After seeing the mixed reviews, I was hesitant to read >Seizing It<, but decided to give it a try anyway. Although I ended up giving it 3/5 stars, I don't regret my decision; although it's flawed, it was a fun, quick read and I wouldn't mind seeing more from this author in the future, especially if she improves from this first novel.
>Seizing It< is the story of Kit--Nikita Hall--a 28-year-old ginger with some serious issues--who narrates the tale. A lot of reviewers found fault with him, and I don't entirely disagree. Although I did come to like him and he had me sympathetic for him in the end, especially in the beginning I had difficulty with how incredibly childish and impudent he was. As you come to know Kit, you can understand and excuse his behavior a bit, but it does make for a rough start. I honestly think it would have worked a lot better if Kit had been younger--instead of in his late 20s, if he were in his early 20s--as the reader could excuse his immaturity a bit more if that were the case.
Part of the reason Kit is so insecure is he has epilepsy--Janz syndrome-- which normally causes morning myoclonic jerks in his arms and shoulders, but that can also lead to absence- and even gran mal seizures. For the past two-and-a-half years, though, his epilepsy has been well controlled and he hasn't had any seizures, meaning he's finally been able to get his driver's license and a car, which is a big deal for him and gives him new independence, even if he still chooses to walk most places with his dog Jackson in tow.
Part of keeping his epilepsy in check comes down to keeping a regular schedule--eating well, getting enough sleep, not getting stressed, and taking his medication (Dapakene, aka Valproic acid) on time each morning and evening. Because he keeps such a regular schedule, it's easy for people to keep track of his whereabouts, and that's how the novel begins.
Kit is assaulted by a man who has been stalking him (apparently for a while) named Nigel. Kit isn't the biggest or strongest guy, and is quickly overpowered. Panicking, he screams for help and is rescued by a "bear of a man," Dr. Dale Miller. Kit acts like a spoiled little kid, petulant and ungrateful and annoyed when his sister arrives to make sure he's OK and isn't going to seize.
However, part of the reason for Kit's sulky behavior is due to the fact that he feels an instant, intense attraction to Dale, and isn't even sure if the other man is gay. He's also convinced that there's no way a man as beefy and attractive as Dale would be interested in him, either.
Of course, Kit soon discovers that Dale is his new boss--he'll be taking over the vet clinic where Kit works as a receptionist--so there's no way for them to avoid each other. His anxiety is quickly relieved, however, when he realizes that Dale is not only gay, but equally attracted to him. Considering himself a "gentleman," he insists on courting Kit the old-fashioned way and not jumping into bed together immediately, something Kit finds both endearing and frustrating. Still, Kit is paranoid that Dale will learn the truth about his past and of his epilepsy, and that will drive him away.
The overall story is interesting and it works, for the most part; Dale is the sweet, protective guy that Kit needs to finally realize he can trust again and that having someone to take care of you isn't necessarily a bad thing. However, Seizing It is still flawed.
For example, one of Kit's major conflicts is his, as he puts it, "issues" with his epilepsy. Although it's clear the author either is personally familiar with the disease, knows someone well who does, or did her research very thoroughly, it still feels as if Ms. Kat has fallen into a bit of a trap here that often plagues books with characters with disabilities. Namely, Kit seems to be a little too obsessed with his epilepsy.
I acknowledge that it is something that is a significant part of his life, and he does have to structure his day accordingly, never certain if today will be the day his seizure-free span ends, but it just seemed to be a bit TOO much. A complex, almost. From my personal experience and from the experience of talking with other individuals with chronic conditions you need to manage regularly (especially if it's something you've had a long time), routine becomes just that--routine. Because it's assumed Kit has been epileptic at least since high school (it's never made clear)--which would mean about 15 years at least--you would think that doing what he has to do to ward off seizures would simply be "normal" for him. I'm not saying he can't complain about it--sure, it can suck some times if you can't do something you want or whatever because of your disability/illness--but it's one thing to grumble occasionally and another to be brooding. Kit struck me more of someone who had recently acquired epilepsy--and in fact, I thought until he said otherwise that it was the case--rather than someone who has been living with the condition for years. This was another area in which I think making Kit younger may have helped. If he were college age, for example, it would make more sense that he would feel frustrated about not being able to stay out late like his friends without having seizures.
What I don't have a problem with, and which made him a bit more sympathetic as a character, was his fear of Dale learning the truth about his epilepsy, because no one he's ever dated has been able to accept it. Either they freak out and run away--or worse--they make him feel as if it's his fault and that he should do a better job of managing it. This makes his accomplishment of being seizure-free for the past nearly three years all the bigger, and I really liked the kind of "ticking time bomb" aspect that it added to the conflict. You knew he was going to have a seizure, it was inevitable, it was just a matter of when, where, and how Dale would react to it.
Related to this, though, I thought the author really dropped the ball with Jackson, Kit's dog. He's such a huge part of the story that I honestly expected Jackson to sense Kit's impending seizure. I realize he's not a seizure dog--although as supposedly concerned his family is I would have thought they might have invested in one since Kit lives alone--it's true that many dogs can sense seizures before their humans are even aware of them. At the very least, that they would be nervous and anxious. I expected this, even if Kit had dismissed it, and thought it was a missed opportunity.
The other major conflict in Kit's life relates to his last relationship. I'll try not to spoil anything, but basically it was extremely unhealthy and abusive; it's suggested (partially from the opening with yet another man assaulting him) that Kit is somehow drawn to these unhealthy relationships. While the after effects of the bad boyfriend color Kit's life in the present of the story, I felt the author dropped the ball here a bit, too. It would have been nice to have a little more about why exactly Kit is drawn to these type of men--is it because of his insecurity? I also thought it would have been a stronger conflict if the ex-boyfriend was still a possible threat. What if he had been locked in jail and now he's getting out?
This felt like it should have been the final part of the story; in other words, the novel felt like it was only 75% complete. It wasn't a dissatisfying ending, but it didn't feel like the true ending. I also would have liked to have seen how Kit resolved the issue with Nigel, something that is left hanging since the story ends on Sunday and he planned to call the police about him on "Monday."
I was also a bit disappointed that Dale was such a vacuous character. It's suggested that he has his own insecurities and issues, but these are never really explored. It seemed strange to me that Dale was so forward so quickly with his relationship with Kit--especially since they're going to be working together, and I think seeing more of his character may have helped.
In general, this wasn't a bad novella; but it would have been a better novel, fleshed out and better developed. I think the author needs to realize that showing is better than telling and not be afraid to explore further.