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First published May 4, 2000
Shaz knew more about sex than any of us boys and it was his erudition which drew me to him. At an early age he was versed in mysterious acronyms and abbreviations like CP, DOM, SUB, 'O' and 'A' levels, DIY, AC/DC, etc. Compared to Nasim, Shaz was positively brilliant. It was Nasim who startled me one day as we were waiting for a No. 88 bus at Tooting Bec Station by declaring that babies were born through the anus. He was adamant on the point and scoffed at my dissent. Even I, a complete virgin, knew that babies were born up-front, though the precise mechanism was still extremely puzzling.
The Home was in fact a prison for youth, and the innocent who were taken there were soon converted to criminal ways. Boys abandoned by parents through no fault of their own quickly grew into little gangsters.
All that is behind me now, I will never come back this way again, I tell myself, looking out for the taxi. It's true, I never really knew any of them anyway, time moved so quickly and I was never in one secure place long enough to form perfect conclusions. In the next three years, allocated my own room in college out of recognition of worth rather than need, I will make lasting friends. Patel's taunt that I want to become a white man is ridiculous. All I want is to escape from this dirt and shame called Balham, this coon condition, this ignorance that prevents me from knowing anything, not even who we are, who they are.