”Somewhere during my ten days in Paris and Brittany I received an illumination of some kind that seems to have change me again… in affect, a Satori, the Japanese word for sudden illumination, sudden awakening, or simply kick in the eye.”
Satori In Paris was my second Kerouac novel, read nine years after first reading On The Road. It struck me then as being far different in tone and pacing — a mature man’s book as opposed to a young man’s.
On this re-reading, more than a quarter century later I am impressed by just how melancholy this short book is. On The Road had a subtext of loneliness if you looked hard enough beneath all the frenetic activity, partying, running back and forth coast to coast together with mates. But in Satori In Paris the loneliness is right there on the surface. He even calls himself “the loneliest man in Paris.” Instead of a young man driving the roads of his country high on tea with his bosom companions, here he is a pudgy, middle aged American tourist, all alone in Paris, staying drunk and debating with the residents the purity of his French Canadian French over the variety spoken by Parisians. He seems aware of his own decline and resigned to it:
”My manors, abominable at times, can be sweet. As I grew older I became a drunk, why? because I like ecstasy of the mind. I’m a wretch, but I love love.”
Gentle sadness mixed with humorous resignation seems to be the theme. That sharp, surprising Kerouac descriptiveness is still evident, but the pace has slowed to that of an aging drunk going to fat. And what of the satori of that clever title? First he muses that it may have been a cab driver. Later he allows that it might have been conversations over cognac with the natives. He never really illuminates anything that resembles a sudden illumination. It’s almost as if the title is part of a melancholy, drunken joke.
This book, published just three years before his death, is a necessary bookend to Kerouac’s career. If you are a fan, you definitely need to read it. Three and a half stars rounded up.
When God says, “I Am lived,” we’ll have forgotten what all the parting was about.