i feel like this collection makes the most sense after reading the final essay in it. if anything, maybe it should have been placed near the beginning? although, i feel that *coming into* the process of understanding is something she wanted to set up here. in general, i always feel equally awed and challenged by the things she writes; frankly i loved this collection, but i do feel that some of its contents were out of place, included because they weren’t initially intended for another publication/written release. i also know that, partially, that is the reason for their inclusion—that the defiance of their intended form means their “meaning” becomes deconstructed, all of it going back to the concept of decreation, how it is active and intentional, not accidental.
nonetheless—who else could combine essays, poetry, and opera together to write about subjects such as antonioni, monica vitti, sappho, simone weil, odysseus, the sublime, totality, and spirituality, all with such assuming ease? who else could see all these strands as part of the same fabric? anne carson can be most understood when you realize that in her writing, she is also on the journey towards understanding. she knows that if she claimed to fully understand what simone weil meant when she described “decreation,” it would only be from her eyes, her heart. “So in the end, it is important not to be fooled by fake women. If you mistake the dance of jealous for the love of God, or a heretic’s mirror for the true story, you are likely to spend the rest of your days in terrible hunger. No matter how many pages you eat.”
on an (unorganized) final thought, it was really interesting to see her ascribe the concept of decreation to the films of antonioni, as well as monica vitti’s corresponding performances (as she addresses the actress directly, not naming her for her characters). i really liked how she borrowed lines from ‘Red Desert’ and reformulated them, but those unfamiliar with any of these subjects/people would obviously find it a bit too far-reaching. (but, she understands the silence inside these images; that too is something that can only be interpreted, not explained.) “I want everything. Everything is a naked thought that strikes.” “Everything might spill.” “...[at] the deepest part of the sea everything goes transparent.” “Everything requires attention... ‘Everything,’ Kant says, exists only in our mind.” “If I had to go away I would take with me everything I see.” “To this [he] says nothing which is not I think the opposite of everything.” “In the clinic she met a girl whose problem was she wanted everything.” “...a clinic for people who want everything, everything I see everything I taste everything I touch everyday even the ashtrays...”