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Clear Water Creek Chronicles
Finding Eden
Eden Gray is traumatised from his rape eighteen years earlier and the part Sean Keller played in it isn't easy to forget. Eden goes from happy to desperate within minutes, never sure how long a good mood will last. But he knows that he loves Sean with all his heart and wants to lay his ghosts to rest permanently. Sean feels the same way. He treads on eggshells around Eden, afraid for his mental health and mindful of his suicide attempts. He has a hard time dealing with his guilt, and hates that it overshadows his love for Eden more often than not. Something needs to happen to let them connect and bond permanently and bring them into the light... CONTENT ADVISORY: This title contains rape-related subject matter.
114 pages, ebook
First published May 5, 2012
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May 8, 2012
This sequel to ‘Into the Light’, a very good but traumatizing book for me to read, was an unexpected surprise. I picked it up with great curiosity and interest – and not a little relief. Eden and Sean’s story may have found an ending – of sorts – at the end of the first book, but their story was by no means finished. I didn’t realize how much that bothered me until I read this book.
Eden is still very traumatized, subject to mood swings and depression. Eighteen years of therapy hadn’t helped him get over the trauma of being gang raped, and his only hope is finally being with the man he both loves and hates (for standing by without helping him). Eden’s issues of accepting the love and dealing with the hatred are depicted realistically, and there is no quick solution. The one thing that helps him get over his guilt and feelings of inferiority was a surprise to me, but it made total sense. For someone with no self-respect, the only thing that helps is learning to stand up for himself, and Eden does that in the most spectacularly satisfying way.
Sean desperately tries to do right by his lover, tries to do everything he can help, and feels like a total failure. The guilt is eating him alive, but the real issues is that he alone cannot solve the problem. As much as he wants to come to Eden’s rescue – years too late – a lot of the actual recovery has to be effected by Eden himself. I admired Sean for sticking around anyway; that, if nothing else, proves that he truly loves Eden.
One of the most hard-earned happy endings ever, it is very powerful when Sean and Eden finally do ‘move into the light’ at the end of this book. I have to say I admire Scarlet Blackwell for pulling this off, for showing how hard the healing process is – not just telling us about it. She has put two very real, very flawed people into an impossible situation – and yet, in the end, love still triumphs. If you’re interested in an undisguised look at some of the uglier aspects of human nature, if you want to read about real people and if you’ve read the first book and wondered how these two would cope with life now that they are together, read this book. It will answer many questions and provide you with a sense of closure that was lacking at the end of the first volume. I am very glad Scarlet Blackwell took the time to write the second half of Sean and Eden’s story, and I hope you will feel the same way.
NOTE: This book was provided by Silver Publishing for the purpose of a review on QMO Books.
Eden is still very traumatized, subject to mood swings and depression. Eighteen years of therapy hadn’t helped him get over the trauma of being gang raped, and his only hope is finally being with the man he both loves and hates (for standing by without helping him). Eden’s issues of accepting the love and dealing with the hatred are depicted realistically, and there is no quick solution. The one thing that helps him get over his guilt and feelings of inferiority was a surprise to me, but it made total sense. For someone with no self-respect, the only thing that helps is learning to stand up for himself, and Eden does that in the most spectacularly satisfying way.
Sean desperately tries to do right by his lover, tries to do everything he can help, and feels like a total failure. The guilt is eating him alive, but the real issues is that he alone cannot solve the problem. As much as he wants to come to Eden’s rescue – years too late – a lot of the actual recovery has to be effected by Eden himself. I admired Sean for sticking around anyway; that, if nothing else, proves that he truly loves Eden.
One of the most hard-earned happy endings ever, it is very powerful when Sean and Eden finally do ‘move into the light’ at the end of this book. I have to say I admire Scarlet Blackwell for pulling this off, for showing how hard the healing process is – not just telling us about it. She has put two very real, very flawed people into an impossible situation – and yet, in the end, love still triumphs. If you’re interested in an undisguised look at some of the uglier aspects of human nature, if you want to read about real people and if you’ve read the first book and wondered how these two would cope with life now that they are together, read this book. It will answer many questions and provide you with a sense of closure that was lacking at the end of the first volume. I am very glad Scarlet Blackwell took the time to write the second half of Sean and Eden’s story, and I hope you will feel the same way.
NOTE: This book was provided by Silver Publishing for the purpose of a review on QMO Books.
May 9, 2015
This sequel to ‘Into the Light’, a very good but traumatizing book for me to read, was an unexpected surprise. I picked it up with great curiosity and interest – and not a little relief. Eden and Sean’s story may have found an ending – of sorts – at the end of the first book, but their story was by no means finished. I didn’t realize how much that bothered me until I read this book.
