8/10/23: This book??? Yeah no, I’m actually a bit mad at how much I ended up feeling.
Malachi felt different from Grey Huffington’s usual vibe, but also… not entirely. Like the bones of it are familiar, same intensity, same emotional chaos, but this one leaned way harder into the spiritual, soul-tie, reincarnation side of things and I ate that up. I’m such a sucker for that “we’ve loved each other in every lifetime” type of nonsense and this delivered. The idea that love can be so strong you experience it twice in one life?? Yeah, inject that into my veins immediately.
But also… let’s talk.
The connection between Malachi and Aier? I liked it, I did. It was soft in places, intense in others, very “fated.” But if I’m being honest, it felt like I was supposed to believe it more than I actually felt it. And I think it’s because so much of it was rooted in Anna. Like… I don’t actually know why this man loves Aier outside of the fact that she’s tied to someone he already loved. Which is interesting in a poetic, cyclical way—but emotionally? It left me slightly unconvinced.
Now ANNA??? Don’t even get me started.
There was barely anything about her and yet somehow she was the most interesting person in the entire book. That’s crazy. Her presence was so strong for someone who wasn’t even physically there most of the time. And Malachi’s love for her? Yeah… that one HURT. Like genuinely, what kind of cruel situation is that, to find your soulmate that early in life and then lose her like that?? I was actually sick for him. I felt that grief in my chest. Grey really did what needed to be done there.
And weirdly, I think I loved Malachi more in relation to Anna than anyone else. He felt softer, more human, more real in that part of his story.
Also, not to get personal but… there were moments where I was like, “oh?” because Anna lowkey reminded me of me. The vegetarian thing, the nature-centered energy, even the physical description, it felt a little too specific at times. I don’t know how to explain it but it made the story hit differently. Like it stopped being just a book for a second.
BUT.
This is where my issue with these kinds of romances keeps coming back.
Why are we just casually ruining people’s lives with zero consequences??? Like I’m sorry, why did Hank’s girl have to die?? For what?? Now there’s a child out there with no parents and we’re just… moving on?? And Malachi of all people should understand that kind of loss, which made it even more frustrating. It’s that whole “powerful men making reckless decisions and everyone else pays for it” thing that I’m really starting to hate in these stories.
And the trauma?? There was SO much of it. Just layers and layers of pain, loss, violence, and it’s barely processed. We just keep going. No real accountability, no real healing, just vibes and emotional damage.
Which is wild because the book clearly can handle emotional depth, we saw it with Anna. So I don’t get why that same care wasn’t extended to everything else.
Anyway.
Despite all my complaints (because clearly I have many), I can’t even lie, this was a really good story. It made me feel things, it made me pause, it made me reflect a little too much. And at the end of the day, that’s what I care about most.
So yeah… 5/5 ⭐️
Even though I’m side-eyeing half the decisions in this book.