Unlovable

by Choice Jane Doe

Thirteen year old Jessica thinks she just hit the jackpot. The most popular boy in her middle-school, Eric, just became her boyfriend and now she’s finally in the ‘it’ crowd. At first the relationship is like a dream come true but it quickly turns into a nightmare when Eric becomes abusive, controlling and sexually violates Jessica. Unable to understand how someone could say I love you and the next minute treats you like someone they hate, Jessica gets sucked into the abusive behavior and loses herself completely to it.

Genres: Young Adult, Abuse, Ebooks

92 pages, Kindle Edition

First published November 21, 2011

Reviews

[Kim Wagner · Rating 2 out of 5]

I think this author was more focused on getting her story out there rather than focused on how it was told. There were several typos, but I was still able to follow the story. I think the author did a good job of showing what emotional abuse can look like in relationships and did a good job of “easing” readers into it - the red flags weren’t apparent right away and I thought that was good. I wish there were more points about the ways that Jessica healed after this relationship and what she would tell herself now. Overall it was a fine book, it might be good to give to teens to talk about what abusive relationships can look like. I think the plot could have been developed a little more, but it’s worth a read.

[KikiTheKind · Rating 5 out of 5]

This is a heartbreaking story about a young girl named Jessica. In middle school, Jessica knows she's too young for many things. When she meets Eric, they immediately hit off and become boyfriend and girlfriend rather rapidly.

Over a relatively short amount of time, Eric shows his inherent possessiveness and jealousy of just about anything Jessica does. Even attending her grandmother's birthday party becomes a Defcon 5 blowup on his part. She "doesn't love him" if she doesn't drop it all and pay sole attention to him.

Things digress to the point where Jessica has to abandon everything she has ever done, everyone she has been close to, in her life before Eric. If she doesn't answer her phone, she's cheating on him; if she touches another boy, she's a slut; and his defining characteristic: if she doesn't sleep with him, she doesn't love him.

Eventually, all of these aspects collide violently, leaving Jessica feeling abandoned, completely alone and unable to ask for help.

And a side note on my part: where in the **** is her mother during all of this?! If she had taken even half the amount of interest a normal parent takes, she would have seen even the smallest sign of trouble her daughter was in. It makes me feel awful that this child, now an adult, was never able to tell anyone about her ordeal and has suffered her entire life. The one person she did tell was too young to be able to advise her properly and gave her bad information.

People, pay attention to your children! Yes, you do see clearer in hindsight, but you're not blind before then! Ask the questions, and pry if you have to. Would you rather have a child mad at you for interfering or a child who is subject to abuse?

I have been going back and forth as to who I would recommend this book to: parents, children or both? I still don't know, but the point is that the conversation needs to take place in the family. Whether the parent makes their child read a book like this or attend a class or just plain talk it out, get the point across and protect and empower your kids!

Five stars for making me really think it out.

[IC · Rating 4 out of 5]

I read this book because it was free on my kindle and I wanted something to read. When I first started reading this I didn't know what to think. I wanted to keep reading because I don't like abandoning books even if it's bad. The main character's parents are divorced and her father doesn't really talk to her that much and her mother is always gone and she is going into 8th grade and spends sometimes with her cousin. So her cousin wants her to go with her to these guys house because she likes them and it turns out the guy her cousin likes, likes her?! She is so happy that they start dating. It was good, until he started raping her, because she thought that was the way to keep him and she didn't really like it. One time when she wanted him to use a condom, he used a plastic bag! Can someone say oww!! That was terrible and he isn't a real man for doing that and punching her and belittling her. Shame on him. Towards the end of the book she decides not to put up with it and knocks him out on the first day of high school in the front of the school. After that happened he left her alone and moved on to someone else. The last page she was talking about how this is a real book and she has never told anyone until now (in the book) and it was so good. I would read it again.

[Alex · Rating 2 out of 5]

While I understand that the content of this book is sensitive as well as based on the author's own experiences, the grammatical errors and awkward writing style really detract from her story and message.

As I was reading this, I wanted to relate to the characters and feel what they were feeling but found myself highlighting all the errors instead, which probably makes me a horrible person.

The author stated in the notes that this relationship defined her more than any other event in her life, including her marriage, graduation, and birth of her children. If this is were my defining moment, I would want it to be airtight. T's crossed, i's dotted. Instead it comes off as a sloppy and rushed, which is terrible considering that this really happened to her and has potential to be a guiding source for other teenage girls.

I believe in being self-published (which I HOPE is the case), but I also believe in doing it right.

[Veronica Vannoy · Rating 2 out of 5]

Umm....Why on earth did I read this book. Not only was it just... not that good, but there were so many grammatical errors and spelling errors it was mind blowing. How could someone miss the fact that they called a he a she, or said the wrong name when talking about someone else. How does that slip through rereading. My guess is that it wasn't reread at all.

So the book was about a 13 year old girl, who was so obsessed with wanting to fit in, and be liked by her peers, that she let a boyfriend take advantage of her and let her friends treat her like scum. It wasn't a very easy read because most of the conflicts were bad for someone of any age to have to experience, but then I would think that they are only 13! What on earth were they doing that stuff for? Then I would get weird-ed out and just want to be done with this book already. Sigh. Thank goodness it was short.

