, I'm sure.
Milo
Sorry 😂😂😂
Milo's cute
Milo's fun
Milo's grump
And she's sunshine
(I promise, I usually make more inspired rhymes 😅)
Milo made me laugh. He was so authentic, the part he walked into a trash can and apologised to it... I lost it 😂. Eternal Darkness (insert Darth Vader voice - that's just how it played in my head, sorry 😂).
Seriously now, he's one of the most relatable characters I've seen in a while. There were so many times I thought : "My friend, I feel you".
I'm not quite sure if we have the grumpy x sunshine trope, but he's like ':
"Love's a scam"... Oh look at this newly transferred freshman. Forget it,"Love's a gift 💞"
He also appreciates her and all her talents and he's not holding her back. He gives her the confidence she needs in order to shine. Because she likes to shine, but he (Conner) didn't. So Milo's her “begin again”. Just like in the song.
Which brings us to the winner of the biggest jerk award : Mr. Connor With!
Please don't welcome him with a round of applause 🚫👏
We're not going to talk about him because he doesn't deserve our attention. Did I think in the beginning that he was cute? Yes. Did I want to punch him towards the end? Of course. And we may forgive, forget, but we never let it go.
Their college…
Wow. I mean... I don't know about you but I'd absolutely love to go to college in a place like this. Great programs, helpful teachers, snowball fights (like... ❄️), ribbon haunts, secret society, friendly people, an arboretum and volunteer activities.
Bold move of them to schedule the parents children meeting the day after the Halloween party. 😂
I understood all these students are sleep deprived 😴 and they live entirely of Eternal Darkness and bagels. 👍
The connection to the song.
I expected a playlist, something Lynn Painter style. I guess we do have a playlist if you take into consideration all the songs references.
All the characters were so TS coded.
The grandmas gave me Rebeckah vibes(I could totally see them dye a dog key lime green in a feud with their neighbour 😂). They were so supportive and fearless 💛.
Our main couple did the exact thing we expected from the Begin Again song as I said before.
Val was a bit Augustine for me.
Shay and Andie were This is me trying
And all of them together were Invisible string.
The overall TS references were pretty subtle(song names dropped here and there, the whole August slipped away into a moment in time) and one clear reference to The Eras Tour that was spot-on✨.
Also, I have to mention that before the end of the book I kept saying I was going to sue Emma Lord if she doesn't end up the book with the words in my mind, but she did so we're good 🤭.
"When we pull apart, his eyes are a brighter green than I've ever seen them; like spring leaves, like evergreen peaks, like new beginnings."
What have I learned from this book? I learned to trust fate. And most importantly, I learnt to always search for my true self.
“Well, that's all from us today," I say. "Go make the most out of it
because every day is a chance to ❤️begin again❤️.”