I remember reading this book while I was in middle school or something. I just finished reading it now. I had no idea that it was such a thin book, but it still grabbed me like a heart attack. I loved how the MC is racially mixed like me: black and white. Lauren is a senior in high school and she has made a promise to herself to not end up like her drug addict mother; she wants to stay a virgin until she’s married with the person she loves, Tyler *cough cough* SCUMBAG ASSHOLEE PIECE OF TATER SHIT *cough couch*.
Lauren lives with her Gram because her parents were unsuitable to raise her. She begins to see a red Honda following her around and she feels scared. Tyler makes sure she is protected and is everything a perfect boyfriend should be…in a way. He is caring. Loving. Protective. A great listener. Attentive. Flirty.
But he wants sex. He’s 18 and embarrassed that he hasn’t done the deed with the love of his life. He constantly tries to “softly” pressure Lauren into sex, saying that they are already going to get married, so why should they wait? Sounds smart?
No. Lauren is very adamant about staying a virgin. She wants to wait, which I totally respect. No one should force you into something you really don’t want to do. Tyler works at a green house or garden nursery with Shawna, the outcast at school. Over time, we notice that the two are very buddy-buddy (you see where this is goin’, eh?). Shawn was raped by her stepfather and abused, so she has a few issues. She’s poor, wears ratty clothes, and basically is the person everyone calls a weirdo.
After a while, Tyler stops pressuring Lauren after she, distressed once again, tells him she wants to wait. He respects her choice and we, the reader, think he has seen the light and will patiently wait for his love to give herself to him on their wedding night. Hell, he even gives her a promise ring.
Once night, when Gram forgets to return a few shovels to the nursery, Lauren volunteers to do it. When she gets to the place, she happens to find Tyler on top of Shawn getting his groove on. What made me scream with rage was the way she described him *ahem* finishing. I literally felt my face go red and screamed/squealed like a Valkyrie. I was livid!
Rereading this, I wanted to see if my opinion of this book would change. Nope! Still screamed/squealed. Still intsa-pissed. Still hate Tyler’s guts. But I loved the hell out of this book because it showed me that even if you really love someone, there is always a chance they can hurt you. I’m glad Lauren stuck to her promise and beliefs. I wish the book had been longer, and the ending was such an open-ended thing that I almost wrote the author to give me a “Epilogue” or a “20 Years Later” thing. I seriously want to know how Lauren grew up and where she went in life. I have never wanted to find this out about a character so much.
Also, I loved how it turned out the guy in the red Honda was her father. He wanted to build a better relationship with her. He was clean, got himself in order, and I LOVED that. It reminded me of how my own father and I reconciled our relationship. Lauren, just like me, was angry at her father for what he had done. Also like me, Lauren decided to forgive him and move on from the past.
As for Tyler, we hear his side of the story and it is just so stupid and infuriating that I had wished he was a real person so I could pummel his face in. There is never an excuse to cheat on anyone. “But I did it for you, Lauren! I’m going to wait for you!”
Uh, no! You fucking broke your promise and went to fuck someone else just because you were tired of being a virgin. If you loved someone, you would wait for them, or if your need was too great, you’d leave them. Going to have sex just to “have the experience” doesn’t excuse this bullshit.
All in all, this is a good book to learn from. It’s realistic, the lesson isn’t overbearing, and it isn’t afraid to bare the truth.