In the creative diary Checkers, the author John Marsden utilizes flashback to illustrate the main character’s changing emotion during and after the loss of her deepest affection Checkers, a dog. The main character is a nameless teenage girl who lived in the best suburb and went to the finest school by the support of her wealthy family. One day, the girl’s father brings home a dog for a gift, which she named Checkers. The harmonious family starts to fall apart as the press begins to attack the father’s company called ‘Rider Group,’ who accuse him of bribery, involving the Premier of the State. Rumors got bigger, and after the main character got interviewed by a good-looking reporter, who later stated that Checkers was a bribe from the Premier, the father kills the dog. Due to this incident, the girl ends up in a Psychiatric Hospital because of her internal conflict about whether she is blamable for her beloved dog’s death. By using first-person narration, the author emphasizes on the girl’s emotion so that the readers can know how she felt about her mistake and how long it took her to acknowledge it.
Throughout the book, the nameless teenage girl suffers from an internal conflict about the responsibility of Checker’s death. “The first things that went wrong weren’t my fault, nothing to do with me… that wasn’t me. How could it be me? I didn’t know what was going on.” (54 Marsden) According to this quote, whenever she flashes back to the past, she refuses to admit that the death of Checkers was her fault; she excuses her actions for being young and not knowing enough. However, during her Group therapy sessions, as everyone questions her about her past, she finally reveals that she was responsible for Checker’s death and feels guilty for him. In the end, as she mentions she is the only patient who is left in the patients’ committee, the readers can perceive that her internal conflict has not been entirely solved; she is continuously blaming and punishing herself for the death of her dog by keeping her locked in the hospital. Although the main character is blamable for talking to the reporter and causing troubles to the Rider Group, it is her father who is the foremost cause of Checker’s death, the company’s bankruptcy, and the girl’s mental illness. Not only because he murdered Checkers, but also, he disintegrated the family and destroyed the well-bonded relationships. The more business became intense, the more family conversation decreased; even her friends were keeping a distance from her. According to the quote, “Above all, though, I think the reason I spoke to him was that I was so lonely,” (111 Marsden), the isolation that the father made made her lonely, which caused her to talk to a reporter so that she could reveal her thoughts to someone. If the father had taken more care of the family and had been more honest about his job, the main character could have prevented isolating herself from the world.
John Marsden, the author, wrote the book Checkers in a first-person narrative diary to show the main character’s emotions and thoughts for every proceeding. It demonstrated how she felt about Checker’s death at the beginning, and how it changed as she flashes back to the past. Throughout this process, the unnamed girl learned how to acknowledge her mistakes, but since she could not forgive herself, she ended up staying in the hospital forever as a consequence. This shows that not only recognizing the mistakes is essential, but also, having the ability to forgive oneself is significant.