Columbine

by Dave Cullen

O dia 20 de abril de 1999 deixou uma marca indelével na história norte-americana. O Massacre de Columbine pode não ter sido o primeiro tiroteio em massa, mas foi o primeiro da era digital — e o primeiro de larga magnitude. Na esteira dos acontecimentos de Newtown, Aurora, Virginia Tech, Christchurch, Suzano e Ohio, torna-se cada vez mais urgente compreender e confrontar acontecimentos como o de Columbine. Nossa arma é reaprender a ouvir a dor que cresce em silêncio no outro e no cerne dos valores da nossa sociedade.

Columbine é lembrado até os dias de hoje sempre que um episódio horrível e similar ocorre, mas boa parte do que sabemos sobre o massacre está errado. Erros factuais e testemunhos duvidosos propagados à época permanecem verdade absoluta para muitos; é fácil dizer que dois meninos rejeitados pelos atletas e pelas garotas, vítimas de bullying, que vestiam sobretudos e descontavam sua raiva em videogames violentos fizeram o que fizeram por essas razões, mas até que ponto isso é real?

Dave Cullen foi um dos primeiros repórteres a chegar à cena e passou dez anos escrevendo Columbine, livro que hoje é considerado a obra definitiva sobre o tema. Passar tanto tempo debruçado neste projeto o fez analisar a postura da imprensa na época com olhos críticos; hoje, Cullen acha que a mídia tentou encontrar um motivo rápido demais, e um episódio que deveria promover uma discussão sobre desarmamento e saúde mental acabou se transformando em um espetáculo midiático irresponsável.

Em Columbine, os episódios recontados são uma mistura das reportagens que Cullen publicou na época com anos de pesquisa — incluindo centenas de entrevistas com a maioria dos diretores envolvidos, a análise de mais de 25 mil páginas de evidências policiais, incontáveis horas de vídeo e áudio, e o trabalho extenso de outros jornalistas de confiança.

Com um faro investigativo apurado e uma narrativa terna e respeitosa, Cullen apresenta o retrato de um assunto ainda infelizmente tão atual, ao mesmo tempo em que critica a cobertura massiva que se sucedeu. E questiona: por que armas de fogo ainda permanecem ao fácil alcance nos Estados Unidos? A possibilidade de se tornar uma celebridade pela mídia também mata pessoas? Será que a imprensa não deveria focar nas vítimas em vez dos assassinos?

O novo lançamento da linha Crime Scene, da DarkSide Books, ganhou vários prêmios e honras, incluindo o Edgar Allan Poe Award (2010), o Barnes & Noble’s Discover Award (2009) e o Goodreads Choice Award (2009), e foi finalista do la Times Book Prize, Audie Award e mpiba Regional Book Award. Columbine também foi indicado em mais de vinte listas de melhores livros de 2009, incluindo The New York Times, Los Angeles Times, Publishers Weekly, e foi eleito como uma das melhores obras da década de 2000 pelo American School Board Journal.

Os leitores mais investigativos da DarkSide Books agora têm acesso à obra de Dave Cullen, publicada pela primeira vez no Brasil, para questionar seu ambiente, crenças, limite ético da imprensa e a responsabilidade com os fatos propagados, tão cruciais em uma sociedade que cada vez mais clama por compaixão, respeito e verdade. Dave Cullen é jornalista e escritor, e contribuiu para inúmeras publicações, incluindo o New York Times. Ele é considerado a autoridade principal dos Estados Unidos sobre os assassinos de Columbine. Cullen ganhou diversos prêmios de escrita, incluindo um Edgar Award, Good Reads Choice Award, Barnes and Noble Discover Award e glaad Media Award. Para mais informações sobre Columbine e Dave Cullen, acesse www.davecullen.com.

Genres: Nonfiction, True Crime, History, Crime, Audiobook, Psychology, Journalism

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First published March 1, 2009

About the author

Dave Cullen wrote the definitive account of COLUMBINE, plus PARKLAND: BIRTH OF A MOVEMENT, both New York Times bestsellers. The former gay infantry grunt is completing a book on two gay soldiers 25 years in the making. It depicts the arc of the gay rights struggle through the lens of two extraordinary lives — which he has been immersed in since 2000.

​Columbine has made two lists of the best 25 and 30 books of the quarter century, over a dozen Best True Crime Books of All Time, won several major awards, including the Edgar, Goodreads Choice Award, and Barnes & Noble Discover Award, and made 2 dozen Best of 2009 lists. It has been translated into nine languages.​

Dave has written for New York Times, Atlantic, Vanity Fair, London Times, Politico, Guardian, Washington Post, New Republic, BuzzFeed, etc., and has appeared on most of the major networks in the US, and across Europe, Asia, Australia and South America. He lives in Chicago and is uncle to 11 cool humans and 1 adorable corgi, Bobby Sneakers.

Reviews

[Joel · Rating 5 out of 5]

I used to think that the Columbine massacre would be the defining event of my generation, the one friends and I would discuss years later, trading "where you when?" stories like I'd heard my parents do when remembering John F. Kennedy. It seemed so... monumental at the time. I was a senior in high school, the same age as the killers. The media attention was omnipresent and relentless and soon even at my small town school (and when I say "small town," I mean it, not the way the news will describe a sleepy hamlet of 30,000), everyone began looking askance at the outsiders, the loners, the kids who came to school dressed in black and roamed the halls with a look on their faces like they hated the world, and it deserved it.

How surreal was it to turn on the television about a year later, after class in my freshman dorm room, to see the students from my high school running from the building, fleeing danger while news copters circled overheard? Turned out the "bombing incident" was the result of an idiot with a cherry bomb and access to a toilet, but Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold had already shown us that there is no such thing as a harmless threat when it comes to violence in high school. Columbine (or rather, the media circus it became) had changed everything.

Then one day, it was September 11, and I had a new definition for generation-defining tragedy, and Columbine stopped being something I thought about much.

Dave Cullen never stopped thinking about it. He was a reporter on the scene that very first day, April 20, 1999, when bodies began dropping from library windows and no one knew what the hell was happening. For ten years, he followed the case, the accusations of a police coverup, the lives of those who survived, the sorrows of the families of those who did not.

Columbine, the book, is an exhausting, heartbreaking, minute-by-minute, year-by-year analysis snaking into the past and future from the pivot point of April 20. Meticulously, he explains how everything we thought we knew about the violence that day -- you probably remember: outcasts targeting jocks, the Trench Coat Mafia, Marilyn Manson -- is totally wrong, the truth a victim of a media whirlwind that descended upon the tragedy, picked up garbled rumors and incorrect assumptions and flung them onto TVs and broadsheets across the country. No, Eric and Dylan were not outsiders; they were popular with a certain crowd and Eric even dated. No, they were not part of a cabal that hated jocks; the killings were random and the only real target was humanity. The killers didn't even like Marilyn Manson, preferring KMFDM.

If you have read anything about the case in the last decade, you probably know this already, but for many, the initial reporting of rumors and suppositions (fueling a 24-hour cable news cycle that was just gearing up in 1999) is what they remember, and has become the "truth" of the whole bloody affair.

People read, and probably write, books like this because they want to know why. After a decade of analyzing police records, psychological profiles, and the killers' own writings, Cullen presents an answer, but you aren't going to like it: Eric Harris was a psychopath, and Dylan Klebold was a manic-depressive hanger-on. That... doesn't make me feel any better. Wouldn't it be easier to think, those kids were picked on, it was wrong, but you can see it, they just snapped, it could happen to any of us? But no. Eric Harris didn't snap. He was a bright kid, a smooth talker, and he fooled the world while he spent a full year planning his masterpiece. Did you know that Columbine wasn't even a school shooting, not really? The actual plan was to blow up the building, killing hundreds indiscriminately. The guns were just an afterthought, to pick off the survivors. You know, for fun. Like Doom (there's another rumor for you).

This book is heartbreaking (the stories of the survivors and the grief-stricken nearly brought me to tears more than once, and not because Cullen is slick with his prose). This book is infuriating (details of a police coverup provide more than enough evidence that this tragedy probably could have been prevented). This book is strangely cathartic (I hate using sports as shorthand for healing, but I choked up when Columbine won the state football championships the year after the murders, and the crowd of students chanted together: "We.. are.. COLUMBINE!" Reclaiming the word, making it theirs again.)

I also wonder, and I am adding this a few days after the rest of the review, how necessary it really is. Why is Columbine such a big deal? As a day, it was certainly a pretty crappy day. But there have been a lot of other crappy days before and since, days that killed a lot more than 13 people, that we don't know about or can't remember. It was a seismic event because we let it be one -- I don't think it taught anyone anything, not really. Except maybe how useless constant as-it-happens reporting was going to turn out to be. I don't like that the book, in essence, continues to give Eric Harris exactly what he wanted, which was recognition that he had done something important. As an analysis of the fallout on a formerly unknown town, it's less troubling. As a warning against future violence, it's useless, since it's pretty clear there wasn't much that could be done to change the way it all turned out.

Whenever I see footage from 9/11 (something I try to avoid, but hey, it happens), my breath catches and my heart stops. Every time I see those burning towers, part of me thinks, hopes, that maybe this time, they won't fall. But no. They always fall.

[Dave Cullen]

I wrote the book, so I'll forego rating it, just thought it should show up my list so you would find me. (But I'm new to goodreads, so tell me if I'm going about it all wrong.) Thanks.

[Will Byrnes · Rating 4 out of 5]

The very word “Columbine” summons an image of gun-toting teens mowing down teachers and students in their high schools. In the media frenzy of the time and in the years since certain misconceptions about the event have found their way into common wisdom. The perpetrators were portrayed as Goths, gays, members of a trenchcoat-wearing gang, victims of bullying jocks and social outcasts. None of this was true. Cullen was one of the reporters on the scene when Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold killed thirteen people at their high school, seriously injuring many more, and ruining the lives of scores.


Dave Cullen - image from FocusFeatures.com

It took years for much of the information about the case to find its way to public scrutiny, the local police force somehow managing not only to display considerable incompetence in their handling of the investigation, but an enthusiasm for hiding and destroying evidence of their actions and inactions. Cullen has pulled together all available info, and tells the story of the two boys who perpetrated this crime, how they came to their decision to act, how they went about gathering their deadly materials, how they planned their actions, and how they leaked enough information about their plans that anyone paying attention should have seen what was coming.

Cullen looks at the impact on many of the casualties. One teen girl was reported to have proclaimed her faith in Jesus before being shot dead. It never happened. That did not stop her family and some religious hucksters from attempting to gain from the tall tale. Cullen tells of court cases that continued for years, of victims who courageously worked themselves back from catastrophic injury, of those who were never able to recover, and of some who nurtured their rage for years. It is a compelling story Cullen tells, moving, sad, hopeful and unfortunately, all too real. It is very a positive contribution for Cullen to have sorted out the many pieces of this complex puzzle and to show us how the pieces interlink.

It is always better to operate and analyze from a base of knowledge. I cannot say that this was an enjoyable read, but it was very informative, very enlightening.

Review first posted in 2009

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[Paul Bryant · Rating 4 out of 5]

What does it matter that two crazy teenagers shot 12 other teenagers and one teacher to death at a school somewhere in the American Midwest over ten years ago? It was just another school shooting and since then we have had Virginia Tech which accounted for nearly three times as many victims, didn’t it, not to mention any amount of death and catastrophe in places other than schools. Why should anyone want to write a book about this particular school shooting a decade down the line? Why should we waste one more thought on this loathsome pair Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold? It’s a reasonable question and this book has a 400 page answer.

