Revelry

by TeamBella23

He is always aware of where she is and what she is doing. Bella makes sure that Edward’s eyes are only on her…grabbing his attention every chance she can. She is in need of constant allegiance…it’s fucked but works for them.

Complete, Romance/Hurt/Comfort, 26 chapters, BPOV, EPOV, JasPOV, APOV.

Genres: Fan Fiction

ebook

About the author

This is a pseudonym of Mary Elizabeth aka MaryElizabeth23

Reviews

[It's just me Shelly B · Rating 5 out of 5]

"It's a f*cked up feeling to love someone so f*cking much that you let them f*ck with your head in order to save theirs."

This book is not an easy read it's cruel and harsh.....but it's real and that's why I LOVE it!!




It's a boy meets girl book and they fall in love, they use each other and form a tight bond to make up for the lack of affection they receive from their rich parents.



Now I say boy meets girl and falls in love....it sounds sweet...huh?



It's not!!! Their story is far from sweet......it shows how recreational drug use can eventually turn you into a monster and YOU will destroy everything in your life.



E's demon was a bitch.....constantly calling his name.....

"It's a beautiful creature really, so f*cking enticing. Cocaine is the sweetest whore, a fucking home wrecking slut but she is beautiful and a small part of me will always love the murderous bitch. Coke was there for me in the sickest f*cking way. I might always be grateful to her for that."



The only thing he loved more, was Bella, she was his obsession....and Bella's obsession was Edward!! They live and breathe for each other but they also destroy one another at the same time.



However B isn't innocent in this either she's a cutter, and she uses it to control him.

“People have strong feelings against self-injurers.......There is something beautiful about scars of all nature… a scar means the hurt is over, the wound is closed and healed and done with.”



He's the only one that knows she does this......and it tears him apart. He uses the drugs to escape and the cycle begins!



I could go on and on about this....it's by far one of the best books I've read!!! It's tragic and beautiful at the same time.


These two are soul mates...even through all the shit that they suffered they were always "home" when they were together. This book has such a beautiful ending....it proves that people can go through the bad shit and still come out HARMED but HEALED.....it's just perfect!!! The ending isn't over the top but it's just as it should be.....in REAL life....a struggle but a good one!!

Healed but not perfect....but nobody is perfect!






This a note from the author.....trust me if you can't tolerate what she wrote do not read this book!!



"If you have a problem with rough sex, drug use, crude language, cutting, death, or stepmoms fucking their stepsons, move on. Seriously, I took the abuse with Closer but I will not take it here. Revelry and my other two stories are for the hard core, we don't play with bullshit here. We all appreciate a little romance, but we won't be looking at the stars at the same time around here. So there is your warning, take it or leave it"

[Elaine · Rating 5 out of 5]

6 Heartbreaking, Intense but Uplifting Stars



Warning!!! This book may not be for everyone If you are easily offended by cutting, heavy drug use, then this may not be for you..


I have to say this was for me the most intense book I have read to date.
It tells the story of Bella and Edward and their friends Jasper and Alice. How things that happen in your life can change the course that you decide to take.

Bella and Edward are school sweethearts both from privileged backgrounds, along with Jasper, they all have an incredible bond. Alice is Bella's best friend and and has the love of Jasper.
They all have family issues, some worse than others that effect them deeply.

Edwards relationship with Bella is claustrophobic...
"I live for her and I love her, breathe for her, I die slowly every single fucking day for her"
He feels suffocated by it. He loves Bella so much that he will never leave her...

Bella can't let him leave with her own insecurity she uses her own addiction to keep him." The labels are written all over me. Attention seeker, user, manipulator, and pathetic. Crazy fucking bitch should be added too"


Jasper...beautiful Jasper , so very broken but so likeable, his story affected me the most....
His POV gave me one of the most heartfelt emotions ever.
And Alice loves him so much... but he struggles to tell her how much he loves her too.

This story is about addictions of all kinds but its so much more. What I write here can never do this story the justice it deserves.
The writing is so real, so heartbreaking, there is no Disney here.

But it is also beautiful, uplifting and it has helped me understand the subject more.


If you enjoyed the amazing Dusty then you will love this story too...Mary Elizabeth / Teambella23 ..girl you can write..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r8dJh0...

[M. · Rating 5 out of 5]

It's a fucked up feeling to love someone so fucking much that you let them fuck with your head in order to save theirs.

I live for her and I love for her, breathe for her. I die slowly every single fucking day for her.

She has all of me. Every single bit of me.

There are very few stories that will reach in and touch your heart, consume your mind and leave you feeling empty and overcome with emotion all at the same time. Revelry is one of those stories. It is the most intense book I have ever read. It's fucked up, messed up, ugly, emotional, intense and most of all, it's real. It left me feeling like I had lived through all of it. It filled me with emotions so strong that I thought I couldn't handle it. I'm kind of broken after finishing.

