Squeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! *****5 stars*****
"Packard and me in the back booth. The candlelight, the discoveries, the lies. The intensity of Packard's gaze, as though the emotions inside him burn too hot. The aliveness I felt."
It is so rare that a series ends in a way that makes the reader happy, as well as tying up any and all loose ends. This series closer delivers that and much, much more. First off, I want to say that Carolyn Crane is a very talented writer and I hope that she's already working on something new. Carolyn Crane took hypochondria and raised it to a new level. Throughout all three books, I felt Justine's pain, her fear, her embarrassment due to her hypochondria. It was palpable, and kudos to Carolyn Crane for writing these emotions so well.
As Head Rush opens, Justine and Otto are in the midst of planning their fast approaching wedding. Justine is still trying to find her car, which was mysteriously towed the day that "Packard" shot Avery. Fellow disillusionist and friend Simon is helping Justine find her car. If the car is found in working condition, then Simon gets to be a bridesmaid in Justine's wedding. Of course they find the car, with Otto close on their heels. Why, because the bastard with the beret is tracking Justine, that's why! After the car is found, we find out that Justine and Otto have been doing some kinky type of things, and can't seem to connect with one another when they aren't playing games.
But here's the problem. Every time Justine thinks about the night "Packard" shot Avery, she gets a severe pain in her head. She just chalks it up to her vein star hypochondria and continues wedding plans with Simon, Ez and Shelby, her fearless bridesmaids.
In walks Packard. He sneaks into Justine and Otto's condo and tries to explain himself one more time to Justine, who just isn't buying it.
"But when he smiles, there's this lightness to him, like when you crack a rock and a gem shines out. Now he just looks lost."
Packard has been in Midcity, trying to figure out a way to clear his name and win Justine back. He has several disillusionists secretly working for him. Thankfully, Otto's despicable lie is uncovered early on in this novel. It was so nice for the truth to come out early in this book, not at the end where the heroine FINALLY figures it all out and runs back into her former lover's arms. Soon enough, the disillusionist gang is back together, and Justine is able to see Otto for what he really is. Justine's feelings for Packard are back tenfold.
I'm shaking, I realize. Packard's the one who went at the man, but I feel as though it was my heart-exposed and vulnerable-my life that almost ended a minute ago."
There is so much Justine and Packard goodness, I could go on and on. Packard still loves Justine, and his love for her is the changing kind of love. He changes Justine on a very basic level and it's beautiful to watch unfold.
He goes still, watching me, with all his love and trust bared, it seems, and I stop my smiling and coaxing. Something real is here."
At the end, the disillusionists gang is able to stop Otto's plans, clear Packard and free the rest of the disillusionists who were missing. I'm not going to go into details, but I will say that this book is non-stop action, true to Carolyn Crane form.
"'You beat it,' he whispers. 'And I love you so goddamn much.'"
Packard, whom I've always had a soft spot for, has rocketed up my list of book boyfriends due to his actions in this book. I adore this rebel with his cinnamon hair and his kick-ass attitude.
"'And I can't believe we had sex and I don't remember!'
'It was....' He's concealing a smile, 'so hot.'"
Otto's fate is sealed, and I can't say that I feel any sympathy toward him. He loved Justine because he felt he needed her to calm his fears. It wasn't the kind of love that Justine and Packard share. The only redemption I see for Otto was what he revealed to Packard at the end. He relieved a heavy burden from Packard's 12-year-old shoulders, which was the best thing Otto did in this book. And the beret is still stupid.
And the Epilogue...ahhhh....I couldn't have asked for more. Thank you, Carolyn Crane for writing this. It was a beautiful ending!
I would recommend this book to anyone who likes action-packed, fast moving, creative UF. I am so sorry that this story will not continue. It really is a shame because I've grown to love these characters and this wonderful, dark world Carolyn Crane has created. I will be anxiously be awaiting her next project.