Eden is still very traumatized, subject to mood swings and depression. Eighteen years of therapy hadn’t helped him get over the trauma of being gang raped, and his only hope is finally being with the man he both loves and hates (for standing by without helping him). Eden’s issues of accepting the love and dealing with the hatred are depicted realistically, and there is no quick solution. The one thing that helps him get over his guilt and feelings of inferiority was a surprise to me, but it made total sense. For someone with no self-respect, the only thing that helps is learning to stand up for himself, and Eden does that in the most spectacularly satisfying way.
Sean desperately tries to do right by his lover, tries to do everything he can do to help, and feels like a total failure. The guilt is eating him alive, but the real issues is that he alone cannot solve the problem. As much as he wants to come to Eden’s rescue – years too late – a lot of the actual recovery has to be effected by Eden himself. I admired Sean for sticking around anyway; that, if nothing else, proves that he truly loves Eden.
One of the most hard-earned happy endings ever, it is very powerful when Sean and Eden finally do ‘move into the light’ at the end of this book. I have to say I admire Scarlet Blackwell for pulling this off, for showing how hard the healing process is – not just telling us about it. She has put two very real, very flawed people into an impossible situation – and yet, in the end, love still triumphs. If you’re interested in an undisguised look at some of the uglier aspects of human nature, if you want to read about real people and if you’ve read the first book and wondered how these two would cope with life now that they are together, read this book. It will answer many questions and provide you with a sense of closure that was lacking at the end of the first volume. I am very glad Scarlet Blackwell took the time to write the second half of Sean and Eden’s story, and I hope you will feel the same way.
Eden is still very traumatized, subject to mood swings and depression. Eighteen years of therapy hadn’t helped him get over the trauma of being gang raped, and his only hope is finally being with the man he both loves and hates (for standing by without helping him). Eden’s issues of accepting the love and dealing with the hatred are depicted realistically, and there is no quick solution. The one thing that helps him get over his guilt and feelings of inferiority was a surprise to me, but it made total sense. For someone with no self-respect, the only thing that helps is learning to stand up for himself, and Eden does that in the most spectacularly satisfying way.
Sean desperately tries to do right by his lover, tries to do everything he can do to help, and feels like a total failure. The guilt is eating him alive, but the real issues is that he alone cannot solve the problem. As much as he wants to come to Eden’s rescue – years too late – a lot of the actual recovery has to be effected by Eden himself. I admired Sean for sticking around anyway; that, if nothing else, proves that he truly loves Eden.
One of the most hard-earned happy endings ever, it is very powerful when Sean and Eden finally do ‘move into the light’ at the end of this book. I have to say I admire Scarlet Blackwell for pulling this off, for showing how hard the healing process is – not just telling us about it. She has put two very real, very flawed people into an impossible situation – and yet, in the end, love still triumphs. If you’re interested in an undisguised look at some of the uglier aspects of human nature, if you want to read about real people and if you’ve read the first book and wondered how these two would cope with life now that they are together, read this book. It will answer many questions and provide you with a sense of closure that was lacking at the end of the first volume. I am very glad Scarlet Blackwell took the time to write the second half of Sean and Eden’s story, and I hope you will feel the same way.
February 18, 2013
Finding Eden is a very well written and character driven love story. Such a gripping and heartfelt story of two men with secrets in their past and A love hate relationship that is to die for.
In finding Eden we follow Sean and Eden after Eden’s trial for murdering Paul, Sean’s best friend We also find out that it isn’t the Happy ever after we had thought we got from Into the Light, The first book. Eden still hasn’t adjusted well and after he killed Paul is even more distraught. Sean is handling Eden the best he can with love and attention, but Eden’s mood swings are about more than even Sean can deal with. Sean even sometimes still worries that den hasn’t forgiven him.
Even after finding out Sean’s involvement in Eden’s rape eighteen years before I can’t help but just fall for Sean. Eden even after all he has been through I’d really like to slap the crap out of him. .So does Eden finally heal? Does Sean and Eden finally make their relationship work? Is Sean’s love for Eden worth giving up heis career and home? I am not telling. You will have to read the book. I promise you will want to read the first three too so might as well buy them all now.
I highly recommend this book for anyone that loves a very intense romantic love story. Several twists and turns, really hot sex scenes, A little light Bdsm ,Men in uniform, Very well put together characters. I just swoon for Sean.
In finding Eden we follow Sean and Eden after Eden’s trial for murdering Paul, Sean’s best friend We also find out that it isn’t the Happy ever after we had thought we got from Into the Light, The first book. Eden still hasn’t adjusted well and after he killed Paul is even more distraught. Sean is handling Eden the best he can with love and attention, but Eden’s mood swings are about more than even Sean can deal with. Sean even sometimes still worries that den hasn’t forgiven him.
