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Perillegal

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And then it happened, her worst fear, every woman's worst fear. A man has broken into Gules' home, blindfolded her and bound her wrists, but when he hesitates to act, Gules tries to talk to him, tries to do anything to keep him at bay. The intruder lets it slip that he knows her, that he has become infatuated with her, that he even works with her. Fearing his identity might be uncovered, he slinks away, but now Gules is committed to finding him.

Paranoia is rampant as Gules investigates every coworker at the law firm where she works as a paralegal. She has a few suspects. It could be her lecherous boss. Or maybe it's the security guard who smiles at her everyday. It might even be the messenger who delivers the intruder's letters with her mail. Even the cafeteria worker, with his lustful eyes, cannot be trusted. Oh, but her prime suspect is undoubtedly the new paralegal she must work with.

However, when the intruder returns for a second visit, he comes for her mind, not her body. Talking to her was far more gratifying to him than sex. She bargains with him to leave her home and never return. He agrees, for a price: one kiss. At first glance, the request is easy to grant compared to the chastity of her body. However, that single kiss may cost her something far more valuable, and if she does not find out who the intruder is soon, she runs the risk of losing her heart in the search.

263 pages, Kindle Edition

First published December 4, 2011

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January 16, 2014
Brilliantly horrible or horribly brilliant? WARNING : brain-bleach-inducing (not graphic) image ahead.

Long ass-rambling incoming. I need about 20 people to read this book so they can discuss the WTF?-ness with me. Watch me discuss with myself the madness of this book, as I try not to strain my own brain with the wtf-ery of it all. Yes, there will be some spoilers (however, the ending will not be revealed). I can't break this book down without them. Read ahead at your own risk.

Just when I'm ready to pull the trigger and 1 star Perillegal, I start thinking about it all over again. I could complain about several things which were so completely wrong about the story, but one thing I can't argue is the fact that I could NOT stop reading. I was sucked into this vacuum and couldn't get out.

So, I'm going to refrain from rating because I can't figure out how to weigh entertainment value against all things frustratingly sick and twisted. I hated the idiocy and devaluing of the effect of rape trauma, yet I couldn't look away either.

Let's go back to the idiocy before I discuss what had me glued to the pages. What was up with the lead's "inner bigot voice?" Was she really snap-judging would-be rapists on appearance? I get that she was running through a list of stereotypes in her head while in a state of shock and probably didn't believe any of those stereotypes, but I didn't care what her perceptions or values were in that instance based on her experience - it just came across on my end as a needless internal dialogue which would make most readers feel insulted.

I've read a lot of books where Stockholm Syndrome is used as the means to cover for a sketchy relationship. While this book doesn't exactly have a kidnapping scenario, the bi-product of what was happening would fall under that same umbrella. I'm not sure I even minded how quickly the lead character let down some of her guard, no matter how unlikely her behavior would be for most people. Where the story fell off for me was that we skipped right over any sort of trust building and went right to attraction - TO A WOULD-BE RAPIST WHO COULDN'T BE SEEN. Under normal circumstances, the audience might cheer for a woman who falls for a man without knowing what he looks like (see : Hearts in Darkness). But the obstacles are doubled here when a person is a creeper with predatory fantasies and he might actually look like a creeper as well because she didn't know. How did she not envision someone who looked like a molester with a furry 'stache (never mind that she let him hold her so she knew he was lean and clean shaven)? Wouldn't that be the normal conclusion a brain would jump to? How long does a person need before the stalker stereotype fades into something less grotesque in their head?

Big Eww moment for me : I hated how the story of "stalker rapist" somehow turned into a story of Peter Pan flying into Wendy's window. Does no one remember creepy internet Peter Pan from a few years back?


But let's get back to where my brain pretended to ignore logic. I'm used to mind-fuck stories with anti-heroes. I don't even mind reading about characters who are fundamentally broken beyond the point of repair. Hell, I've even rooted for a few of them. Sometimes it's easier to put aside notions of things having to be right or wrong when the story is laid out in such a way where it forces you to either accept the situation or not - period. There is no pondering whether or not to agree - it's screwed up and things aren't changing. This is the point where you decide if you're going to upvote or downvote, based on if you care enough to embrace the characters, flaws and all.

For example, take a story like Comfort Food, where the lead is sick and deranged. There's no getting around it. You aren't expected to like him. The reader then gets to relax and decide whether or not to invest in the story itself because the entire point is to think about the story as a whole, not fall in love with the characters.

I "think" this might have been a better route for Perillegal. Instead, the author tried to go the way of a story like Captive in the Dark, where the character is also sick and deranged, but the reader sees that the character didn't choose to turn himself into the person he'd become, so there's a sliver of hope that the heroine could help him find a small ounce of humanity. We know the broken part of the male lead won't ever be fixed (in essence, a big part of him will always be monster), and the reader gets to choose whether or not to root for him IN SPITE OF that.

