“Either they were stupid, or they were optimists. Most likely both. "I will outlive you all," I muttered under my breath.”
Optimists Die First is quirky, funny and at times heartbreaking. I enjoyed this one much more than I had expected I would.
I've heard really mixed ones on this, I know some people think the mental illness rep is bad but I didn't personally feel that. I should start by saying that I have suffered from PTSD, depression and severe anxiety for a lot of my life, so I take mental illness rep seriously. However, I don't think everything needs to be serious, it can have a lighter way of going about telling the story and still be valid. I actually related to our main character, Petula fairly well. She had been through a trauma when she lost her baby sister and now she is overly paranoid and has a phobia about death/illness. She is not really dealing with any of her issues and doesn't really have any friends until she joins an Art Therapy class and basically meets her people. She might find a pretty adorable love interest in the class as well.
One of the complaints I've heard is that Petula is seen as just a quirky girl and people love her for it. That's just not true - she has no friends and has ruined the one real friendship she had. There aren't people tripping over themselves to hang out with this girl and they aren't in the end either. It just happens that she goes to a class where she meets other people that are struggling. No, they aren't struggling with the same subjects but they have isolated themselves and been outcasted in some way. That made complete sense to me and gave me some hope for kids that are going through these kind of things.
I loved Petula's sense of humor, most people you meet that struggle with mental illness will likely make some pretty sarcastic and dark jokes about things. They are allowed, they earned it. It's how you survive, it's not being disrespectful and it's not making light of anything. I appreciated seeing that side of the character and again rang really true to me.
Yes, there are some maybe less realistic things but this is still a story and the plot has to move along. I adore the relationship that blossomed between Petula and Jacob. It made me root for them so hard. They were very flawed characters but their relationship seemed so real and genuine.
This book isn't totally light though, there are moments in this book that broke my heart slightly. The ending wasn't hearts and roses - it was uncertainty but again that felt more realistic. The only reason I rated this four stars and not five is because the constant mention of cat poop drove me nuts lol I know that is being picky but I can't only read about it so many times!! I recommend checking this one out and seeing if it relates for you at all. It's very short, so you'll have no trouble knocking this book out in a couple of hours.