Eric was the driving force and Dylan (named after Thomas not Bob) was the depressive suicidal kid who was sucked into Eric’s mania. They planned the whole thing for a year. They called it “NBK” after the movie Natural Born Killers. Eric chose the date.

David Koresh’s Waco siege ended : 19 April 1993
Timothy McVeigh’s Oklahoma City bombing which was his revenge for Waco: 19 April 1995
Columbine : 20 April 1999. Ah yes, it was going to be on the 19th, but Eric screwed up getting the right quantities of ammo, so it had to be put back by a day.

In the 12 months before Judgement Day they wrote reams of journals, Eric had a website, they bragged about their plans to various pals who of course didn’t take it seriously, and starting on March 15th 1999 they made many videos of themselves acting out mass murder or explaining why they were going to do it, or apologising in advance to their parents. Eric described his parents as “the best” and said

“It fucking sucks to do this to them. They’re going to be put through hell.”

and he quoted Shakespeare on that point :

“Good wombs have borne bad sons.”

He also said:

“I’ve narrowed it down. It’s humans that I hate.”

and regarding the 1993 Brady Bill which had restricted the law on the sale of semiautomatics:

“Fuck you Brady! It’s not like I’m some psycho who would go on a shooting spree.”

and

“It’s kinda hard on me, these last few days. This is my last week on earth and they don’t know.”

But the overriding impression from these Basement Tapes (as they have been amusingly named) is one of glee – Eric and Dylan are so excited, they’re gagging for this huge one-performance-only production. They relish the greatness and horror they are about to unleash and express mild regret they won’t be around to enjoy everyone’s reactions or see the movie which will be made about it (that would be Gus Van Sant’s Elephant – sorry, Eric, not Spielberg after all.)

What did they actually want to do? Dave Cullen sorts through all the mountains of evidence and discovers that Columbine wasn’t – actually – a school shooting, it was a bombing which went wrong. Eric and Dylan had been making bombs using internet information. The two big ones were made out of propane gas canisters, and others were in Eric’s car (to divert the police). On 20th April they sauntered into the school cafeteria and dumped down the big backpacks containing the bombs with timers ticking. Then sauntered out. No one batted an eye. The bombs were supposed to blow up the whole school, then E&D would be outside picking off any fleeing students. Death toll : over 500. When Eric’s timing and detonation devices all failed – big disappointment of course – they stalked into the school and started shooting. But within 15 minutes they were bored with that. After the bloodbath in the library, they could have gone round and shot dozens more kids but they didn’t. They sauntered past rooms packed with terrified kids and didn’t glance inside. After half an hour of aimlessness, some potshots at the police outside, perhaps the real point of the whole thing was reached, and both of them blew their brains out.

And in their minds, that was : Cool.

When the shooting began the police made a number of assumptions and a lot of mistakes, some of which they can’t be blamed for – the mayhem and the students’ accounts as they fled made it seem like there was a whole team of gunmen inside the school. This crippled the police response. When the press got hold of the story a whole new series of assumptions erupted - for instance, that Eric and Dylan were loners. That they were unpopular. That they were waging a private war against a target (maybe jocks, maybe Christians, maybe the whole school). That they had horrendous family backgrounds. That they were Goths, or on drugs, or that there was some significant incident which had triggered the rampage. All wrong. Then there was an assumption that there was a conspiracy (the Trench Coat Mafia). It surely couldn’t have just been two kids did all this, there were more involved. The police spent months trying to solve this notional conspiracy. There wasn’t one. The media was flailing : 20/20 on ABC reported an unnamed police source saying “the boys may have been part of a dark, underground national phenomenon known as the Gothic movement and that some of these Goths may have killed before”. A few days later USA Today began their piece “Whatever these two young men in Colorado imagined themselves to be, they weren’t Goths.” No one knew anything.

Cullen’s simple solution to the why of it all is bathetic. He says Eric Harris was a psychopath, pure and simple, and this, dear friends, is the kind of thing some psychopaths do.

Well. If there is evil, psychopaths are its living breathing rock and rolling embodiment. Motiveless malignity, Coleridge’s phrase describing Iago, catches the horror but we, the unpsychopathic, really struggle hard with it – everything has a motive, surely, we are motive-seeking missiles of brain and spirit, we need reasons like we need food, a reason to learn the violin and a reason to shoot 13 other human beings. Motivelessness offends us. Is there motiveless benevolence? Yes, this is known as altruism. But doing good to others is seen as its own motive – to do good IS the motive, doesn’t need an ulterior. So is doing evil also its own motive and its own reward for some? Do they bask in the pain and misery they cause in just the same way that others might shout with joy and hug each other as another Haitian is pulled from another collapsed house? Then the pain and misery IS the motive.
The existence of psychopaths in our midst has already been addressed in movies like Invasion of the Body Snatchers, Children of the Damned, and all those other alien invasion movies in which the aliens look exactly like humans – we thought it was because the movie’s budget was so low they couldn’t afford impressive costumes, but in fact it was because aliens perfectly disguised as humans is the perfect metaphor for psycopathy – you can’t tell ‘em from normal people!
We can’t fill in the blanks. Why would the fascinated, excited contemplation of suicide and mass murder, eventually fused together into one super-cool entity called NBK, so delight the minds of Dylan and Eric that it crowded out all the usual teenage boy obsessions such as having sex with teenage girls or being in a rock band and then having sex with teenage girls? It drives us crazy so we lunge around – where did this evil come from? Why didn’t anyone notice it? Why didn’t anyone prevent it? Who can we blame? – not Eric and Dylan, they were just kids. (You can hear this argument again and again, every time a kid gets caught for something – the parent says “he’s not to blame, it was his bad friends that led him astray”). Let’s blame video games, violent movies, porn, drugs, the devil, goth culture, gun laws, school bullies (uh oh, Eric WAS the school bully so that doesn’t work), the parents. Ah yes, of course, the parents.
“It also appears that even the best parenting may be no match for a child born to be bad” (p241) – Cullen paraphrases Eric’s Shakespeare quote. This is so un-PC it explodes the whole thrust of child-centered theory and whatnot which has been trying to get away from the Victorian view that in a class of thirty children there will be one limb of Satan (hence the old insult “you young limb!”)
Psychopaths know just as well as we do that certain things are considered to be bad, so they try their best not to get caught. But they just don’t agree that these things actually are bad. They think they should be allowed to do whatever takes their fancy. They must be in a permanent state of irritation with the world and its puerile petty rules. A couple of psychopaths once lived in a world where there were absolutely no restraints because they themselves made up the rules. Bliss! These were the Roman Emperors Caligula and Heliogabalus, and we may read about their idea of fun in Gibbon’s dolorous history.

There are so many breathtaking side-stories in Cullen’s compelling, brilliantly organised book. Like Cassie Bernall, the Christian martyr who wasn’t, like the guy who made crosses for all the Columbine dead – 15 of them, one for D & E too (guess how long they stayed upright – 3 days). Like the lawsuits (naturellement) – turns out that Dylan’s parents had a home insurance policy which covered them for murder committed by their children. Like the discovery by a detective of Eric’s rampage fantasies in 1997 which Eric, as we know, published on his own website leading to the detective getting an affadavit for a search warrant for Eric’s house and how no one did anything about it, it was just kind of forgotten about, oops! - and how that major cock-up was covered up by county officials… on and on it goes.

In his last year, Eric was constantly badgered by his parents about getting his life on track, having a goal and sticking to it. He couldn’t tell them that he did indeed have a goal, and he was sticking to it, through thick and thin. And it was going to be so cool.

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NOTE

I hope this isn't too creepy, but readers of this review may be interested in my review of Going Postal which continues the discussion of this subject. The author of that book explicitly criticises Dave Cullen, and in many ways Mark Ames' book is a necessary corrective to this one.

http://www.goodreads.com/review/show/...

[jessica · Rating 4 out of 5]

im scared to age me, but i was 7 when columbine happened. although thats young and i was growing up in a completely different state, its a tragedy that did shape me.

i come home from school that day and my mom sat me down to talk to me about what had happened. she recounted that a girl who had been nice to/smiled at one of the shooters was spared/told to leave. she stressed that i should always treat others with kindness. i immediately learned things:

1. school was not a safe place and i could be shot at any time. and,
2. being kind to others would save my life.

turns out the story about the girl my mom told me that day was not true. its just one of the many pieces of misinformation and unintentionally false accounts that came out during the chaos and after the tragedy.

so i appreciate DC for taking nearly a decade to sift through all of the information surrounding the event. this narrative provides details about columbine that i didnt know and set the facts straight as much as possible (i am wanting to read other accounts, especially from the survivors) - it was definitely a learning experience. i also really admire how much time and attention is given to the victims and their families. the only thing preventing me from giving this 5 stars is my brain desperately wanted everything to be told in chronological order. lol.

i dont read nonfiction often, but this is a good piece of investigative journalism.

↠ 4.5 stars

[Alisa Kester · Rating 1 out of 5]

After reading this book, pen in hand, my copy was so marked up with scrawls and underlining that there might have been a second book written in the margins. I wish I could say it was praise for the author's insight into the Columbine tragedy, but instead it was sheer incredulity at the number of mistakes, lies, and misperceptions Cullen is trying to pass off as truth. If your only exposure to Columbine was watching it unfold live on tv, and then maybe reading a few magazine articles, you will probably rate this book five stars.

But if you've spent years studying Columbine and other school shootings, if you've read the 12,000+ documents available online (including the witness interviews and the the shooters' journals) you be able to understand how Cullen seems to be deliberately twisting the truth in order to present a neat little explanation that lets nearly everyone off the hook and lets us all feel good about our schools and our society. This entire book is filled with little but speculation, stated as fact, often with nothing whatever to back it up, or to explain why he comes to those conclusions.

Some of the mistakes are minor, such as the tidbit that all the school shooters during the years 1997-1998 were 'white boys'. Most mistakes were a great deal less minor, such as Cullen's repeated assertion that Eric Harris "Got chicks. Lots and lots of chicks", he "had scored with a 23 year old when he was only seventeen" and he "outscored much of the football team". Yet, according to Cullen (and Eric's own journal) Eric died a virgin. Cullen goes on and on about those 'chicks', stamping in his own idea that Eric was hugely popular at Columbine, yet he never manages to explain why, if that was the case, Eric was completely unable to "get any". A better explanation, and one that fits the interviews with those who actually attended Columbine, was that Eric was *not* "ranked just under the football team" in popularity, but was actually near the bottom as far as the pecking order of High School. Another example is where Cullen claims that Eric didn't know that he had been rejected by the Marine recruiter (for being on the drug Luvox). Not only was Eric in the room, when the recruiter said that Luvox "would be a problem" and that Eric "would have to have been off the drug a year before he would join", but Eric also told several of his friends that he had been rejected. Cullen says Eric "had no interest in the Marines", but Eric's journal tells another story: "I would have been a great Marine, it would have given me a chance to be good".

Cullen says "there's no evidence that bullying led to murder". He says that "Neither [Eric or Dylan:] complained about bullies picking on them". This is a completely false assertion. There are many, many eyewitness accounts of them being bullied, there is a video of Dylan being slammed into a locker, and there is this statement, straight from Eric's journal: "Everyone is always making fun of me because of how I look, how **ing weak I am and **, well I will get you all back: ultimate *%ing revenge here." During the shooting, they tell everyone wearing white hats to stand up. Cullen gives this quote, but never bothers to explain that it was the jocks who wore white hats at Columbine. He also leaves out the fact that both boys told victims during the shooting that "this was for all the &*#* you put us through".