Unfortunately, in THIS book and with THIS character, the execution didn't quite work as well. We see a man with severe mental issues, yet we don't know how far gone he really is. His obsessive urges don't so much subside as they do shift direction and focus. Obsession is still obsession. I saw no reason to believe that "Peter" would ever be healthy or functioning. Would he get therapy? What made him able to guarantee that he wouldn't try to hurt the female again? Traumatized as Gules (the chick) was, could she live a life with him and know that he wouldn't flip a switch at some point? Who cares if he only threatened her with a ruler instead of a knife - this doesn't lessen him in my eyes as a threat because he still watched her through her window for a very long time prior to that and plotted to rape her, even if he didn't go through with it.

Now though...here's where I am torn... The book was unputdownable for me. I don't know why I couldn't stop reading, but I simply couldn't. I read the entire book in one late-night sitting.

The twist at the end was actually interesting. I did manage to figure it out ahead of time, but it took me a LOT longer than I'd expected, even though the clues were right there. The first few chapters and last few chapters were INTENSE in a very good way.

This author is a talented storyteller. I was engaged, even while I was cringing. The writing was better than expected for a self-pub book.

What I think should happen : A publisher needs to get a hold of this book and change a few things, and we might have something to work with. Scrap the Peter Pan angle, keep the stalking/observing to the workplace only. Have the "almost rape" be an impulse with no forethought - maybe he crawled into her window just to be near her and she perceived it as potential rape, when he really just wanted to have her notice him and speak to him for once. You'd still get the drama of her experiencing PTSD because she thought she was in danger, but the reader would feel sympathy for the male lead because it wasn't his intent. Then the side story of the other guy who was a threat would be even more scary.


So many parts of this book were off (and an insult to women who've been traumatized and raped), but when you look at the entire unit as a story, it becomes discussion-worthy on so many levels. I hated, yet was fascinated, by the entire thing. I woke up this morning and was still thinking about the story.

The experience was a brain-bending contradiction that I simply can't rate. In a strange way, I'm glad I read the book. In an even stranger way, I do want others to read it as well because I am curious to know what people will think, both the bad and the good (okay, so the bad and the bad).


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November 28, 2013
3 1/2 stars.

Perillegal is original and entertaining; but it sort of defies categorization. For at least the first half of the book I was convinced that it was not a romance at all; but rather a quirky, irreverent, black comedy. The characters, their actions and behavior are completely unrealistic - exaggerated to the point of being absurd. Which I assume is intentional, because it is the absurdity that creates the humor.

Gules is a vulnerable, traumatized, lonely woman. She recently lost her entire family in a car wreck, after having argued with them and having said awful, hurtful things. She is not in a good place. Then she has the misfortune of being accosted in her bed, tied up, blind folded and threatened with the sharp edge of a ruler by her would-be, reluctant rapist. Her rapist is infatuated with her and was advised by a friend that the best way to "get over" her was to rape her. Gules convinces her rapist that having her body wouldn't really be satisfying and that what would work better would be talking to and getting to know her - so she convinces him to play a "get to know you" question game. Through this game, Gules learns that she and her rapist work in the same building.

The next day Gules is off the charts crazy, determined to find "her rapist", seeing rapists everywhere, compiling lists of suspects and aggressively interrogating all suspects.

Her lawyer friend who works in the same office where Gules is a paralegal tries to be supportive when Gules concludes that the lunch room is chock full of rapists:
"Gules, try to keep calm, yes?" Kathy mumbled.
"I'm trying," she whispered back. "But there are rapists everywhere, and apparently they all know each other!"


Gules then takes a particular dislike to a new paralegal Ben, who shows some interest in her:
She texted Kathy. "Sitting next to a rapist. His name is Ben. And yes, I'm sure this time. But he's a different rapist from the first one, but even more dangerous. You have to start picking me up from work." Kathy soon texted back. "Another rapist? Why am I not surprised? Tell Ben he can rape me anytime. I'm in the mood."

After getting off the bus, Gules goes straight to Kathy's office:
Kathy was not on the phone this time, not that that would have stopped her. "R-A-P-I-S-T. What does that spell? Ben."
"A lot of silent letters in his name aren't there?" Kathy said, sipping her coffee.


So, yes; Parilegal makes light of rape - a very serious subject matter; which is the essence of black comedy or "gallows humor" and for this reason it will be a book that will automatically not appeal to a wide audience. It should be noted however that Perillegal is not erotica. There is no sex in Perillegal at all. No rape, no non-consensual sex, no consensual sex, no kinky or vanilla sex. No sex at all. None. Nada. There are a handful of consensual kisses between Gules and "her rapist".