I think a warning is in order here. If you are easily offended by cutting, heavy drug use, and profound angst, then this story is not for you. If you have a problem with rough sex, drug use, crude language, cutting, death, or stepmoms fucking their stepsons, move on. Please take this warning seriously, because Revelry really is not for everyone. The characters are so complex, not everyone will be able to understand them and the mistakes that they make. This is not your typical love story.

There is not a lot of good that comes from Edward and I being together, but there is love... indisputable, prevailing, gut-wrenching love that helps heal the hurt.

Revelry starts with a very intense and fucked up relationship between Edward and Bella. There's no easy introduction or explanation. You're just thrown in the middle of fucked up.

Bella keeps everyone on their toes, no one fucks with her. She is the pretty girl who will curb your head if you fuck with her.

Bella comes off as domineering, jealous, bitchy, attention-seeking, insecure, possessive and crazy. Bella is a cutter. She cuts for his attention. She cuts to escape her pain.

She is trapped inside of her skin so she cuts her way out.

Bella's character is very complicated and interesting. On the outside she's a badass, but on the inside she's hurting. She's lost, insecure and afraid of being abandoned. She's just as destructive as she is healing. She walks around with a hard attitude, but it's a front. She's sad and she is holding onto Edward for her own sanity.

Bella has the ability to move mountains, stronger than she gives herself credit for. She's too pretty to be sad all of the time, too precious to be cutting the hurt out of her skin.

Edward brings out the best and the worst in Bella. He loves her with all he has, but somehow it doesn't seem to get through to Bella that he's with her forever. She uses her cutting as a weapon, as a tool, to manipulate Edward and keep him with her. A tool she doesn't need. I felt the most for Edward in this book. Dealing with a girl like Bella is a damn hard thing to do. Loving someone who hurts herself is one of the most painful things. The cutter numbs her own pain, but inflicts pain on someone else instead.

Edward was destined for greatness. He is just that type of person. Special. He is beautiful, mysteriously curious, complicated and smart. Edward has a way with words and making a person feel important. (...) He is talented, writes music and plays the piano and the guitar. (...) I am most definitely the weight that holds him back.

Edward loves her too much to walk away and he couldn't leave her even if he wanted to. Instead Edward finds another way to deal with the pain she inflicts upon him.

I have found a way to deal. There is a way that I can let you live and I will survive.

The first time he snorts cocaine he realizes that it makes him stronger and numbs him to Bella's manipulations.

The world is mine... ice in my veins, blood in my eyes, hate in my heart, love in my mind.

Slowly Edward gets addicted to cocaine while Bella stops cutting for attention and starts cutting to numb the pain.

Our sins might be different but both are equally as deadly. A cut for a line... an addict for an enabler.

As they grow older, shit becomes more serious and their lives become more derailed. Bella realizes she has ruined Edward. She realizes her love is a life taker. I think around 30-40% a shift happens in their relationship and their roles get reversed. Bella kind of matures and tries to hold it all together while Edward is the one losing control. Edward wasn't strong enough to help Bella and not lose himself in the process.

I got dirty rolling around in dirt.

But what I love about Mary Elizabeth's stories is that there is never one person to blame and there's never one reason to why the things happened the way that they did. You can't point your finger at what went wrong and why. You can try and dissect to find where things went wrong, but you can't. It's easy to just blame Bella or just blame Edward, but things are never that easy.

"You're diamons and guns... You're hard, beautiful, indestructible, invaluable, precious, like a diamond. You're a gun because you can be so fucking cold... You are risky, sexy and you can kill us with a pull of a trigger."

"I think you're the gun, baby girl."

Bella, Edward and Jasper were the perfect examples of how teenagers end up fucking up their lives. Those kids had so much potential, but all three chose the wrong tools to deal with hardships and pain. Life is what you make it and they made it plain miserable.

We were three desperados screaming at the world that we didn't give a fuck. I'm still trying to figure out what we didn't give a fuck about.

Reading and witnessing this story was just painful. Jasper was a side-character that felt more like a main-character. He is Edward and Bella's best friend. Loyal to the bone. Funny as hell. Jasper was able to lighten up the worst situation. Jasper made me laugh through my tears when I thought it'd be impossible. He was probably hurting the most, but he completed and perfected this story. The three of them were like one. They loved each other more than anything, but were forced to watch each other's lives being thrown away. Even though Edward and Bella were destructive and hurt each other, without each other they were even worse off.

In the end, being together is what we are addicted to most of all.

