3.5 Stars
I have always been fascinated by high achieving athletes. The singular focus that they must have to reach the higher levels of performance is something that I just don’t have about anything in my life, and so I was interested to read In Deep because of that. Brynn is extremely focused on swimming. So much so, in fact, that everything else in her life is just noise. Everything she says, and each friendship she has, is a means to an end for Brynn. So, in that respect, she really doesn’t know how to have meaningful relationships because everything is secondary to her need to win. It became less about relationships and more about winning at relationships, which never turns out well. It was actually a breath of fresh air to read a book that focused on a relationship with an interest, in this case a sport, instead of a romantic relationship. The pain that Brynn felt about her life was muffled by her need to compete and win. Since her way of coping was a sport, I think that it was viewed by everyone in her life as being constructive rather than destructive.
As the book progresses, you see her need to complete for everything start to erode friendships and romantic relationships. More interesting was that the people in her life, up to a certain point, were easily dissuaded. As long as she was swimming and seemed somewhat normal, her mom , step dad, and friends, seemed to ignore or perhaps not notice how Brynn was sinking more and more into her obsessiveness. It struck me how easy it can be to fool people into thinking you are ok, whether you are a teen or an adult, and Brynn certainly had that down to an art form. Eventually, though, that becomes too hard to keep up, and when things fell apart, it was heartbreaking for everyone. The scenes with her mom were very emotional and well written, I thought. I have to say that I was a little sad that the ending was a bit rushed because I really wanted to see more of Brynn’s realization about her life and how she balanced it. The revelations came too easily, in my opinion. Despite that, I thought that In Deep was a very thoughtful examination of letting one thing, whether it’s a love interest, a hobby, or a sport, take over your life and obscure the people who truly make up your support system.