Cullen wants us to believe that Eric was simply a psychopath, and that Dylan was his unwilling dupe, despite the fact that IF Eric was (and that's a huge if, since there is too many arguments for him not being a psychopath to list here), it doesn't explain WHY he was a psychopath. He certainly didn't show signs of Juvenile Conduct Disorder growing up, as psychopaths nearly invariably do. By all accounts, Eric was a normal kid, in the beginning. He didn't torture animals or show any other warning signs of a sadistic temperament, according to his friends, teachers, and neighbors. And contrary to the movies, psychopaths are nearly always non-violent and not suicidal. Something happened to Eric and Dylan to make them the way they died. To act out in violent revenge, a person doesn't have to be "psyopathic", he only has to be made to feel as if he is completely worthless, and to have all hope taken away from him. Bullying does this. And at this point, a child will either turn the anger and despair in on himself and commit suicide (as the 11 year old boy did recently) or else, like Eric Harris, he will turn it outward. To say, as Cullen does, that Eric's behavior was a mere accident of birth is to deny everything that we could learn from Columbine. It makes us close our eyes to how we can help other children trapped in this downward spiral of bullying and prevent more violence.

If Cullen intended to "bust the myths of Columbine" by ignoring everything that didn't fit his theory, he did an excellent job, and this book deserves a full five stars. I just feel sorry that for many people, this will be the "truth" they come away believing in. The thirteen who died in Littleton deserve a better memorial than this book.

[zuza_zaksiazkowane · Rating 4 out of 5]

3.7 i guess

[Bill Kerwin · Rating 4 out of 5]

The definitive book on the most memorable US school shooting (at least before Newtown and Stoneman Douglas) by a reporter who followed the story for at least last ten years.

Dave Cullen demonstrates conclusively that almost everything we thought we knew about Columbine was wrong: 1) the shooters weren't particular objects of bullying, obvious misfits, members of "the trench coat mafia" or Marilyn Manson fans, 2)the shooters didn't target jocks or minorities (they hated a lot of things, including Country Music, Puff Daddy and the WB network, and originally intended on blowing up the entire school, and would have, expect for the fact that the bombs fizzled), 3) the shooters weren't a couple of psychopaths, but one psychopath and one depressive, and 4) Fundamentalist Christian "martyr" Cassie Bernall never said "yes" to Jesus (it was another girl under another library table, and she was arbitrarily spared).

Cullen has had years to study the video and audio tapes and journals the killers left behind; they are fascinating, but ultimately frustrating. The mystery of evil--as always--remains unrevealed.

[Maciek · Rating 2 out of 5]

On April 20th, 1999, two students of Columbine High arrived at their school for the last time. They were about to begin what would be known as the deadliest schooting in an American high school, killing one teacher and twelve students. What is less known is that Columbine has originally been planned as a bombing; the pair has left two petrol bombs in the school cafeteria, and positioned themselves outside the entrances so they could shoot possible survivors: it is probable that had the bombs exploded all of the approximately 488 students in the cafeteria would have been killed. Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold, the shooters, would have committed an atrocity equal in scope to Jonestown, undoubtedly the deadliest and largest murder at a high school in any country. Because their bombs failed to explode - they were badly made - the pair amred themselves up with shotguns, rifles and semi-automatic weapons, and entered the school, where they killed twelve students and one teacher, wounding many others, before taking their own lives.



The worst part of the Columbine shooting occured in the school library, where students have been hiding under the tables, forgetting in fear that they could be easily seen. In the 13 minutes they spent in the library, Harris and Klebold have killed 10 students and injured 12 others. Part of the shooting which occured before they entered the library and the entrance itself is captured on a 911 phone call made by the teacher Patti Nielsen. The call is chilling: both Eric and Dylan can be heard shooting and cheering in the school corridors, dropping pipe bombs, and their voices have been caught on tape near the end of the call. Eric orders the students to "get up!" and Dylan shouts "everybody get up!". This is only a part of the call - Nielsen left the phone hanging as the moved to a better hiding position, and all of the massacre has been captured on police tape.



The two shooters have returned to the school cafeteria, captured on the school camera in what is most probably the best known image from the shooting: there Eric tried to detonate the bombs they left by shooting at them, which is probably his first suicide attempt. They succeeded in starting a small fire, but as it was later revealed it was completely extinguished by the fire sprinklers. The two eventually returned to the library, where they comitted suicide; just 49 minutes after they entered the school.

Dave Cullen's book is an attempt to study Columbine in depth: the author sets out to discovers what was the killers' motive and how they prepared for the event. The writing is very coloquial and pretty plain; at times it feels to b forcefully hip and in tune with the age group that is being described. It does not necessarily have to detract from the text, but it posesses neither the lyricism nor the power of "In Cold Blood", a work to which it has been compared. Nevertheless, "Columbine" moves at a brick pace and remains interesting and captivating throughout the whole text.

I have significant problem with the author's thesis, which essentially boils down to this: Eric Harris was a psychopath - and killed people; and Dylan Klebold has been his accomplice because he was depressive and thought about ending his own life. That's pretty much it; it's the main point of the book and the explanation for the events that occured. The author cites many pages from the diary of Eric Harris which he uses to support his point. At the same time, he completely downplays the bullying which took place at Columbine; while he acknowledged that bullying existed, he states that Eric and Dylan never complained that they were bullied (but then what bullied kid would?) Eric wrote out his gruesome fantasies in his journal, but he also wrote how he was abused:

"Everyone is always making fun of me because of how I look, how fucking weak I am and shit, well I will get you all back: ultimate fucking revenge here. you people could have shown more respect, treated me better, asked for my knowledge or guidence more, treated me more like senior, and maybe I wouldn't have been as ready to tear your fucking heads off. then again, I have always hated how I looked, I make fun of people who look like me, sometimes without even thinking sometimes just because I want to rip on myself. Thats where a lot of my hate grows from, the fact that I have practically no selfesteem, especially concerning girls and looks and such. therefore people make fun of me... constantly... therefore I get no respect and therefore I get fucking PISSED."

Eric and Dylan made a series of tapes which they recorded in Eric's basement. Eric's family frequently moved and Eric recalls how he always had to earn respect anew, to "start out at the bottom of the ladder" and how people always made fun of him: "my face, my hair, my shirts". Dylan recalls how he was abused even by his own brother, who constantly ripped on him. He says: "If you could see all the anger I've stored over the past four fucking years...(...)You made me what I am. You added to the rage." During the library massacre, Dylan is said to have suggested that knifing people might be more fun than shooting them.

Brooks Brown, who was a friend of both boys recalls one of the incidents of bullying, where both Eric and Dylan have been picked on in the cafeteria. Although Brooks is mentioned in the book, he is notably absent from the acknowledgments section.

"People surrounded them in the commons and squirted ketchup packets all over them, laughing at them, calling them faggots," Brown says. "That happened while teachers watched. They couldn't fight back. They wore the ketchup all day and went home covered with it."

In this clip from "The Columbine Killers", a documentary of the shooting, Brooks describes the bullying which took place at Columbine, and openly says that Eric and Dylan have been bullied daily and everybody knew about it. Brooks says that Eric and Dylan were the lowest of the low, two uncoolest kids in the whole school. A female friend of Dylan says how a jock pushed her into a locker when he saw her talking to Dylan, "that faggot". The except from the amateur video shot by Eric's friend seems to confirm that: it shows Eric, his friend with whom he is talking and another friend who documents their conversation. Please notice how both boys are cheerful and talkative during the beginning of the filming, and when they see a group of jocks approaching they immediately fall completely silent and stop all gesturing; in an instant they become sullen and fearful. As the jocks pass them, one jock rams his elbow into Eric's back so hard that he almost knocks out the camera from the hand of the boy who was filming. And as Brooks point out, neither Eric nor the two boys react in any way: they are so used to this behavior that they simply walk away and hope that they will be left alone.

When Eric and Dylan entered the library, they ordered everybody with a white hat to stand up; at Columbine jocks wore white hats. Survivor of the shooting, Bree Pasquale, describes on video shortly after the shooting that one of the boys told her explicitly that at least one of the reasons was the fact that he was bullied. An article in the Denver Post describes in how for some students at Columbine life has been pure hell.

Another article from the same newspaper expands on the issue, with one survivor recalling: ""They ... pointed a gun at my head and asked if I was a jock. They said it's revenge time on jocks for making us outcasts".

Both boys have made amateur movies where they portrayed themselves as saviors of abused students from the evil jocks.

In Cullen's book, Columbine is almost a storybook school; almost none of this is mentioned, and the principal is portrayed as almost saintlike (most of the time he is affectionately called "mr. D"). The bullying factor is completely neglected, brushed aside, as if it did not exist. Evidence indicating otherwise is ignored in favor of a simpler, perhaps easier explanation: the shooters were psychopatic and depressive, and there was nothing that anyone could have done to prevent them: Cullen goes for the theory that psychopaths are born, not made. This topic is the subject of intense discussion in the field of psychology and psychiatry, far from being settled. While there is no doubt that the author did an impressive amount of research for this book, it seems that he tailored it to fit his already made conclusion: a nice, reassuring wrap up, "he was just a psychopath" end of story. I am afraid that the story is far from settled and perhaps never will be, and that the book is far from being a definitive work on the topic of Columbine, Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold.

[Matt · Rating 5 out of 5]

There comes a time that everyone must not only see outside the box, but read things that make them less than comfortable. Life is not always honeybees and flowers bursting with colour. Dave Cullen offers this sobering perspective as he tackles an insightful view into one of the worst school shootings in history, though I am not prepared to posit how one ranks school shootings from 'best' to 'worst'. Cullen pulls the reader in to explore not only the event that took place in a small Colorado community in April 1999, but also the vast array of sentiments surrounding this shooting, both before and afterwards. The book throughly examines all three time periods, though not in a clear division, allowing the reader to learn much about Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold, who have long been deemed evil personified. Cullen gives these boys a personality as he searches for the triggers that led them to act. While both did have their issues with the law, there were no outward signs of aggression in the way they interacted with the general community or even their families. The revelation, found mostly after the fact, showed a detailed plot to exact general revenge, through taped messages and journal entries. What Cullen does highlight is that many of the signs, particularly a website, were pooh-poohed by authorities, or the depth to which the hatred was brewing seemed to have been lost as others missed the signs. Cullen then gives a thorough and heart-wrenching account of the shooting day and how members of the school community became victims of chance. It appeared as though there were no 'specific targets', as long as Harris and Klebold killed and hurt many. Cullen ties in the ominous date and how the boys sought to top Oklahoma City in loss of life, all in an attempt to make names for themselves. Victims received names and faces throughout the narrative, as did the injured. Cullen appears not to have wanted to simply lump them together into 'the victim group' or 'those who barely got away'. Cullen also exemplifies the reaction by authorities to the events, from police to SWAT and even the national reaction from the White House. The reader cannot help but be swept up as they see how things were managed. Cullen then pulls the story into the aftermath and the synthesising of all the emotions and outpouring of grief. "Why?" and "How?" remained on the tips of everyone's tongues, as well as how the school, the county, and the country as a whole (perhaps even the world?) would bounce back from this. School officials did not wish to be burdened with the pall of events, though they could not simply turn a new page and forget. It is perhaps this thread that proved most powerful for me; how did the school seek to learn and yet not dwell? While media outlets sought to focus on Nazi worship and gun stockpiles, Columbine and county officials needed to rebuild. That said, Cullen also spends much time exploring the familial reactions to events, both the Harris and Klebold families as victims themselves, even though many sought to tar and feather them with ease. Bitterness and resentment were flooding the region, leaving little time for personal healing. Targets were painted, threats made, and families destroyed. How does one seek to rebuild when the core is gutted? It is this aspect of the tragedy that cannot be fixed with a coat of paint and new drywall, where steam cleaners and a memorial plaque cannot erase self-doubt and hatred towards those who destroyed the lives of many. There are so many more nuances within the book, though it is up to the courageous reader to sift through the book and pull out what touches them most deeply. Not a book for those looking to apportion blame or shake their heads at two lone souls. This is the kind of book that leaves readers thinking and examining themselves, as it will do for me while Neo continues his scholastic endeavours. Brilliantly presented and captivating on many levels!

