Do you know this feeling when you eat your favourite raspberries straight from the bush and suddenly you come across a bad raspberry, that you don't like and it leaves a disgusting aftertaste on your tongue so that you want to eat another raspberry as soon as possible to cover up this bad aftertaste? Because that's exactly how I feel after reading this book.
I have a problem with rating and reviewing books because I can't hate them. And, although I want to, I can't hate also this book. I automatically try to see a deeper message, understand metaphors, or get to ,,what the author meant".
I'll try to sort it all out in my head.
For the first few pages, I just had a problem understanding the text. What is going on? Who are the characters? Why is the character's name Krewetka? Why is someone called Ciastko Miodowe? Oh, I understand, that is the author's intention! Like in Truskawkowe Ciastko, this cartoon for the youngest! But why are the others called normally, like Sid and Nancy and Wallace? Is Krewetka a human at all or have I misunderstood something? And why the hell does the main character Cyd Charisse talk to a doll named Gingerbread as if it was alive?
Later, nothing happens for the next 70 pages. We read the main character's memories and flashbacks and her thoughts. It was hard to figure out what is happening now and what is just a memory.
The pages go by and the action stands still. Nothing happens.
I read and find out that the main character is addicted to coffee.
I read and find out that she loves her boyfriend very much.
I read and find out that she secretly has a crush on her boyfriend's brother who has a girlfriend.
I read and find out that ... hey, attention, after going through these 70 pages something is starting to happen!
As the blurb told us, Cyd Charisse becomes "as wild as she wanna be". So... she stays with her boyfriend for the night. Woo-hoo. Craziness.
But, of course, her parents caught her and she is sent to her biological father in New York City for the rest of the summer.
Is something worth noting happening there? No.
Do the characters undergo internal transformation ? No.
Was it a book full of plot twists, interesting characters, with a cool plot? Definitely no.
What's surprised me the most was how Cyd can be such an annoying person and STILL have some friends and even a boyfriend. She reminds me a little of a "typical bad teenager". Through the whole book, she's like "oh, my mother loves me and wants us to spend time together, but I want to spend time with my boyfriend, my mother is stupid, everyone is stupid because they don't give me what I want!" To be honest, at the beginning of the book I thought she was handicapped.
Now I don't know - does Cyd really have a defect, is she traumatized after her parents split up or after a secret abortion, or is she just like that?
I think her morbid attachment to Gingerbread the doll can be a disorder and a trauma. Her very childish and annoying behaviour can also be a reaction to the unpleasantnesses she has experienced.
Or she is just an idiot, and I am, as usual, looking for a deeper meaning where it is not.
The fact is that this book is hell boring. The main character is very poorly written - the author created a girl who behaved like a child/mentally-disabled-person/incredibly-selfish-person-eternally-mad-at-the-whole-world. And the worst part is that I don't know if it is a deliberate procedure or if the author cannot write.
And, unfortunately, it doesn't leave a pleasant feeling of understatement and space for your ideas and reflections. After reading you are just fed up.
Anyway, as I said, I like raspberries. And this book was definitely NOT a tasty raspberry.
I desperately need a good book. I think I even know what I'm going to read this time. And I'm afraid it won't be any Rachel Cohn's book. Oopsie.