This is a heartbreaking story of a family trying to survive after tragedy. When his much-loved, pregnant wife is murdered, Jace not only must deal with his grief and that of a five-year-old Kaylee and fourteen-year-old Jorry, but with the overwhelming needs of his premature, brain-damaged son, cut from his dead mother’s body. Jace is determined to care for his son himself, but the reader is soon drawn into Jace’s nightmare existence as the constant demands of Colton’s physical and mental handicaps leave him struggling to cope and too emotionally exhausted to care for his daughters’ needs or his own. He feels “there is no one to pull him out of the deep swirling, downward sucking current he felt trapped in.”
One theme of the book is the human need to feel understood and accepted. How many caretakers are out there like Jace, feeling lonely and that "they were unable to understand how it felt to run on empty”? What happens when the parent fails in balancing the needs of the healthy siblings with constant demands of caring for the sick one? Jorry’s damage is obvious, but Kaylee and Colton suffer also in the stressful home environment. Domestic abuse is shown as the result of feelings of powerlessness and lack of self-worth, the opposite of being understood and accepted.
Fortunately, for Jace, help does come; and he is able to fix some of the wreck of his life. The emphasis of both the storyline and Jace’s attention then shifts to Jorry as she spirals downward toward destruction. To say more would be too much of a spoiler; but the pace of the story accelerates, and all relationships are stretched to breaking point and beyond.
My only grievance with the book was the professional involvement of Shara. I had a hard time believing a doctor could devote so much time to one child. I understand why it had to be so for the sake of the plot, but I doubt that kind of help would have been available to the average parent. Colton’s problems seem to have been sewn up by the middle of the book, and he fades from the center of the family dynamics. I just don’t know if that is realistic.
I enjoyed the book and was completely absorbed by the struggles of very likeable characters to find happiness after all the tragedy and pain . I received this as a giveaway by Goodreads First Reads. The thoughts are mine.