As a journalist for the events, Dave Cullen brings a wonderful perspective and his writing pulls the reader in throughout this piece. I have pondered throughout reading and come to realise that this book is more than facts and names and places, it serves as a biography of an event. Yes, a biographical piece of time, not a life or a school or even the killers. It is the event that needs a face, a life, and a death, which Cullen offers up and allows the reader to dissect at will. By putting a face on the event, those actors who shaped it also come to life. As Cullen admits in his opening notes, it would be too confusing to put names to EVERYONE, though he has done is best not to offer sweeping generalisations, but rather put names and faces and lives to those who were in the middle of things. While it would have been easy to go with the majority and dump on the Harrises or Klebolds, Cullen seeks to explore the family dynamics, as well as the lives of these two boys. He pushes into a zone that might have received much fodder already, labelling Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold as psychopaths, but uses much of the medical and psychological analyses to SHOW how these boys fit the bill. They did have psychopathy in them and the key traits were exemplified throughout their lives, even if hindsight was the only way to see it come to the surface. The book is wonderfully paced and pulls the reader in from the start. Topics and chapters move throughout time, though in a way that has much organisation. This is neither a book of excuses or finger pointing, but a thorough analysis of what we, as humans, go through and how there is never a single answer or path to determinations. Media push us around like sheep, but to take the time and examine what is going on around us, we see the nuances and the differences, allowing us to form our own conclusions. I am aware of how odd that sounds, as I place my trust in Cullen here, but that is why I am writing this review; for myself to express what I see from this book. I remain in awe and shock, as I remember the day well, but have come to see that I really knew NOTHING other than what was force fed to me in papers and later stilted documentaries. May those who perished and were injured feel the warmth of many, for you are more than the statistics that surround this event. Pain and loss continue to this day and will surely never completely disappear. However, looking forward, this was a learning experience for everyone touched by it. Blame no individual, for we all play a part in fostering personal sentiments towards or against others. Children are our future and it is they who exemplify what is to come. As Cullen so aptly puts it, the education the world got that chilly April morning is surely more powerful than any line-item in the curriculum. Have we learned from it? I suppose only time will tell!

Kudos, Mr. Cullen for making me see that there is more than meets the eye. Your delivery has me hoping that you will return with more, on any subject, as you have piqued my interest!

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[Matthew · Rating 5 out of 5]

This is a difficult review to write. Going in, you know the content will be extreme, controversial, and upsetting. While that was the case it was also quite eye opening. As the book gets into the details of the massacre (before, during, and after), it is going to be a difficult book for many. But, the depth which the author explores this event is very important in order to clear up all of the details and set the record straight. I think true crime fans will be enthralled with this book.

The biggest thing I took from this is it is bad to jump to conclusions and you should not let fiction become fact. Going in, I thought I knew the basics surrounding the tragedy, but it turns out that a lot of what I thought I knew is wrong. Seeing how once the event began, the population was hungry for answers and the chain of information became like a giant game of telephone and what often ended up in print or on TV is far from the truth. In fact, the author did so good of a job making this point, I am wondering if I should be skeptical of him, too! He has me paranoid!

This was the first time I have ever heard or read in depth the details following the event. The success stories, the additional tragedies, the rebuilding, and the healing we're all very facinating. One story in particular where the Evangelical Church tried to benefit of the tragedy was disappointing. While it sounds like they thought their heart was in the right place, they we're pushing too hard for martyrs and new followers and their hope to find the silver lining was lost in the static.

So much about the "why?" and "what can we do?" is touched on in this book. You will be amazed at how much life in this suburban Colorado town sounds like any town and the kids (both victims and killers) are just like many teenagers you might know. But, it is also amazing to watch the dark side grow inside the mind of a killer while leaving things fairly normal (maybe a little rebellious) on the surface. What do you do? What can you do? How do you know?

A very captivating book. Well written and informative. Proceed with caution if you are sensitive to violence and graphic details.

[Matt · Rating 4 out of 5]

I was a senior in high school on April 20, 1999. I thought the same thoughts as every other student in the country: could it happen here? who among my classmates are potential threats? what would I do?

The Columbine Massacre remains the most famous school shooting in history. It goes beyond body counts. It wasn't the first shooting, it wasn't the last, and after Virginia Tech, it isn't the worst. Something about it, though, stands out. It marked an evolution in youth violence - a horrible melding of mass murder and 24-hour cable news.

Dave Cullen, who has written extensively for Salon (one of my favorite procrastination tools) has been following the Columbine massacre from the beginning to the present-day. While other journalists were chasing Trench Coat Mafia rabbits down Goth/Marilyn Manson rabbit holes, Cullen was actually seeking, you know, the truth. While every talking-head jabbered about bullies, jocks-as-targets, Cassie the Martyr, and violent video games, Cullen was steadily debunking each of these myths with a time honored journalistic tool called "actually discovering the facts."

The result of Cullen's 10 years of research and writing is Columbine, an insightful, clear-eyed, at times graphic, at times infuriating book.

Columbine has clear aspirations to Truman Capote's In Cold Blood, complete with needless geographic descriptions and a halfhearted attempt to evoke the community of Littleton (and the surrounding area, since Columbine High wasn't technically located in Littleton).

The book's structure is odd. It certainly shies away from a linear narrative, opting instead to jump forwards and backwards through times. Events are mentioned, then left unexplained, to be picked up later in the story. Clearly, Cullen was attempting to glean some power from fracturing the story line, reserving the telling of certain events for a time when they would have the most impact within the story. Sometimes it works, as in this portentous passage early in the book:

School plays were big for Dylan. He would never want to face an audience, but backstage at the soundboard, that was great. Earlier in the year, he'd rescued Rachel Scott, the senior class sweetheart, when her tape jammed during the talent show. In a few days, Eric would kill her.

Aspirations aside, Cullen is no Capote. What he lacks in novelistic flair and literary ability, however, he makes up for in journalistic integrity (which Capote sneered at). Cullen tracks down inaccuracies and myths like a bloodhound. If you thought you knew Columbine, you probably didn't; the story you've known for the last 10 years is wrong. Erick and Dylan weren't bullied - they were bullies. They were both extremely smart, were popular, had friends, dated girls, enjoyed sports, and had good parents. They weren't part of the Trench Coat Mafia. They weren't Goths. They didn't have lists. The genius of this book is it's reconsideration of Dylan and Eric. Cullen's voluminous research leads him to the conclusion that Dylan was depressive and suicidal, a tortured mind who filled journals with hearts and the word "love"; Eric was a clinical psychopath: a cold-blooded mastermind, with Mohammad Atta's single-mindedness and Ramzi Yousef's inability to make a bomb. Eric wanted to kill everyone - the whole world - but his high school would do. Dylan wanted to kill himself. Eric provided Dylan the means to an end; Dylan provided Eric with the spark to keep planning.

We learn of the magnitude of the plot. Eric didn't want to kill a discrete number of people. He wanted to kill them all. His bombs were meant to slaughter 500 in the cafeteria; then, he and Dylan would wait outside, picking off the survivors as they came out. When the bomb fizzled, Eric the psychopath improvised, dragging a possibly bipolar Dylan Klebold along for the bloody ride.

We learn of the failures and duplicity of the Jefferson County Sheriff's department. If you still believe in electing sheriffs after this book, you will be dissuaded.

If the book serves an overarching purpose, it should be one of journalistic integrity. The media response to this story was, to paraphrase a famous line from The Man Who Shot Liberty Valance, to print the legend. For instance, Cullen writes about witness unreliability: how, in a stressful situation, a person isn't able to see an entire picture; later, after the situation, the person will fill in the cognitive gaps with other memories, creating an entirely new memory that didn't happen. This is normal. Reporters, however, have to be aware of this. Failing to do so led to the myth of the jocks-as-targets. Cullen highlights this in the testimony of Bree Pasquale.

Bree described the library horror in convincing detail. Radio and television stations replayed her testimony relentlessly: 'They were shooting anyone of color, wearing a white hat, or playing a sport,' she said. 'And they didn't care who it was and it was all at close range. Everyone around me got shot...'

The point, of course, is that the first clause directly contradicts the second clause (that is, she first says they were shooting specific targets, then says they were shooting "everyone"). A good journalist - indeed, anyone with a grasp of English - should know this. The media, however, decided that the "target list" was a better story.

Cullen also - and controversially - debunks the Cassie "She Said Yes" Bernall myth. The Cassie of legend was asked whether she believed in God; she said yes and died. The Cassie of reality was, according to two eyewitnesses, shot in the side of the head by Eric's shotgun. She was never asked a question; likely never saw her doom. If God was in the details, it's that she probably felt nothing. Some might ask: what's the point? isn't it comforting to have our fake story? I say no, vigorously. The story is insidious in the way it takes one student - out of 12 killed - and makes her a martyr, while the rest remain helpless victims. It lifts one, and pities the others. Such victim/hero stratification has, in the wake of 9/11, become a national pastime. There is no need for us - the royal, viewing us - to dilute a tragedy by attempting to construct a hierarchy among the dead.

Cullen utterly fails at other points. He gives a blow by blow account of certain portions of the shooting. The death of Danny Rohrbrough; the suffering and death of Dave Sanders; the final moments of the killers ("Eric fired [his shotgun:] through the roof of his mouth, causing 'evacuation of the brain.' He collapsed against the books...with his arms curled forward, as if hugging an invisible pillow"). However, by jumping around in the retelling, I never got an idea, after nearly 400 pages, of what actually happened at Columbine on April 20. Then, to top it off, Cullen decides not to describe the massacre at the library at all. In the entire book, there isn't even a mention of Kyle Velasquez, the first student killed in the library. I can't figure out the reason for this elision. It's the central event of the Columbine tale, and it's excised from the telling.

Then there is my issue with the citations and notes, or lack thereof. They are horrible. Imprecise and vague. I couldn't find the "expanded notes" on line, either. Come on, Dave, you did a lot of research: show me! I spent hours looking stuff up myself on the Columbine Police Report. I had to do dozens of Google searches to find the right pages. I paid you $26.99, the least you could do is give pinpoint cites to the exact materials you used.

And would it have inconvenienced you to give some pictures, some maps? A simple diagram or two of the school would have greatly enhanced my understanding of the movements of the two shooters. And a picture or two of the people being described would have, if nothing else, aided the readers attempts towards empathy.

These are serious problems, in my opinion. But the book, in the end, is worthwhile and memorable, and filled with images that linger: the slices of pizza floating in the flooded cafeteria; Dylan's journal, filled with his ruminations on love; the two lonely killers, wandering a mostly-empty school, hoping for "suicide by cop"; Dylan's casket filled with Beanie Babies; Patrick Ireland - the boy who climbed out the window - dancing at his wedding; Linda Sanders telling about her loss: "'It's like, top Dave Sanders,' she said. 'It's not fair to another man to be compared to the man I've built. He's so high on a pedestal he's in heaven.'"

