Near the beginning of Nine Suitcases, Béla Zsolt recalls meeting some Jewish prostitutes from a Nazi ‘field brothel’ beside a railway track in Poland. One girl asks him and his companions if they’re Jews: “You’re going to kick the bucket like us,” she warns them. Zsolt goes on:
Another girl, in the last stages of pregnancy, who was carrying some mouldy bread in a music case, asked us: ‘Have you got any German books? I’ve just finished what I had today. I’ve got a few days left to read a new one if it isn’t too long.’ - ‘Why have you only got a few days?’ – ‘Because then I’m going to die. Wait a moment…’ and she counted on her fingers. ‘Seventeen or eighteen days. Then I’ll be in labour. Then they’re going to take me behind the bushes and bang…Dort is der Hurenfriedhof’ [That’s where the whores’ cemetery is.:]
I don’t even know what a suitable response to this story would be; maybe just an overwhelming sense of shame at belonging to the human race. And I don’t know what we’re supposed to take away from it, either, unless it’s the knowledge that such atrocities have happened in the past, are still happening today, and will happen again.
Assuming you’re over the age of twelve, you don’t need to read Nine Suitcases to know that human beings are mostly a bunch of shits: not downright evil, by and large, just shabby—infinitely shabby. The men who sent Zsolt—a prominent liberal journalist in Hungary before the war—to dig graves on the Eastern front, and later to prison and the Jewish ghetto, were not world-historical monsters: they lacked the panache to play that role. They were contemptible, small-minded mediocrities, not unlike some of the people you work with—or, God help you, for—every day. I’m not endorsing the ‘banality of evil’ thesis: there’s nothing banal about shooting a pregnant woman. But Zsolt himself tells us that he couldn’t work up a proper hatred for his oppressors, however loathsome their behaviour: they were just too stupid, too absurd, too ‘petit bourgeois’ (one of his favourite epithets).
While Nine Suitcases contains a lot of passionately bitter writing—what moron wouldn’t be bitter in Zsolt’s shoes?—it’s not all gloom. Again and again, Zsolt is astonished by the generosity, and sometimes the pure, suicidal heroism, of the least likely people. In Russia, more than one peasant risks summary execution to help a sick Jewish intellectual on the run; dangerously ill with typhus, Zsolt is attended by an overbearing military doctor, who calls him a ‘cemetery case’ and curses the Jews—then sits by his bed all night, prescribes a ‘first-class diet’ (against the hospital’s anti-Semitic regulations) and in an unguarded moment tells him: “To hell with this bloody world! I’m so sorry for you. I’d love to send you home and I’m going to try, but I don’t think these bastards will let me.”
Zsolt adds:
And the next day he was roaring at me, as always. But he had saved my life... He was a doctor from Sopron, a gentile, Dr Kovács. If I were to get out of here alive, I would tell everybody that such things also happened.
As some of you know, I’ve been reading a lot of appalling, horrific stuff lately, gobbling up books on the Soviet Terror, WWI and other Really Bad Shit. But I just realized that what attracts me to this material is not some decadent taste for extreme situations—or at least, it’s not only that. It’s also a need to hear stories about people like Dr Kovács. This will sound corny, but I’m looking for models of human goodness, because in my bumbling, half-assed, diffident way, I want to be good, too. And not necessarily actively good, like the doctor; most days I’d settle for not being a total bastard. That’s something to work towards, isn’t it?