i give this 4stars!
who can top the death of boobie eldest's son when he accidentally got shot, and then shannon runaway from home after fighting w/chuck and verbaly confronted chuck's long ago affair, got her flower picked by the playboy, boobie have a breast cancer n loosing all hope. if this was someone's CV, what bobie has been through since book 1 until book 3, then boobie is deserved her own gold medal and having her name printed on the holywood walk of fame.
i personally love this book, more than the first 2 books, here i can feel that boobie finally become a human!!, after she always being programmed to do the right thing and giving her all like a very inhuman being who can make even the bestes wife shake her head, bcoz God wants her to and bcoz she have to do the right thing, for god. in here, she finally got her mental break down, in here, she showing her hopelesness, her doubted, she felt left out, she began to questioning the big "WHY??". the WHY that she was supposed to embraced many years ago when she was faced by chuck's infidelity.
after brad's death and shanon goes M.I.A, boobie was diagnosed w/cancer, she making a decision to not treating her cancer at all, she was exhausted, drained and leaving chuck'c in panic. oh.. speaking about chuck, in here, he was like.. 62? 63 years old and boobie was.. 58? 59? In the first 2 book, i never being convinced of chuck's love for boobie, well, he love her, but he's not love her full enough to treasure her, he doesnt put boobie as the centre of his universe since he still can be affected by tracy, but in here, chuck, 62 years old, he really convinced me that he really really really does love boobie. finally... ofc, 62, old and drained, even if tracy's still alive, maybe chuck wont felt a thing, coz it's 62, where sleeping and sipping your tea and sit down together w/boobie will feel heavenly instead of chalenging the world. time to slow down and he really give boobie the best attention that he can, even more when boobie was diagnosed w/cancer. coz, like the first book, it took chuck's 18years not to love boobie like she deserved to be love, and it took an affair for him to trained himself to accepting and embraced boobie like he was supposed to do all those years, in here, it tooks a cancer for him to really really reaaaalllyyy... treating booby like a queen, he care for her more than what he was potrayed in the first 2 books, you can feel his love for boobie. if he love boobie in the first 2 books, in here, he LOVE boobie.
the emotional in this book is so strong, so human and soo normal.
im no christian, i did my best to following my own reigion's rules and pray to God as what a good human being do, i held onto my pray to god whenever i have trouble, like what boobie did in her own religion, BUT I still letting my flawless human being comeout, i dont PUSHED myself to DO the right thing when my heart still heavily cant accepting the reality, i will give time for my own self to sulk, questioning, throwing tantrum, yelling and denying and maybe make a mess, as long as im not hurting and bring harm to others, i will not pressing the -what i have supposed to do, what i must supposed to do bcoz God's wants me to- when all i feel is.. not now, i dont want to.
this is boobie doing her own version of "why god" after what she think she did in the past, she confronted god by throwing her question of, why god still do this, what was her fault? why she was being thrown into this situation? why taking her son? why shanon runaway?why?? when years ago, she was willing to forgive the most hurtful moment in her life when chuck betrayed her w/his affair in a heart beat, when years ago, she was cafed by tracy and willingly to accepting jack as her own son and recognized him as chuck's n tracy's son no matter how hurtful it sounds to her, she accept all of that w/ll her heart, but then... why she was still be in the hurtful situation again?
so, boobie start to rebel and not readin her bible again, she closed her comunication w/god, she shut chuck's out, she wont do this and wont do that, she didnt smile, nor do trying to having fun. she wants to "sleep" by letting her cancer untreated, after all, wht else her reason to lived when she felt that even god can do this to her?
THAT, my Friend, is something that i longing from boobie since book 1! her human feeling!! not her good-christian-supposed to do programmed. this kind of journey of how boobie dealt w/her problem in a most human emotionally response is what i want to see, and her journey back to hold onto God and finding her way to bcome the most human christian wife, is what makes the result even more sweet.
i love everything in this book! thus, 4 stars!