The summer before I went to college, I went to a pre-term summer session meant to familiarize freshmen with the campus. This was in July 1999. In my small group, there was a girl who mentioned she had graduated from Columbine. When she said this, we looked at her with a hush, as Dante might have looked upon Virgil. We asked no questions aloud, yet wondered, as one, what she had seen. We attributed to her a certain sacred, dark knowledge as to what lay at the edge of it all.

Dave Cullen makes a great attempt to answer the questions we never asked.

[UPDATE: On December 14, 2012, they finally came for our children.

Since Columbine, the symblolic beginning of a bloody era, gunmen have killed college students on their campuses, Christmas shoppers in their stores, worshippers in their temples, movie-goers in their theaters, and constituents at a congressional meet-and-greet.

But today, ten days before Christmas, the last line was finally crossed. This time it was the little ones they shot to death.

There are 300 million guns in America. 100,000 Americans get shot every year. 30,000 die. 32 people are murdered by guns every day. That's seven Virginia Techs in a week. We argue and debate everything in this country, but not gun control.

It's the third rail of American politics. We aren't allowed to politicize a tragedy. The NRA, typically classless following Columbine, has effectively squelched any discourse. It's been thirteen years since Colubmine, and three years since I've read Dave Cullen's book. I have a kid of my own now. And if anything gets my attention these days, it's a room full of dead kindergarteners. I think today might be the day when the 1st Amendment puts its foot down on the 2nd Amendment. And puts its foot down hard.]

[jv poore · Rating 5 out of 5]

Relevant upon release, this book is imperative right now.

[Maede · Rating 5 out of 5]

ساعت ناهاره و غذاخوری دبیرستان کالمباین پر از دانش آموزهاییه که به سرعت غذا می‌خورند تا به کلاس هاشون برسند. بعضی‌ها هم البته در کتابخانه‌ی طبقه‌ی بالا مشغول درس خواندن هستند. اریک و دیلان با کت‌های بلند و لباس‌های سیاهشون از در غذاخوری وارد میشن و بدون جلب توجه ساک‌های بزرگی رو کنار صندلی‌ها می‌گذارند و میرن. ساک‌هایی که پر از بمب‌های بزرگه. به یکی از درهای وروری که می رسند، شاتگان هاشون رو درمیارن و اریک به دختر و پسری که بی‌خبر از همه‌جا در محوطه‌ی بیرون نشستن شلیک می‌کنه. جنازه‌ی این دو قراره ساعت‌ها اونجا بمونه و در ذهن صدها نوجوانی که دیوانه‌وار مدرسه رو ترک می‌کنند تا ابد حک شه. این لحظه‌ی شروع حمله به دبیرستان کالمباینه. تراژدی‌ای که آمریکا رو تغییر میده



به محض خوندن نوشته‌ی بالا چیزی که به ذهن اکثر افراد میرسه یک سواله: چرا؟ و جواب دادن به این سؤال مهم در مورد انگیزه‌ی اریک و دیلان سال‌ها طول کشید. آیا آدم‌های گوشه‌گیری بودن که می‌خواستن انتقام بگیرن؟ آیا مورد آزار و اذیت قرار گرفته بودند و می‌خواستن خشمشون رو تخلیه کنند؟ نکنه می‌خواستن مسیحی ها یا سیاه‌‌پوست‌ها رو بکشن؟ همه فکر می‌کردن جواب سوال حتماً یکی از این هاست. البته اریک و دیلان می‌خواستن مطمئن بشن که دنیا می‌دونه چرا اینکار رو کردند. پس از خودشون نوشته‌ها و ویدئوهای زیادی باقی گذاشتن که همه چیز رو توضیح بدن. حقیقت چیزی بود که هیچکس فکرش رو نمی‌کرد

اریک هفده ساله یک سایکوپد تمام عیار بود و توضیح این قضیه برای مردم داغدار و ضربه دیده سخت بود. اینکه بگی ببین " این اینجوری به دنیا اومده بود. بدون حس و درک درد آدم‌ها. عقده ی برتری داشت. عقده‌ی خدا بودن. می‌خواست قیامت به پا کنه و برای همین م��‌خواست ۵۰۰ نفر رو با بمب منفجر کنه و به مغزشون شلیک کنه. برای همین اسلحه برداشت و بچه‌ی تو رو کشت" پس نگفتند. از همه بدتر اینکه پلیس می‌دونست که شاید می‌تونسته جلوی این اتفاق رو بگیره. چون اریک همه چیز رو روی وب‌سایتش و به آدم‌های دیگه جار زده بود

دیلان فرق می‌کرد. افسرده و خشمگین بود. از خدا، دنیا، ظاهرش و زندگیش و هر روز رو با درد زندگی می‌کرد. همه‌ی این ها نقشه‌ی اریک بود و دیلانِ بی هدف که ذهنش پر از فکرهای خودکشی بود باهاش همراه شد. گاهی حتی سعی کرد به بقیه هشدار بده. شاید می‌خواست کسی نجاتش بده، اما هیچکس درست نفهمید

دیو کالن نویسنده‌ی کتاب یک ژورنالیست فوق‌العاده‌ست و این کتاب ثمره‌ی ده سال تحقیق در مورد یکی از مهم‌ترین تیراندازی‌ها در مدارس آمریکاست. کالمباین با ١٣ قربانی و حدود ٢٠ مجروح مرگبارترین این جور حملات نیست، ولی از جهاتی بسیار مهمه. اریک و دیلان ضدقهرمان‌های بسیاری از افرادی که بعد از خودشون دست به این کار زدند شدند، در صورتی که انگیزه‌هاشون درست فهمیده نشده بود. کالمباین حتی روش کار پلیس رو برای تمام اتفاقات پس از خودش عوض کرد

در کتاب سعی شده تمام ابعاد این تراژدی وسیع پوشش داده بشه. اریک و دیلان، والدینشون، تحلیل شخصیت هاشون، قربانی‌ها و تقلاهاشون در اون لحظه و برای ادامه‌ی زندگی، بازمانده‌ها و بررسی لحظه به لحظه این حمله و روزهای بعدش. بهم ثابت شد که اثر چنین اتفاق‌هایی بسیار عمیق‌تر از چیزیه که در یک نگاه سطحی میشه دید. سو کلبولد مادر دیلان در یک تد تاک می‌گفت :"به هر اتاقی که وارد میشم نمی دونم اونجا کسی هست که پسرم یکی از عزیزانش رو کشته یا نه"

تمام مدت خواندن کتاب فکر می کردم که ذهن انسان‌ها خیلی پیچیده‌تر از چیزیه که حتی میشه تصور کرد، ولی شاید با مطالعه‌ی کیس‌هایی مثل این ،اریک‌ها و دیلان‌ها رو زودتر از اینکه دست به خشونت بزنند پیدا کنیم. چون نشانه‌ها هستند و فقط دیدنشون واقعا سخته. نزدیک سالگرد بیست و یک سالگی کالمباین این کتاب رو شروع کردم و با وجود اینکه پر از درد بود، با امید تموم شد. با پیام بازمانده هایی که هر روز سعی می کنند به زندگی ادامه بدن و اجازه ندادن این دو نوجوان مشکل دار داستان زندگیشون رو برای همیشه بنویسند.

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[Greta G · Rating 5 out of 5]

Godlike emotions

Eric and Dylan were just kids. Something or someone must have led them astray.
The parents, the Harrises and Klebolds, were the chief suspects.
Virtually all the early news stories were infested with erroneous assumptions and comically wrong conclusions.
All sorts of culprits contributing to the tragedy sprang to life incredibly fast: violent movies, video games, Goth culture, bullies, satan, a gay conspiracy, racism, Christians, Hitler’s birthday, Marilyn Manson. Stories were circulating that the killers had targeted Evangelicals as well as jocks and minorities. It grew more bizarre by the minute.

Most of the public believes Columbine was an act of retribution for unspeakable jock-abuse and remembers the shooters as a pair of outcast Goths from the Trench Coat Maffia snapping and tearing through the school hunting down jocks to settle a long-running feud.
The Trench Coat Maffia was mythologized because it was colorful, memorable and fit the existing myth of the school shooter as outcast loner. All the talk of bullying and alienation provided an easy motive; those were known threats. Most of those elements existed at Columbine, which is what gave them such currency. Media filtered every new development through that lens. They just had nothing to do with the murders.

Few people knowledgeable about the case believe those myths anymore.
Police detectives let go of the targeting theory immediately. Nearly all witnesses described the killing as random. For investigators, the big bombs changed everything : the scale, the method and the motive of the attack. Above all, it had been indiscriminate. Everyone was supposed to die. Primarily, it had been a bombing that failed.
The shooters were already in the system. Eric and Dylan had been arrested junior year. They got caught breaking into a van to steal electronic equipment. They had entered a twelve-month Juvenile Diversion Program, performing community service and attending counselling. They had completed the program just three months before the massacre.

Dylan had been caught scratching obscenities about “fags” into a freshman’s locker. Eric impersonated a special ed kid struggling to talk. They both had a penchant for picking on younger kids.
Two years before the killing, Eric, Dylan and another friend would sneak out after midnight and vandalise houses of ‘the inferiors’ - targets chosen by Eric, kids he didn’t like or to retaliate for perceived insults. They hacked into the school computer and stole a list of locker combinations. They began breaking in. They had access to the computer closet and helped themselves to expensive equipment. Eric may even have started a credit card scam.

More disturbing was a complaint filed thirteen months earlier by the Browns, the parents of the shooters’ friend Brooks Brown. Eric had made death threats toward Brooks. Twelve pages of murderous rants and hate spewing printed from his website had been compiled. Eric described going to some random downtown area in some big city and blowing up and shooting up everything he could. ”i don’t care if I live or die in the shootout, all I want to do is kill and injure as many of you pricks as I can!”, Eric wrote openly on his Website.
The officers discovered substantial evidence that Eric was building pipe bombs. One investigator considered it serious enough to draft an affidavit for a search warrant against Eric’s home. But for some reason, the warrant was never taken before a judge. It was not acted upon in any way.

In his journal, Eric would brag about topping McVeigh (the 1995 Oklahoma City bombing). Judgment Day, they called it. Eric and Dylan had been considering a killing spree for at least a year and a half. They had settled on the approximate time and location a year out: April, in the commons. A series of videos were specifically designed to explain the attack: the Basement Tapes. They were so disturbing that the sheriff’s department would choose to hide them from the public.
Eric had documented everything. He’d wanted us to know.
Dylan had wiped his hard drive clean. They both left handwritten journals behind.

Mass murderers tend to work alone, but when they pair up, they rarely choose their mirror image.
Eric and Dylan had remarkably different interior lives. Dylan always saw himself as unloved. The anger and the loathing traveled inward. When he got frustrated with himself, he would go crazy. It didn’t take much to trip his fragile ego. Some minor transgression would humiliate him and then the pain would boil over. Trip his anger and he erupted. When the Dean called him down, Dylan went ballistic.
Dylan was pure emotion, logic was irrelevant. He was depressive and suicidal. ”My existence is shit”, he wrote in his journal.