Even after finding out Sean’s involvement in Eden’s rape eighteen years before I can’t help but just fall for Sean. Eden even after all he has been through I’d really like to slap the crap out of him. .So does Eden finally heal? Does Sean and Eden finally make their relationship work? Is Sean’s love for Eden worth giving up heis career and home? I am not telling. You will have to read the book. I promise you will want to read the first three too so might as well buy them all now.
I highly recommend this book for anyone that loves a very intense romantic love story. Several twists and turns, really hot sex scenes, A little light Bdsm ,Men in uniform, Very well put together characters. I just swoon for Sean.
March 14, 2013
Great follow-up to Into the Light!
No less intense and maybe even more painful and agonizing. It's like the solution is near, a little more and Sean and Eden would find their closure, but the answer keeps escaping and for each step forward they are forced to take a two steps back. And just when it seems all is almost well it falls apart. But the thing Eden needed to finally overcome his condition was kinda unexpected for me, but really fitting! I could've done without him sleeping with some faceless stranger, right after he run away from Sean though, but I guess it fit the story, so I have to be okay with that. I loved how he proved time and time again after that how he loves Sean and I loved Sean for not giving up on Eden. Their wedding just iced the HEA cake :)
Amazing series!
No less intense and maybe even more painful and agonizing. It's like the solution is near, a little more and Sean and Eden would find their closure, but the answer keeps escaping and for each step forward they are forced to take a two steps back. And just when it seems all is almost well it falls apart. But the thing Eden needed to finally overcome his condition was kinda unexpected for me, but really fitting! I could've done without him sleeping with some faceless stranger, right after he run away from Sean though, but I guess it fit the story, so I have to be okay with that. I loved how he proved time and time again after that how he loves Sean and I loved Sean for not giving up on Eden. Their wedding just iced the HEA cake :)
Amazing series!
May 2, 2014
Too short. I wish it had been longer, Eden & Sean still had such huge problems between them that the happy ending felt rushed. Although it was a well earned happy ending after all the crap both characters went through, especially Eden <3. Blackwell writes problematic characters that aren't always sympathetic but her writing just works for me.
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April 8, 2012That is one pretty cover. :)
June 3, 2012
This installment finds Sean and Eden having left Clear Water Creek trying to make a life with each other despite the tragic events of the past. Can Eden forgive Sean for standing by while his friends gang raped him.Can Sean forgive himself and be there for Eden's constant mood-swings, suicidal behavior and sexual behavior that can run from promiscuous to frigid. Sean only knows only one thing, that in order to have a future with Eden they must confront their past and finally let go of it and forgive each other.This story was not as powerful as the first installment, but still a good short read.
April 19, 2016
Excellent finish to this story. I wasn't sure when I started reading as I was actually getting a little frustrated with Eden in spite of what he went through, something that I would wish on no one male or female, but the ending worked and left me with a strong sense of optimism for Eden and Sean and the future they could share. Overall I really enjoyed this series and now maybe I can get some sleep (yeah I read most of it at night, insert big yawn here, lol). Thank you Ms Blackwell for a story that touched my heart and made me stop and think and maybe shed a tear or two over man's inhumanity to his fellow man.
October 18, 2012
Although i did enjoy this book i found it difficult. Part of me wishes the characters were left as they were at the end of the last book featuring this couple. This book deals with a rough subject matter and at times left me feeling uneasy.
I still enjoyed the book and we do eventually get the hea but its a struggle getting there.
I still enjoyed the book and we do eventually get the hea but its a struggle getting there.
June 10, 2022
This is Book #4 in this CLEAR WATER CREEK CHRONICLES. This is all about Sean and Eden. This is their journey to happily ever after. Eden has to come face first with his past. Sean is hanging on for dear life. If your heart is overflowing with love it doesn't mean the work is done. These two had a huge mountain to climb. This is another Book from SCARLET BLACKWELL I didn't put down. I found these books gripping. I'm very happy I found this talented remarkable Author. I HIGHLY RECOMMEND THIS BOOK AND THIS AMAZING CLEAR WATER CREEK CHRONICLES!!!!!!!!!!
May 22, 2020
Yeah, I come to sort of reread this story, 'cause I think that I grow up a little bit after a few years and, somehow understant it a bit more (at my point of view).
Then we have the second book about this couple, they love each other, but have a lot of flaws in their relationship, cause it's a little too crudo en la psiquis de muchos que una persona y su presunto perpretrador estén en una relación, mucho peor si es sexual también.
