4.5 Stars
Although I have no experience with martial arts, it is very much a part of my life. You can hardly walk in my house without seeing remnants of my brother's neatly broken boards, sparring gear, or the dozens of belts he went through to finally receive his black belt. As his older sister, though, I've seen more than just the physical evidence of his years spent on tae kwon do; I've seen the non-tangible evidence too. I've witnessed my brother transform from a shy, timid, and vulnerable child into a confident, encouraged, and courageous boy.
While I've never felt the urge to join martial arts myself, we all have something in our lives that provides stability or gives us control; that makes us feel as if we're doing something worthwhile with our lives. Very rarely, though, does that modicum of support in our life evaporate or break apart. When it does, the downhill spiral of our lives is seemingly inevitable. In fact, it's nearly impossible for me to imagine...or was until I picked up this utterly remarkable debut.
When Imogen, a tae kwon do black belt, is caught sitting in a restaurant as a gunman bursts in, she immediately crouches under her table, doing nothing to help save the gunman who is eventually cornered and killed. Now, after the event, Imogen is a mere shell of herself, closed off from the world and drowning in guilt. Ricky, the teenage boy also caught in the restaurant with Imogen during the shooting, seems to be the only person who understands Imogen and the PTSD she faces, but even his support isn't enough. It is up to Imogen to come to terms with who she is, especially without a black belt - a cloak of security - to define her.
First and foremost, I must mention that Sarah Skilton writes like a well-seasoned author, making it hard to believe this is her debut. I still have lingering doubts as to whether she has written other books under a different name because, frankly, to tackle this type of a subject with so much success and have it only be her debut is an incredible feat. And how beautifully she pulls together the story of Imogen's collapse and eventual understanding. It is achingly realistic and utterly pulls you in until every deep feeling of Imogen's is recreated in your gut too.
As a character, Imogen is brimming with flaws - which is possibly why I love her so. Not only is she inherently lost, but even before the incident, she was quick to judge and shut people out of her life, whether it be her father who is confined to his wheelchair or her older brother who she sees as nothing but a player. Now, depressed and bogged down with resentment, all Imogen feels is the need to prove herself again. Bruised takes it upon itself to carve out the heart-breaking journey Imogen must take to find herself, her control, and her passion all over again. It isn't as easy as simply coming to terms with her fright in the restaurant, it's also about dealing with her conflicted emotions towards tae kwon do. Is martial arts really a way of protecting yourself or is it only a method of fighting in a controlled environment, not real life? As Imogen struggles with these thoughts, we find our hearts going out to her, slowly but steadily, until it becomes impossible not to fully love her - with every one of her blatant faults.
Furthermore, what truly proves Skilton's talent is her ability to weave in layers of Imogen's life side-by-side with her PTSD. We witness the very real dilemmas Imogen faces at home with her family and in school with her friends. Although her relationship with Ricky is tender and sweet, it has its ups-and-downs too and Imogen's life, like all of ours, decides to throw everything at her at once, making her journey all the more realistic and poignant. Truly, Skilton makes you feel as if you are Imogen, flesh and bone, to the extent that this novel nearly steals your breath away from you during certain scenes. It is simply such a raw punch to your gut at times, its brutal honesty and beautiful resolution, that I am rendered speechless just thinking about it.
Bruised is not a perfect novel, but its flaws are minimal. Although it is realistic in every aspect that counts, the overnight-resolutions when it came to Imogen's issues with her family, and particularly her father who she feels is no longer a pillar of strength because he is now in a wheelchair, were a little too conveniently placed towards the end. Additionally, I found myself wanting more when it came to Ricky's separate manifestation of PTSD that was so different from Imogen's. While these are minor reservations that kept me from rewarding this with a full 5 Stars, they don't change the fact that Bruised is an utterly compelling debut. Sarah Skilton has earned not only a fan, but a stalker for I assure you, I will be eagerly waiting to see when her next book is due. And there will be a next book. If not, I will personally petition for one. Until then, though, do yourself a favor and read this. Bruised is one release this year you really do not want to miss out on.