Eric was a psychopath. He could talk his way out with apologies, evasions, or claims of innocence, whatever the subject was susceptible to. He read people quickly and tailored his responses. ”I lie a lot. Almost constant. And to everybody.” he wrote. Eric was curiously unemotional. Extinction fantasies cropped up regularly and would obsess Eric in his final years. Happiness for Eric was eliminating the likes of us. “All you fuckers should die! DIE!” Eric ranted in his journal with the opening line ”I hate the fucking world”.
Complete power over defenceless kids, that’s what Eric craved. “Zeus and I also get angry easily and punish people in unusual ways”, Eric wrote in a freshman paper titled “Similarities between Zeus and I”. And like Zeus, he was creative and had lots of ideas. Nuclear holocaust, biological warfare, imprisoning the species in a giant Ultimate Doom game. He always knew what he was up to. Dylan did not.

Dylan took to referring to humans as zombies. Compared to humans, he was like God. ”I am GOD compared to some of these un-existable brainless zombies”, he wrote. Dylan was beginning to see it Eric’s way : ”the real people (gods) are slaves to the majority of zombies, but we know & love being superior...”
That was a rare similarity to Eric; they both strongly believed in their own singularity and felt nothing but contempt for others. Both boys described their own uniqueness as self-awareness and enjoyed comparing themselves to God.
“I feel like God. I am higher than almost anyone in the fucking world in terms of universal intelligence”, Eric wrote in his journal, which he dubbed “The Book of God”.
”We, the gods, will have so much fun w NBK(Natural Born Killers)!! My wrath will be godlike.” Dylan wrote in Eric’s yearbook.
Eric offered hope for Dylan to get to godliness. In a short story written for a creative writing assignment, which was found in Dylan’s car, alongside the failed explosives, to be torn to bits in his final act, Dylan imagined how murder would feel. The story revolved around an angry man, gunning down a dozen kids. ”If I could face an emotion of god, it would have looked like the man. I not only saw in his face, but also feel eliminating from him power, complacence, closure, and godliness. The man smiled, and in an instant, thru no endeavor of my own, I understood his actions.”
The story ended not with the murders, but with the godlike impact on the man behind them.

[Dem · Rating 4 out of 5]

I had to constantly remind myself while reading Columbine that this was Not Fiction.

I vaguely remember hearing about this massacre on the news back in the late 1990s but this has made me realise how little attention I pay to media reports as only while reading this book did I realise how devastating and shocking April 20th was for a whole community of people in Colorado.

On 20th April 1999 Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold drove to their school, planted two bombs and took up stance outside the entrance door to the school in order to shoot fleeing students. The bombs failed but the massacre that these boys inflicted on their fellow students and their families and communities will never be forgotten.
This book paints a very vivid account of before and after the shootings and the author Dave cullen was one of the Colorado journalists covering the story as it unfolded and he certainly seems to have done his research when putting this book together.

At first I was disappointed the there was an absence of photos in the Book but the more I read the more I realized the book didn't need them, the only image is the photo on the cover of the actural school and I didn't even bother googling images of Harris or Klebold until I had finished the book.

As a mother who does the school run every day, it is the last thing on my mind that something of this nature could every possibly occur in my sugar coated little world and this book really made me sit up and take notice. I was shocked at how these two boys could plan and bring about such devastation without their families or friends finding out about their plans.
I felt so sorry for all the families involved and the whole community as how do you put the like of this behind you. I also felt for the families of Harris and Klebold as no parent brings up their kids to become monsters like these two. I am so aware while writing this review that so many of the students, teachers, families, and wider community will spend their lives trying to come to terms with what happened on April 20th and no amount of books will right the wrongs of that day or even begin to expalin to those involved why.

This is a very detailed account of the massare at Comumbine and some readers may find it perhaps too detailed and difficult to read. Its an extremely well researched and well written book and while I found it difficult reading it is certainly informative and an eye opener. Not a book I am likely to forget in a hurry.

[Alex.andthebooks · Rating 5 out of 5]

Ten reportaż pozostawił mnie z poczuciem pełnego zrozumienia wydarzenia w Columbine. Jak ogromny wpływ na świat miało i jak wiele było momentów, aby je powstrzymać.
Autor „oddaje głos” wszystkim, nie pomija i nie stygmatyzuje. Obala mity wykreowane przez media. Oddaje hołd.

To był emocjonujący i naprawdę świetny reportaż!

[Mariah Roze · Rating 5 out of 5]

I have been wanting to read this book ever since it went through my newsfeed on Goodreads and boy, did this book not disappoint! This was a phenomenal story. It was well written and researched!

This book was about explaining what happened on April 20, 1999; the start for the next two decades of school shooting. It was informative in telling that most of the information that we have been told about Columbine had been wrong. It wasn't about jocks, Goths, or the Trench Coat Mafia. Dave Cullen- the author- was one of the first reporters on scene, and spent ten years researching, interviewing, traveling for this book. He shares a ton of evidence: insight from the world's leading forensic psychologists, and the killers' own words and drawings. Cullen shares information about two polar opposite killers, while sharing information about their childhoods and the friends that they shared.

Not only does he talk about the murders, but he sheds light on the students and staff that were killed. He talks about their lives before they were murder and their families' lives afterword. He shares about the survivors. Some of them being severely physically injured and others mentally and emotionally. He shared the difficulties and problems that the two families of the murders faced and still faced.

This was an extremely good book that shed a lot of information about the school "bombing" (or at least that was the goal) on Columbine. I highly suggest this to everyone!

[Stephen · Rating 4 out of 5]

4.0 stars. This poignant, extremely well done true crime/history takes a comprehensive look at the Columbine massacre. As a rule, I do not read a lot of true crime stories or follow too closely these kinds of national tragedies when they occur (I just find it too depressing). Thus, before I picked up this book, my knowledge of the events surrounding Columbine was limited to “headlines” and “10 minute news segments” that dealt with very little beyond the surface of the shooting.

This award winning book written in 2009 is widely considered the definitive study of the Columbine shooting and follows two distinct narrative tracks. First, it details the lives of the two shooters, Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold, from several years before the shooting, through the planning of the attack and the eventual consummation of the murders on April 20, 1999. The second storyline follows a group of survivors and their families from right before the shooting through the aftermath over the next ten years. The book is structured so that the chapters alternate between the two story-lines which I thought was very effective.

The survivors storyline would itself make an interesting book as it chronicles the significant and permanent changes wrought on a small town community in the wake of a major tragedy. These include discussions of the following: (1) the numerous lawsuits stemming from law enforcement’s handling of the shooting (including an alleged cover-up regarding destruction of evidence); (2) fundamentalist religious movements using the “myth” of one of the victims professing her love for God right before being killed as a “rallying cry” for their members (I say myth because the book details how the event was later discovered never to have happened); (3) the battle between local leaders and the National Rifle Association when the NRA was scheduled to have their annual conference in Columbine shortly after the massacre and would not cancel the event; and (4) the radically different path that the survivors and their families lives followed after the shooting (both inspiring and tragic). All of these stories were extremely well researched and very deftly handled by the author who left me with the feeling that he truly cared about the material about which he was writing.

As interesting and important as the above narrative track was, the story of Eric and Dylan and their road to the massacre was what I found the most compelling (as well as deeply disturbing). Through the detailed journals and home made videos of the two boys, we are given an inside look into two very disturbed minds. This is especially true in the case of Eric Harris who, as I mention below, was an actual SOCIOPATH (yes like Dahmer, Gacy and Bundy). I found these sections to be ABSOLUTELY RIVETING. It is in telling the story of these two boys that the author explodes many of the “myths” surrounding the Columbine massacre that I think many people still believe (I know I did before I read this).

MYTH #1: The Columbine Massacre was the result of the killers being bullied and was directed against the jocks and popular kids at the school. TRUTH: The massacre was orchestrated by Eric Harris (more on him below) who was smart, popular and of average looks. Neither of the two shooters were subjected to bullying or abuse as their journals (discovered after the shooting) make clear.

MYTH #2: The Columbine Massacre was perpetrated by basically decent kids who were simply deeply “troubled” depressed and suicidal. TRUTH: Dylan Klebold fits this image and while he can not be considered a victim by any stretch of the imagination, he was “recruited” by Eric Harris to help him with the massacre. Eric Harris, on the other hand WAS A PSYCHOPATH PURE AND SIMPLE. He was a real life younger version of Patrick Bateman from American Psycho who wanted nothing more than to conduct the greatest mass murder in American History. Through Eric’s detailed and extraordinarily disturbing journals and home made videos, we see a person with all of the traits of a classic, sadistic sociopath including, (a) a calm, controlled exterior; (b)someone who is extremely manipulative and able to convince people of almost anything; (c) being totally without empathy or any strong emotional feelings; (d) a complete inability to feel any guilt or remorse and (e) believing himself superior to the entire world which (in his words) didn’t deserve to even live.

MYTH #3: The Columbine killers had “target” lists of specific people they intended to kill. TRUTH: The Columbine massacre was not even intended to be a “shooting.” The killers intended to “blow up” the school and use the guns only to kill stragglers who survived the initial blast. They set up home-made pipe bombs that were planted around the school cafeteria and set to go off at a precise moment when the cafeteria would be the most crowded. One of their goals was to kill more people than the Oklahoma bombing of 1995 and they had no specific targets in mind. Fortunately, the bombs did not go off which is why this fact is not as well known.

Overall, I found this to be a fascinating and book and a disturbing look inside the mind of a teenage killer. HIGHLY RECOMMENDED!!!

[Greg · Rating 4 out of 5]

1. Last night I googled "Eric Harris Columbine", I was curious what the little monster looked like. He looked so average and normal, no wonder I hadn't remembered what he looked like from the incessant news coverage 11 years ago. One can see pictures of him and Dylan Kebold dead in the library from at least two different angles in google images. Apparently some people believe that there is still more to the Columbine story, that something else happened to two boys to make this happen.

2. I've read this book mainly while visiting my parents in upstate New York. Where I went to high school from November of 10th grade till graduation. I switched from a high school of roughly 800 people in four grades to one comparably the population size of Columbine. I hated both schools for different reasons. I had my own fantasies of everyone in my high schools dying. I have a feeling I'm not alone in those feelings.

3. This book debunks myths. Eric and Dylan weren't goths. They weren't loners. If they were bullied it didn't cause much of an effect on them. They bullied other young kids. They also apparently didn't like Marilyn Manson.

4. About fourteen months before Columbine I wrote this song:
"Kill your mom
Kill your dad
Kill your dog
Kill your cat
Kill your mom
Kill your dad
Kill your neighbors
Kill your friends,
nobody understands me
Marilyn Manson does
nobody gets me
Marilyn Manson does"

I performed it live once in a one off band. If Columbine had already happened I'm certain it would have affected the song, and not in a tasteful way.

5. This book, even though the author expressly states in the beginning that he wouldn't want the book to be read this way, feels like it's giving the final word on the topic. The summation is that Eric was 'evil' (or a psychopath), Dylan was depressed and that together they played off each other just right make a massacre happen. I think something is still missing, something that isn't there to be found out lurking in those two kid's immature and angry minds. I don't think the why can really be answered, if they had backed out at the last minute and went on to lead 'normal' lives I don't think they would be able to truthfully tell you why today.

6. The conspiracy people on the internet believe that the two, or at least Eric was raped by a cop January of their junior year. There is some interesting evidence, and there is some evidence that would only work in a novel, but not necessarily in real life.

7. School shootings I find fascinating. Somewhere in the mid-90's angry white kids stopped killing themselves in the 1980's heavy metal way and started to take others with them. This is the fact I find fascinating. Fortunately for me I grew up in the suicide teen generation. When parents and teachers flipped out kids might start killing themselves in droves and started to hand out tests to pin-point which of the students were sad bastards likely to be a threat to themselves, and a certain person set off all kinds of flags for his answers to those tests the worst he was subjected to was a letter home from the school shrink. If shootings had been in vogue it's possible the same person might have been visited by the fuzz.