[Jeanie · Rating 4 out of 5]

yes, there were grammatical errors, but I don't think the author was going for.. grammaticaly correct.. unless you have been in this situation, you might not understand. for me, I was in her exact shoes at 16.. and for me it was a real portrait.. of how things are in those relationships.. maybe her writing sucks, but the message and realness of this book makes up for bad writing.. at least she had the courage to put it out there. I've been working on putting my story out there for years.. and I still don't have the courage to put it out there..

[Medeia Sharif · Rating 3 out of 5]

Jessica is thirteen and has her first boyfriend. His name is Eric and he’s one of the most popular and handsome boys in the school. This is no dream relationship, though. He’s abusive, beating and raping her, and Jessica convinces herself that it’s normal, he loves her, and things will be better despite her constant discomfort. She receives a tremendous amount of pressure from her friends, who push her into being sexually active. The book moved fast, was engaging, and presented serious topics, but the grammatical errors were numerous and distracting.

[McKinlay · Rating 1 out of 5]

hands down, worst book i've ever read. the author doesn't know the difference between to and too, their and there, your and you're, OR past and present tense. the characters aren't likable. it's just SO. BAD. don't read it. AWFUL! i wish i could give it 0 stars.

if you want to read a book about domestic violence, pick up Bitter End by Jennifer Brown or Dreamland by Sarah Dessen.

[Jessica · Rating 3 out of 5]

All in all Unlovable was a good YA book. I found myself getting frustrated with Jessica's choices and wanted to shake her throughout the book. That is to be expected with a book about a young girl in any relationship. The writing seemed somewhat rushed but I do believe it was this authors first novel. Overall I enjoyed the book.

[melina · Rating 1 out of 5]

Worst

aside from the many grammatical errors I read, what kind of 13 year old goes out drinking with high school kids. the plot is so cliche, girl falls in love with what she thinks is an amazing guy and he turns out to be something completely different. this book is very predictable as to what will happen next. nothing new that i haven't already read.

[Morgan · Rating 2 out of 5]

Over all the book had a good message and good moments but it had more negative aspects than good ones. I personally found the main character Jessica to be annoying and very stereo typical which was very aggregating. This book also contained issues that make my blood boil but at the end the moments that were the most frustrating were the highlights of the book.

[Shaveta Brock · Rating 5 out of 5]

Poor Jessica

I felt sorry for Jessica. 13 is too young to be dating. With parents who could care less of what she did I'm not surprised how desperately she craved loved. Unfortunately the one boy who promised to love her raped, beat and humiliated her. I felt sorry for her. I'm happy she got the courage to stand up for herself in the end.

[Amy · Rating 4 out of 5]

This book did have some typos and grammatical errors. I tried to submit all of the ones I found for review. All in all, I enjoyed it, and I think that it is an important book. It reads like a true story, and I want the author to know how brave I find her for sharing her story. I'm glad you're out! <3

[Desiree · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book was powerful. I think any mother with a teenage daughter should have them read this book so they understand what is and is not ok in a relationship. I don't remember why I chose to read it but I'm glad I did.

[Jody Gorney · Rating 3 out of 5]

Not bad, definitely a quick read. A good story for anyone who can relate to this kind of situation. I think it would have been better if the "couple" was a little bit older, but it is to my understanding that this is a semi-true story.

[Dana · Rating 5 out of 5]

I give this five stars because it shows teens what it's like to be in an abusive relationship. Hopefully no one here is living like Jessica. Ladies, if your man starts acting like an Eric, get out! Guys, do not do this to your wife\girlfriend!!

[Traceylee · Rating 3 out of 5]

Why

I liked at the end how she stood up for herself. It is never good to let a guy take advantage of you saying if you love them you will do it. Which includes getting abused physically.

[SHOOK UNICORN · Rating 4 out of 5]

So I read this book, and it was great! The only thing that I hated about it was the grammatical errors and misspelled words, I am very particular about things such as those. But all in all, this book was great and I will recommend reading this book because it teaches a lot about abuse.

[Michelle Mlenedez · Rating 4 out of 5]

Very entertaining

This book was very entertaining. I read it in less than a day. It tells a story of an innocent 13 year old girl, going through many struggles and heart breaks. Loved the ending

[Zoe King · Rating 2 out of 5]

I feel for the author as I believe this was a book about personal experience, but I believe this book was poorly written. It was difficult to read not only because of the content but the way it was written.

[Miranda]

Amazingly

this is the best book ever written please read this book I really love this book you get so involved with the characters

[Kai Van · Rating 2 out of 5]

Spelling & grammatical issues GALORE! For such a serious subject, it does matter.

[Jordyn B · Rating 1 out of 5]

Kindle Unlimited. This was so hard to finish. Ugh...

[Rebecca Jones · Rating 2 out of 5]

It was okay

short and easy read on a heavy topic. some spelling errors in the book and that drove me crazy. but other than that it was just okay.

[Dana · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book was VERY good! I love reading about troubled teens and I don't think it gets any more troubled than this.

[Elowen · Rating 3 out of 5]

2.5 Stars

[Lady Theresa Runnion · Rating 5 out of 5]

I think that every 12 year old girl should read this book. It deals with issues they are going through around that age and could potentially save them.

[Carli Wolf · Rating 2 out of 5]

Okay story

It was an okay book. There was a lot of grammatical errors which made following along hard at some points.

[Caitlin Garcia · Rating 5 out of 5]

Wow!

Amazing story. A few grammatical errors but awesome story and message to be heard. I LOVED IT SO FUCKIN MUCH.