Then half way through Perillegal when I thought I had figured it out, it sort of started turning into an actual romance. And once it did it turned really sweet and actually, dare I say...heartwarming. Keeping in mind that this is a story that is clearly more farcical, not meant to be taken seriously and not intended to portray the realistic behavior of normal people in real life situations.
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August 14, 2013
Have you seen all the low ratings and bad reviews this book had gotten? Yup, there are a lot. And since this book wasn't a recommendation, I did my homework and read most of them before deciding to pick this one up.
I was still intrigued by the idea of this story, so I decided to give it a try.
Truthfully? I agree with those reviews I read. Mostly.

It is true that this book gives you the "Oh come on, that would never truly happen in a million years!" feel. And you must know that even in Contemporary Fiction, we like to get that realism feeling from the books we read.
Another bad strike, was the MC's internal monologue. She was so annoying! I wanted to slap her so many times, I lost count!
If she was feeling THAT traumatized and scared, she should have gone to see a shrink or the cops.
There where other things wrong with the book. The way things turned out at the last part of the book(and I don't mean the very end/epilogue, cause I actually liked that, for some reason), wasn't how I envisioned it working out. It seemed like Gules should have known better.
I know it sounds like I should be giving this book a 1 star rating from what I've been mentioning...........BUT!!!

And there you have it ladies and gentleman. The BUT.

The dialogue between Gules and her attempted rapist, or peter as she also calls him, was amusing and interesting.
It was entertaining. It made me want to see where the story was going and how this whole mess was going to turn out. I found it....sweet(??) to see Gules and "Peter" getting to know each other while Gules still had no idea who this guy was. This guy who had originally tried to rape her!! But "Peter" cared for her. Am I making excuses for him? No, what he did was still wrong. But this whole mess entertained me, what can I say!

So I wouldn't say this book was great or good. But I guess I wouldn't say it was bad either. Had some stuff ben cut and polished, I might have been writing a 4 star review.

So I liked and didn't like this one, but because I'm so selfish, I'm gonna hope that some of my friends read this, because I want to see their take on it. I'm already in the process of convincing my sister to read it! Muahahaha!

Happy Readings!

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February 1, 2017
Okay, I don’t like reading a book about rape and so therefore thought this was a mystery or a police procedural. I am going to say that this was a well written book. No glaring typos, grammar errs or formatting errors. And, at the beginning I was looking at 4 stars.. I could empathize/sympathize with how violated the character Gules must have felt. Her paranoia was understandable maybe even her not reporting it to the police was understandable.

Spoiler Alert ****************
But then the author lost me by making the rape not a violation but an act of love. Does this say Stockholm Syndrome to anyone else?

I am awarding this a 1-star because we have spent so much time get girls/women to understand this is a crime, that they did not invite this to happen to them, that rape is about power not love; and this author just ………………
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February 12, 2013
Wow. :( A few reviews call this a train wreck, and I can't help but agreeing. I can't seem to find better words to describe this fantasy of a story. Horrible is the best word.

We see a man dangerously fantasize about a woman and break into her house with the intent of rape. She talks him out of it and after a few more nocturnal visits, starts to care for him. Highly unlikely and honestly, I think this is a male fantasy that should NOT have been put to paper.

The saddest part? This author shows promise as a writer, but this storyline and subject matter? NO WAY. Don't just save your money, save yourself the memory of having read this book. :(
A VERY rare 1 star rating from me.

**I received this book for free to review.
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June 1, 2012
I'm having a hard time with this one. I liked the storytelling. I liked the idea. I liked the buildup of the tension and not knowing who the perpetrator was up until almost the very end.

What bothered me, and that's a very big WHAT, is the believability of this story. It just doesn't make sense. On any level. Even fantasy is based on logic when it comes to relationships, but here, in an all human setting, a relationship was built and it just doesn't make sense.

I'm trying to review without revealing anything, so I'm not going to elaborate on specifics.

All in all, not a bad read. I just think the author could have written it differently.
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February 13, 2013
I didn't want to like this book at all. A man blindfolding and tying the poor woman to a bed with the intention of raping her is horrible, but then Gules turns the tables on him and gets him talking.
The dialogue between the two is interesting, Gules internal struggle with what is going on is well written, the building relationship between the two is what kept me turning the pages. The ending is unlikely but "cute" (if you can associate the word cute with this book).
Would I recommend this to somebody, probably not. But it was ok for an afternoon read.
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March 4, 2012
This has got to be the weirdest book I've ever read. I can't even begin to describe it.
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March 5, 2012
This was a different kind of read. One thing I will say is that there is a lot of conversational dialogue. However, I liked this method because I didn't get lost in the descriptive details.
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July 25, 2012
Surprisingly funny! Kept me intrigued which is surprising since its such a weird story!
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June 4, 2013
wow - I couldn't even finish this book and I tried so hard.
It started off ok but then dragged from there and was so silly and annoying. I just couldn't get through it.
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