Sin embargo, los prejuicios acá no tienen lugar, y nunca deberían tenerlo.
En cambio, tenés la visión odd of Sean, who loves Eden but can't stand that he can't forgive him or either that Eden have a lot of cambios de humor.
Por otro lado tenemos a Eden, que encontró que el único objeto de su ira, el que estaba más a su alcance es Sean. Por lo que siempre se haya al borde del abismo, entre "castigarlo" por lo que hizo o amarlo.
Y en eso, creo que ésta autora es imcreíble, el cómo intenta retratar varios aspectos de la postvida de una persona que sufrió tanto y aún así intenta seguir adelante con todas sus fuerzas en un prueba y error constánte, donde sus personas cercanas no son supportive con él, sino todo lo contrario (su familia lo culpa por ser gay, incluso su actual pareja espera cosas que él no está preparado a dar). Y quiero señalar que esta realidad es mucho más constánte de las que mayoritariamente vemos en los libros o películas, donde sus allegados son pacientes y dulces con ellos (aunque nos pese, pasa constántemente).
Aunque me puso muy contenta el saber que, a pesar de todo, Eden encontró su camino hacia la luz, hacia el seguir adelante a pesar de las recaídas.
Realmente creo que es un libro increíble que habla sobre un tema muy fuerte, pero que si se puede hay que darle una oportunidad, mientras no te haga más daño obviamente.
Then we have the second book about this couple, they love each other, but have a lot of flaws in their relationship, cause it's a little too crudo en la psiquis de muchos que una persona y su presunto perpretrador estén en una relación, mucho peor si es sexual también.
Sin embargo, los prejuicios acá no tienen lugar, y nunca deberían tenerlo.
En cambio, tenés la visión odd of Sean, who loves Eden but can't stand that he can't forgive him or either that Eden have a lot of cambios de humor.
Por otro lado tenemos a Eden, que encontró que el único objeto de su ira, el que estaba más a su alcance es Sean. Por lo que siempre se haya al borde del abismo, entre "castigarlo" por lo que hizo o amarlo.
Y en eso, creo que ésta autora es imcreíble, el cómo intenta retratar varios aspectos de la postvida de una persona que sufrió tanto y aún así intenta seguir adelante con todas sus fuerzas en un prueba y error constánte, donde sus personas cercanas no son supportive con él, sino todo lo contrario (su familia lo culpa por ser gay, incluso su actual pareja espera cosas que él no está preparado a dar). Y quiero señalar que esta realidad es mucho más constánte de las que mayoritariamente vemos en los libros o películas, donde sus allegados son pacientes y dulces con ellos (aunque nos pese, pasa constántemente).
Aunque me puso muy contenta el saber que, a pesar de todo, Eden encontró su camino hacia la luz, hacia el seguir adelante a pesar de las recaídas.
Realmente creo que es un libro increíble que habla sobre un tema muy fuerte, pero que si se puede hay que darle una oportunidad, mientras no te haga más daño obviamente.
November 17, 2012
Sean and Eden have run off together but they seem to take one step forward and two steps back. I really couldn't decide between a 3 or 4 star rating on this one. Not sure why my feelings were so mixed on this story. Was it just the nature of the story and the abuse that brought them this far or the fact that despite being together I'm still not convinced they can really make each other happy in the end.
July 21, 2012
4.5
The one thing I've found about PTSD is that it never completely goes away.
Since I understand the symptoms, I'm not going to judge Eden for his moment with another man. It's called "Acting out"
Pretty good read about the ride you can expect with someone who's suffers from it.
Glad to see that Eden moved on from victim to survivor.
The one thing I've found about PTSD is that it never completely goes away.
Since I understand the symptoms, I'm not going to judge Eden for his moment with another man. It's called "Acting out"
Pretty good read about the ride you can expect with someone who's suffers from it.
Glad to see that Eden moved on from victim to survivor.
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April 21, 2012
I was good till Eden's infidelity which wasn't made known to Sean and blown like it was nothing. With Sean doing everything to make everything right for Eden that part wasn't warranted or justified being in this story. It could have been left out of the story. Everything else in this story I completely enjoyed other than that part that didn't jive with me.
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December 19, 2014
One if the worst endings I have ever read. Eden was a dirty cheating whore but hey, it's ok because of what he went through, right !?! WRONG ... It was complete bullshit for him to be a slut with not a care in the world for Sean and his safety. He should have been a man and owned up to nastyness instead of letting Sean put a ring on his finger without coming clean (so to speak) !!
January 17, 2016
3.5 'Good final book in series that tackles some pretty heavy issues. Some worked better than others but overall a good series' stars.
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