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First published July 4, 2023
Of course the man has no idea what is going on inside her. To him she is part of the burden he has to bear for the sake of his career as a performer: one of those nagging wealthy women who will not leave him in peace until they have extorted their gram of flesh. At this very moment, in his correct but slow English, he is relating a story of the kind he presumes the women like her want to hear, a story about his first piano teacher, who sat over him with a férula, and wrapped him on the wrist whenever he made a mistake.
There are other features, however, which irritate her: his stiffness, his remoteness from the world around him, above all the pompous way he talks. Everything he says, everything he does has a formal feel to it. Even in her arms he does not seem able to relax. A comical spectacle, the two of them, making love in English, a tongue whose erotic reaches are closed to them.
With the whole of his pathetic project laid out before her on her desk, his project of resurrecting and perfecting a love that was never firmly founded, she is overcome with exasperation but also with pity. The picture grows clearer and clearer before her eyes: the old man at his typewriter in his ugly apartment, trying to force into life his dream of love, using an art that he was not the master of.
I should never have encouraged him, she thinks. I should have nipped the whole thing in the bud. But I did not see where it was leading. I did not see it was going to end up like this.
‘Once upon a time, but in our times, not olden times, there was a man who travelled to a strange city, call it the city of X, for a job interview. From his hotel room, feeling restless, feeling in the mood for adventure, feeling who knows what, he telephoned for a call girl. A girl arrived and spent time with him. He was free with her, more free than he was with his wife; he made certain demands on her.
The interview next day went well. He was offered the job and accepted, and in due course, in the story moved to the city of X, wife and all. Among the people in his new office, working as a secretary or a clerk or a telephonist, he at once recognised the same girl who had come to his room. He recognized her and she recognized him.’
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‘Go on. What happens next?’
‘It depends…’
Now John speaks. ‘It depends on what passed between them in the hotel. Depends on the demands you say he made on her. In the story, Mother, do you spell out what demands he made?’
‘Yes, I do.’
Now they are silent, all of them. What the man in the city of X will do next, or the girl with the sideline in prostitution, recedes into insignificance. The real story is out there on the balcony, where two middle-aged children face a mother whose capacity to disturb and dismay them I not yet exhausted.