What it comes down to in the end, after the revelry, is picking up the pieces of the life you threw away.

Tough times don't last, but tough people do.

This story hit me in a way that I can't explain. It was all so real, so intense, so complex and so emotional. Good times and bad times. Happiness and hurt. Laughter and tears. Pleasure and pain. My emotions are all mixed up and I'm spent. I haven't stopped thinking about it since I finished.

Bella and I are forever. She's the best part of me. Nothing will change that. Fucked up or sober, she is it.

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[Ashleigh · Rating 5 out of 5]

It's a f*cked up feeling to love someone so f*cking much that you let them f*ck with your head in order to save theirs."

Wow this book was the most intense book I think i have ever read, it was not easy to read it messed with my emotions the entire time. This book is Bella and Edward who meet and fall in love almost instanly. This love turned into an obsession for the both of them. They both loved and obsessed with each other. They do drugs in the beginning just for fun but eventually it turns into more. Bella is very insecure and unstable and she cuts herself as a way to hold Edward to manipulate the relationship. He ends up turning to cocaine to not have to deal with the emotions her cutting brings out in him. The story just builds from there. Also a major player in this book is Jasper the three of them are always together like a family. It was really hard to read some of the scenes in this book they were all pretty messed up and did some fucked up things to cope with everything, but I really really enjyed this book. Im sure its not for everyone but I loved it...

[Sarah · Rating 5 out of 5]

AMAZING!!! Even better the 2nd time.. This is one book I could Reread time and time again!!

[Lucia · Rating 5 out of 5]

Oh My God, this was really something. Revelry is definitely not a traditional fanfiction story. It was drastic, raw, very disturbing and sometimes really difficult to read. But it was perfectly written story. And even though there were times I almost give up reading (some scenes were too hard to read) I am glad I finished it. In Revelry, the angst is at its maximum and I was emotional mess when reading it. But it was worth it!

The main themes of this story are drug use, addiction, self-harm, emotional manupulation. Everything felt so realistic in this story that it was scary some times. As author stated, "drug use ig ugly", and so was this story. Author's description of drug use and feelings accompanying it was realistic and raw. It was difficult to read it so I cannot imagine how difficult had to be writing it...

Bella is trully messed up in this story. And the relationship she had with Edward was really sick. They love each other deeply but they were hurting each other constantly. They cannot live without each other, but their relationship was just so wrong. It was very depressive and emotional story. Jasper and Alice are another messed up couple in this story. Especially Jasper. I do not want to give anything away, but this story is definitely not for leisure reading!

But even though Revelry was very difficult to read sometimes, overall it was very hard to put it down. This story is really special one!

[Erin · Rating 5 out of 5]

Revelry was one of the most intense books I have ever read! It was such a nice change of pace from all of the formula books I am used to reading. I know it is fan fiction so the author is able to take a lot more liberties, but still, the writing and the story itself were incredible. The author warns you in the beginning that it contains A LOT of explicit and hard core material, so let's just say you are warned!

Bella and Edward are both from well to do families. They are those typical teenagers that are given a little too much freedom and in freedom most people, especially teenagers, find sin. They do drugs, mainly pot in the beginning, and have a lot of sex. They are completely and totally in love. Bella is extremely insecure and emotionally unstable. She basically manipulates Edward by cutting herself when she feels jealous or when he is upset with her. This obviously takes an emotional toll on Edward. He feels helpless when the girl he loves hurts herself. Bella knows how it affects Edward, but continues to do it anyway.

Bella and Edward have a very best friend named Jasper. He completes their tripod. They both do not know what they would do without him. Jasper has emotional problems of his own stemming from the death of his mother, and eventually he starts to do cocaine as a way to deal. At first, Edward wants no part of it, but eventually Edward gives in and starts doing cocaine as a way to numb himself to Bella's manipulations.

Eventually Edward's cocaine use to numb himself becomes an addiction and in order to deal with it Bella stops cutting to manipulate and starts cutting to numb the pain of Edward slowly slipping away from her.

Bella, Edward, and Jasper are their own worst enemies. They cope with their problems and issues in all the wrong ways. I loved this story bc I felt the love and passion between Edward and Bella. They were so in love with one another it just about kills them and I completely understood it. I felt what they felt. Mary Elizabeth is that great of a writer. I felt everything Jasper felt too. The pain from losing his mother, the self doubt and hatred. I loved all 3 of these characters so much. Mary Elizabeth makes sure of that with her beautiful words and outstanding character development.

This book made me laugh, cry, shocked the hell out of me, and made me feel just about every other emotion along the way. I highly recommend it!!

[Romy · Rating 5 out of 5]

TeamBella23 is one of the best writers out there. She doesn't sugar coat things, but she has a way with words that makes you feel so much from the first chapter that you're instantly drawn to the story and its characters.