8. Almost 7 years to the day before Columbine, when I was a senior in high school a kid who was almost as much of a loser outcast as myself shot himself in the head with a .22 rifle right in front of the flagpole in the parking lot of the Junior/Senior High Schools. He killed himself at night, his body wasn't discovered until kids started arriving at school, and his body was moved and left on a cafeteria table where Junior High kids could see it. Surprisingly this didn't get the school to close down.

The 'freaks' in the two schools rallied around this kid and turned him into something of a hero.

Five months earlier a car full of football players got shit faced out in the woods and then on their way back to down wrapped their car around a tree. The driver lived. Everyone else died. The kids who died were pretty much deified by the majority of the students and the faculty.

Four months (or a month after the jocks) earlier another kid in the high school dropped dead in the mall from some kind medical defect. He went the way of total obscurity.

9. Why did Teddy choose to shot himself in front of the school? Five years later would he have been more likely to take some people with him? What was the point where kids decided to spectacularly kill and go out in a blaze of glory instead of just going for high profile (relatively) suicides?

10. This book is quite interesting. It's a sad book, not just because of the 14 people who got killed by Eric and Dylan and because it is a true story, but because of how many people involved in this whole mess were self interested assholes, how quickly people turned petty, how quickly the truth was pushed aside for feel-good (ok, feel-better) stories.

11. I'm really not sure how to review this book. Instead it was kind of like a therapy session for me, and what better way to handle all of this than to air all of the dredged up shit for anyone to read who wants to.

[Johann (jobis89) · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book taught me a lot that I didn’t know about the Columbine massacre and Cullen leaves no stone unturned. Fantastic piece of non-fiction. Full review to come.

[Stephanie *Eff your feelings* · Rating 5 out of 5]

(02-15-18) I originally wrote this review in 2013 and I thought this would be a good day to bump it up into the feed. When I re-read this, I squelched the urge to rewrite any of it (Which I will do...after I cringe at what I had written.) because I did want to preserve what I was feeling at the time. In fact, I totally forgot I even wrote this. If you have the time, read the comments...that’s where the most interesting stuff happens. It’s unbelievable what has happened to this country in the past five years.

Also, I want to put an article that I read today that I find fascinating and completely depressing.....Cheers!

https://eand.co/why-were-underestimat...

Original review.....

April 20th 1999 was a Tuesday. I remember this fact because my day off was Tuesday. I was probably doing some laundry and cleaning with the TV on in the background. Then I remember stopping and watching as the news came across the TV. There had been a school shooting......a bad one. My first thought was "bad things always happen on Tuesdays."

Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold killed 13 and injured 24. Eric was the mastermind behind the massacre and young psychopath. Dylan was depressed, seemingly a bipolar individual. Eric planned the day extensively for a couple of years and they both documented everything with journals and videos. These were used by the author who did a fantastic bit of journalism with this book.

There was so much more to what happened than we were told. This wasn't supposed to be a shooting, or at least not just a shooting, Eric had a vision of total destruction. The two had planted bombs in the school inside duffle bags as well as in their cars. The bombs were designed to kill 500 people. Eric wanted to kill everyone and thankfully he failed to figure out how to detonate his bombs. So Eric and Dylan were forced to use their guns instead, guns they could only get at a gun show.

David Cullen a reporter on the scene April 20th 1999 made it his mission to learn everything there was to learn about this tragedy. He spent the next ten years doing just that with this book being the result. Columbine not only takes us into the minds of the killers but into police cover-ups on prior incidents with Eric and Dylan and how glaringly obvious it was that they were going to do very bad things. It follows up on the families of the victims and what has become of them over the years.

A bit of a personal rant here. I am not a gun fan. If I had my way I'd melt every last one of them down. I know this isn't a terribly popular opinion in this country but it is how I feel. I don't understand the love affair many people in the United States have with these things designed for nothing but destruction. I know that melting down all the guns won't happen (yet), but I do believe we have to start coming up with some strong regulations to stop future Eric-s and Dylan-s, James-s and Adam-s. Because no matter their mental state, their killings would not have been possible if they didn't have access to an arsenal.

After reading Columbine I came to another conclusion. Every parent needs to go through their kids personal stuff. Screw privacy. I can't figure out how these two guys could have amassed the fire power and bomb makings, video taped themselves and wrote the whole plan out in journals in their parents houses and their parents didn't know! They were basically screaming "I am going to kill as many people as I can!!"

I would be one nosy, annoying mom if I had any children.....boy would they hate me and I wouldn't care.

[Caroline · Rating 5 out of 5]

***NO SPOILERS***

Mesmerizing from start to finish, Columbine is a true crime that's the very embodiment of "page-turner." Author Dave Cullen spent ten years meticulously researching the subject, and the result is a finely detailed account that humanizes and enlightens readers at a depth news pieces didn't, or couldn't, do. Crucially, Columbine extensively corrects errors in the rabid news reporting that followed, errors that captured the public's attention and quickly became gospel truth. This book is the last word on the Columbine High School massacre of April 20, 1999.

Update: October 2, 2013. Columbine made Charles Graeber's Top 10 True Crime Books: http://www.theguardian.com/books/2013...

Update: August 15, 2014. Readers wanting to further explore the subject of psychopathy (which Cullen discusses) should read Without Conscience: The Disturbing World of the Psychopaths Among Us, a book he references in Columbine.

Update: February 13, 2016. On February 12, 2016, Dylan Klebold's mother, Sue Klebold, was interviewed for the first time on television by Diane Sawyer on 20/20. This is Dave Cullen's reaction to that: http://www.vanityfair.com/news/2016/0...

[Elyse Walters · Rating 5 out of 5]

I read this book shortly after - reading “A Mother’s Reckoning”.. Living in the Aftermath of a Tragedy ...by Sue Klebold

I owned this book years before reading it - it had been passed to me by a neighbor-
but by the time I did read it .... I found it more complete - and easier to take in - than in than Sue Klebold’s book. It was almost anti-climatic by the time I read it ...
But what stood out was how much I admired the author!!! How much more I learned ....

So many of emotions were stirred - in Sue’s book - (I wasn’t thrilled with it and admit to be judgmental)... still not a fan of her book -but read it all —
so it was as if I needed to complete my Columbine reading cycle with DAVE CULLEN.

I never felt the need to write another ‘Columbine’ review when there were already so many by the time I read it - but it’s excellent!!!
I’m only writing this now to share WHY I’m reading “Parkland”, by Dave Cullen.
His writing - research - professionalism - is top notch!!!

I’m ‘listening’ to Dave Cullen read “Parkland”, this time around - rather than read his words as I did in Columbine.
It’s giving me an added experience - ( again)... Dave Cullen being the ‘man’/ writer I trust and admire profoundly.

Anything written by Dave Cullen is worth reading!!!!!

[Krysia o książkach · Rating 2 out of 5]

Póki autor trzyma się faktów to jest to dobry reportaż, to na czym się kompletnie wykłada to jego wnioski, zwłaszcza spekulacje "dlaczego".

Książka jest świetnie napisana, bardzo wciągająca, dzięki temu przeczytałam ją dosłownie w dwa dni, mimo znacznej objętości, ale jednocześnie dzięki temu byłam w stanie złapać nieścisłości wewnątrz tekstu. A co z tymi rzeczami, których nie jestem w stanie wyłapać, ani w żaden sposób zweryfikować, bo zwyczajnie nie mam dostępu do akt ani nie znam realiów wystarczająco dobrze?
Przykład - chłopcy w czytelni kazali wstać wszystkim, którzy noszą białe czapki, informacja zostaje podana w taki sposób jakby to było bezcelowe, strzelcy wybierali sobie cele całkowicie jako kaprys. W innym miejscu, w innym kontekście pada informacja, że w Columbine sportowcy nosili białe czapki. W kolejnym miejscu pada informacja, że oni na pewno nie chceli zemścić się na sportowcach, bo "dlaczego mieliby strzelać do sportowców, przecież powszechnie wiadomo, że sportowcy nikogo nie prześladują". Red flag.

Główny problem tej książki jest taki, że autor swoje opinie przedstawia jako fakty, trzeba być niezwykle czujnym, żeby nie dać się na to nabrać. Gdzie są przypisy? Jak można napisać, że takie a takie zachowanie to książkowy przykład psychopatii i nie podać według jakiej książki?
Często pojawiają się słowa typu "zawsze", "wszyscy", co uznaję za spore nadużycie, przykładowo "wszyscy strzelcy, to zawsze biali chłopcy z dobrego domu", cokolwiek znaczy dobry dom, lub "wszyscy eksperci pracujący przy sprawie zgodzili się co do tego, że prześladowania w szkole nie można brać pod uwagę jako motywu", ale nie przytacza tych ekspertów z nazwiska, ani nawet nie podaje ich fukcji czy etapu prowadzenia śledztwa. Red flag.

Dorośli w tej sprawie właściwie mają wystawione laurki. Dyrektor szkoły - święty człowiek. Co prawda, Cullen wspomina arykuły prasowe, które opisują systemowe prześladowania w Columbine, pozostawione bez żadnej reakcji ze stony kadry, dla niektórych grup dzieci szkoła była piekłem, ale zrzuca to na karb sensacyjnych, krwiożerczych brukowców, dzienikarze rzucili się jak sępy na gorący temat. Stwierdza również, że ofiary tragicznych wydarzeń często zapamiętają rzeczy, których nie było, mieszają fakty, tworzą fałszywe wspomnienia, i o ile jest to zasadne jeśli chodzi o sam dzień strzelaniny, to ciężko ten sam mechanizm dotyczący pamieci stosować również do wydarzeń, które wydarzyły się tygodnie, miesiące wcześniej. Cullen komentuje nagranie gdzie widać Erika i Dylana usmarowanych keczupem, zamkniętych gdzieś, ale uznaje, że chłopcy sami obrzucili się jedzeniem. Komentuje nagranie, na którym widać, że obaj chłopcy są wyzywani przez innych, ale uznaje, że to zwykłe nastoletnie kłótnie, nic na co warto by reagować, nic co by miało wpływ.
Bardzo umniejsza wpisom do dziennika, gdzie Eric opisuje prześladowania jakich doświadcza, zrzuca to na karb psychopatii i ogólnych zaburzeń psychicznych, a także wspomina, że chłopak pisał o tym rzadko, więc to raczej nieistotne.
Rodzice sprawców dostają laurki, nic nie wiedzieli, nic nie mogli zrobić. Za to matka jednej z ofiar, zostaje sportretowana jako ta, która chciała zarobić na śmierci córki, wydając o niej książkę. Wobec innej wysuwa pytanie ile trwa normalny okres żałoby, kiedy będzie w stanie się otrząsnąć i żyć dalej. Ojciec innej ofiary jest ukazany jako ten, który nawet po latach nie potrafi pozbyć się wewnętrznego gniewu i ciągle szuka winnych wśród władz publicznych, a mógłby już odpuścić bo nikt nie potrzebuje tego gniewu. Bardzo nierówno są rozłożone te akcenty, intuicja podpowiada mi, że wiele zostało przemilczanie jeśli chodzi o rodziny strzelców.
Służby stanowe, biuro szeryfa, różni oficiele są opisani troszkę mniej przychylnie, ale wciąż z dużą dozą łaskawości biorąc pod uwagę fakt, jak wiele było nieprawidłowości w tej sprawie, zaginione dokumenty, matactwa, brak transparentności, ukrywanie informacji przez lata. Może i kłamali wiele lat, ale za to zdąrzyli przejść na emeryturę zanim prawda wyszła na jaw, więc nie musieli ponosić odpowiedzialności. Służby, w tym SWAT (!), zostają rozgrzeszeni, bo może i źle zadziałali, ale skąd mogli wiedzieć co zrobić kiedy ktoś strzela.

Dyrektor super, nauczyciele super, rodzice super, szkoła super, wszystko super. Wniosek - Eric to urodzony psychopata, nic nie dało się zrobić, urodził się by zabijać, drugi hitler, Dylan to jedynie jego marny pomagier, wręcz bezwolny, zrobił to z powodu depresji. Bardzo nierówno rozłożone akcenty i jednoznaczny wyrok.
Nie twierdzę, że którykolwiek z chłopaków jest niewinny, lub nie był psychopatą, nie miał problemów, natomiast całkowite usuwanie z równania szkolnych prześladowań i jakichkolwiek czynników środowiskowych czy systemowych wydaje się bandyckie. Cały segment dotyczący diagnozowania chłopców przez Cullena wydaje się być mocno naciągany i podpierany argumentami, które akurat wygodnie pasują do jego tezy.

Wyjątkowo niesmaczny jest fragment gdzie autor spisuje swoje fantazje na temat tego, jakie mogły być ostatnie chwile strzelców.

Całkowie przemilczany jest decydujacy czynnik, czyli systemowy dostęp do broni. To zdaje się nie mieć w ogóle żadnego wpływu na sam fakt występowania strzelanin w szkołach. Zasadnicza różnica między US a resztą świata polega na tym, że może i w Polsce ktoś chiałaby się zemścić, ale nie kupi strzelby w Biedronce, natomiast w US już tak, ale autor wydaje się zupełnie nie zauważać tego problemu ani oczywistych korelacji. Tym sposobem jest dla niego kompletną tajemnicą dlaczego takie tragedie w ogóle mają miejsce.
Jedyne o czym wspomina, to że broń na targach broni jest dostępna dla osób nieletnich, a to nawet nie był sposób w jaki chłopcy pozyskali broń. Kupiła ją dla nich koleżanka, która była pełnoletnia, również uczennica liceum.

Usuwając te dwa czynniki, czyli bulling i systemowy dostęp do broni okazuje się, że przyczyną były tylko i wyłącznie osobnicze cechy strzelców, zwłaszcza Ericka, psychopatia i depresja, żadne inne czynniki środowiskowe nie miały ostatecznie wpływu na katastrofę, oraz nikt nie mógł nic zrobić by przeciwdziałać masakrze. Kłamstwo uszyte naprawdę grubymi nićmi, miłe kłamstwo, które pozwala się dobrze i bezpiecznie czuć oraz zrzucić jakąkolwiek odpowiedzialność z systemu. Dodatkowo jeśli to wszystko zostało tak zmontowane, to dla autora zupełną zagadką pozostaje również to, dlaczego tak wiele przyszłych strzelców tak mocno inspirowało się Erickiem i Dylanem, dlaczego próbowali powtórzyć ich wyczyny i dlaczego stanowią tak więlką fascynację w pewnych kręgach.


Jest to potoczyście napisany reportaż, bardzo emocjonany, autor w końcowej fazie sam siebie określa jako kolejną ofiarę Columbine. Daje do zrozumienia, że jest dużo niejasności, i mimo że tyle osób pracowało przy tej sprawie, to on jeden zna faktycznie całą prawdę i tylko prawdę. Nie jestem w stanie w to uwierzyć.

Ostatecznie uważam, że ta książka stanowi raczej opis pewnej psychozy, zafiksowania się autora na sprawie strzelaniny w Columbine, zwłaszcza na sylwetkach strzelców, niż faktycznie realną analizę masakry.

[Britany · Rating 4 out of 5]

The moment the shooting at Columbine happened would be a moment that I would never forget. It would alter the way I experienced school and it would break the safe bubble of invincibility I always thought that I had. I was in 8th grade on April 20, 1999 getting ready to graduate from middle school and walk across the shared campus to high school. I was young and impressionable and the circumstances and media reporting on this event was absorbed differently than it was for future school shooting events. Honestly, I had my own storyline of events for this shooting and was hazy on the specific details. The one thing that always stood out on my mind was who the shooters were-- Dylan Klebold & Eric Harris-- and for that, I'm forever disappointed that I couldn't name a single victim (and there were 13!) but without even pausing I could tell you who the shooters were.

I had this book on my radar for a long time and finally cracked it open for a book club pick. I was finally ready to find out what really happened, what I thought I knew-- turns out was QUITE different. Misconceptions about this event were rampant (and this was prior to the 24 hour news cycle) mostly these were perpetrated by the media.

The first 100 pages torn me apart- shred by shred; page by page. My heart broke open a thousand times reading the accounts of these victims and the sadness that enveloped the school so quickly. I wasn't sure I would be able to get through the whole book and in what condition. That quickly dissipated once I moved onto the part 2. Dave Cullen removed himself as a journalist throughout the narrative (I enjoyed seeing when he inserted himself through the notes). He effortlessly tells the story of Eric & Dylan- their downward spiral and the elaborate plans that they created. He weaves their stories with the harrowing last minutes of the victims. Dave Sanders for me was the one that stole my whole heart. I was horrified to read how long he held on only to bleed out 3-1/2 hours later because the police were more concerned about securing the perimeter. Meanwhile, Patrick Ireland was jumping out of the window-- anxiously trying to escape. For me, these two particular story lines took this book to another level for me.

The only downside to this book was that not all the victims were represented-- they all didn't get space in Mr. Cullen's book and I am not sure why some of these stories were left out. Also, for whatever reason- I never got back to the emotional level of those first crucial hundred pages.

Thank you for setting my personal record of this event straight, Mr Cullen. I was wrong on so many levels and wasn't aware of the rest of the many issues stemming from this event. For me, Columbine will never be forgotten.

[Tamora Pierce · Rating 5 out of 5]

This is the first complete coverage of the 1999 Columbine high school shooting that's been published, with information on the journals and videotapes seized by the police, on the survivors and their families, on the political changes in the town, on the school before and after. It debunks the jock revenge and heavy metal theories that the media generated in the information vacuum after the shootings and gives the information that proves there was no conspiracy.

I was disappointed at first by the lack of photos, but I think it does give the book seriousness and keeps it from supermarket sensationalism. A map of the school would have helped, though. It was hard to follow some of the crime scene descriptions without one.

Cullen has done an absolutely masterful job with a painful subject here. The writing makes the book as easy to read as a novel. He did his best to include everyone's point of view and to be as fair as possible and as kind as possible to everyone.

This is one of the best true crime novels I've ever read, and it's one of the best disaster novels I've ever read. Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold were both criminals and a disaster waiting to happen. Once you read this book, you'll be grateful that the damage they did was limited. It could have been much, much worse. And isn't that a crazy thing to say?

[Fátima Linhares · Rating 4 out of 5]

20 de abril de 1999. Liceu de Columbine. Dois jovens entram no edifício e começam a disparar. Morreram treze alunos, um professor e os dois atiradores. Alguns alunos ficaram feridos e com sequelas para o resto da vida.

Neste livro, que levou dez anos a escrever, Dave Cullen fala dos dias e anos que antecederam o massacre, do dia do evento, das vítimas, das famílias das vítimas, dos assassinos e dos seus pais. Como este evento moldou a vida de uma comunidade e deixou marcas profundas em todos os envolvidos e não mudou uma vírgula nas leis de acesso às armas.

Lembro-me de Columbine e assisti ao filme de Gus Van Sant. Não tinha ideia de que já tinha sido há tantos anos. O tempo passa...

As notícias sobre estes massacres ficam-se pelo número de vítimas, quem foram os autores e pouco mais, mas com esta leitura ficamos a saber os motivos dos dois jovens, o processo de preparação de todo aquele aparato, que eles esperavam que matasse centenas de pessoas, mas não foram assim tão bons a fazer contas e bombas. E ainda bem.

Última leitura de 2025, muito pouco natalícia, mas muito interessante.

[Meike · Rating 4 out of 5]

Columbine: Two heavily armed students go on a killing spree because they were bullied and ostracized, so they set out to take revenge against the jocks and all the other popular kids. Except that's not what actually happened. Dave Cullen's investigative book shines when he dissects how the tragedy was portrayed by different sides and why: The police tried to cover up that they had gotten hints regarding Eric Harris, one of the perptetrators, for over a year; the media has the duty to inform and the public wants to know, but depending on how they report, this means helping the aims of the shooters (and what kind of coverage is better for the ratings?); the media, the church and some Evangelicals turned one of the victims into a martyr based on a false story; and then there's the NRA, politicians, parents of dead and surviving students, the parents of the killers, the school administration and of course: The surviving students themselves, many struggling with PTSD and survivor's guilt, who suddenly found themsleves attending a school that has became an international symbol for human malice.

Cullen does a great job disentangling this web of perspectives and piecing the whole picture back together. He states the facts and dives into the psychologies of the killers and those they affected, which leads to a haunting and fascinating portrayal of how the survivors dealt with grief and anger. The most upsetting part though is that the shooting at Columbine did not lead to a serious reform of American gun laws. In Parkland: Birth of a Movement, Cullen then discusses how the survivors themselves, meaning some high school kids, have taken matters into their own hands, because they were sick and tired of legislators sending them "thoughts and prayers" instead of doing their job.

All in all, this is a very insightful book and there's lots to learn from it. Unfortunately, the first part is by far the weakest, so just keep at it, you will be rewarded.

[Diane · Rating 5 out of 5]

This was the best nonfiction book I read in 2009, and it's an incredible piece of journalism. A lot of media attention was given to the mass shootings at Columbine High School in Colorado on April 20, 1999, but so many of the details that were reported in those first few weeks were dead wrong. This book shattered all the things I thought I knew about the Columbine shootings. For example, it didn't have anything to do with jocks, gays, bullies, the Trench Coat Mafia or Marilyn Manson.

Eric Harris was a psychopath who had actually planned a massive school bombing -- not just a shooting -- and his ultimate fantasy was to kill all mankind. None of his big bombs at the school worked (thank god) but he and Dylan Klebold continued with the mass shootings. The author thinks Dylan was depressed and just wanted to commit suicide, but he had been conscripted into Eric's plan.

Dave Cullen researched and reported on Columbine for nine years. The book starts a few days before the shootings, but chapters also cover the years leading up to the massacre, so you see how the boys gradually arrived at their plan for murder.

This book was especially meaningful to me because I was working as a video editor at a TV station on April 20, 1999. I remember one of the producers saying, "Uh, something's going on in Colorado. The AP wire is going nuts."

I spent the rest of my day watching the incoming video footage, and then I had to edit it for the evening newscasts. For several months after Columbine, I couldn't watch movies with any violence in them -- I had become nauseated from the real thing.

I didn't realize how haunting those images were until the 10-year anniversary of the shootings, and all that footage was replayed. Watching Patrick Ireland fall out of the library window again and again and again was like a god-awful movie on cable that just kept being rerun.

At least now, I better understand why it all happened.

And to anyone who instantly blames the parents of the kids, I would say that you should read this book before you start judging. Eric's father was very strict and tried to discipline him. The problem is that psychopaths may be beyond help or redemption. I felt sympathy for the parents after reading this book, and empathized with the guilt and grief and anger that they must have gone through.

I highly recommend the book to anyone who loves good narrative nonfiction or who has an interest in the psychopathy of criminals. Those interested in law enforcement would also appreciate the book, because this was the case that drastically changed the way officers handled mass shooters.