Her description of drug use and self harm are as real as it gets and if you've ever went through any of those you'll see what I mean.

Well written, great plot and a brilliant closure, not dragging the story to no-end.

[Christine · Rating 5 out of 5]

Absolutely loved this one can't get enough of Edward and Bella, Alice and Jasper.:)

[♥︎♥︎Sofia♥︎♥︎ · Rating 3 out of 5]

From Dusty to Revelry? I must need my head examined. I had flounced this story a couple of times but this time I was determined, as I couldn't understand why out of all TeamBella stories this one wasn't gripping me, well having come to the end of it I've figured it out. A lot of Bellas in Twifics are just *shakes heads* annoying, but the Bella in Revelry? She's a manipulative, selfish, kinda spiteful, b.i.t.c.h of the the most dangerous type; a Bella who sees her own flaws but seems to be unwilling to do anything about it. Reason? Well, that is the challenge of TeamBella's story, she doesn't really give you one; not one that is cut and dry and 'twific-acceptable (which is what makes TeamBella23 a very brave Twific writer indeed). Some people are twisted because they're twisted, end. And if they cross your path? Watch out, because they'll take you down; which is what Bella proceeds to do to Edward. I believe this is why I flounced this story early on in my Twific career, at that time I was unprepared to have Edward and Bella's relationship be any less than perfect; this couple, in this story are so less than perfect you want them to split up; you want Edward to run away from Bella as fast and as far as his legs can carry him, instead she sends him into a downward spiral that comes back to bite her in the arse. So am I recommending this story? Yes, if you want something outside the box or are a bit over the normal E&B dynamics of shy, lip biting, stumbling, fumbling mess and swoop in and sweep off, this might just do the trick. But, it isn't for everyone, it is a good but not an excellent example of this author's work, I think she was writing this at the same time as California Waiting, not sure if she had a Beta but the copy I have has a fair amount of grammatical and spelling mistakes; but as usual this woman's writing is strong, her character development fantastic and the cast atypical. But I do think, if I'm totally honest, that this is one for devotees of the TeamBella23 cult such as myself, having drank the Kool-Aid will help with the digestion of this tale.

[Dame Sunday · Rating 4 out of 5]

Well this was very good!! Mary Elizabeth has a way with writing like you're really there. It was a very emotional story. Very dark. I think I'll be staying away from her stories for awhile though hahaha off to find the light now haha

[Mollie · Rating 4 out of 5]

I shouldn't rate this yet. I should let it sink in. I'm so emotionally exhausted and I can't think about anything else. It wasn't until halfway that I was 5 star-crazy-hooked. Maybe the angst was too much in the beginning? Maybe I shielded myself from it and wouldn't allow it to grab me? Maybe I need to read it again? I'd love to. I have no problem with dark & disturbing reads.

The writing...oh man, it was beautiful and cryptic. I was laughing when I should've been crying, crying when I should've been smiling, smiling when I should've been worried sick, and at times I actually felt sick. The worst parts were the best parts and the best were the worst. The darkness was so seductive and scary.

I have my fingers crossed that I'll see familiar lyrics in the published version. It's okay if I don't because I'm happy to have read this pre-published and happy to have met some of the characters that I'll never read about again. It's very sad. I feel like this is the saddest happiest story, if that even makes sense.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r8dJh0...

[Mindy · Rating 4 out of 5]

I didn't like this one as much as I liked Dusty. This book was still good though, just a lot better around 60% on.. I was a little bored the first half of the book with all the sex scenes. It kinda got to the point of, "Geez, again?" But the story was good. I heard there are going to be some edits made and then this book is going to be published. I look forward to reading the edited version.

[Sabrina · Rating 5 out of 5]

Revelry has just topped my favorites list. I am still processing, will write my review soon. I am speechless and blown away.

[Caroline · Rating 4 out of 5]

I liked this book, not as much as I loved Dusty. I felt this was a little repetitive at times. It probably could have been a little shorter but overall a great, intense read.

[Tina · Rating 5 out of 5]

Shit, that book wrecked me....

[Jessica · Rating 5 out of 5]

I am pages away from finishing this book but I couldn't wait any longer to say something about it. I am floored at the passion and emotion that this book emits. I can't even comprehend everything behind the addictions in this book. I was so drawn in that at times I needed to stop to breath. This author is a true story teller from the heart... someone who truly understands the human condition and who writes from honesty. I am 100% floored at her writing style and am sooo in aww of how well she describes emotions.

This book took me a while to get through it was so worth it. I am so in love with these characters.. soo desperate for them to heal and recover... so sad for their losses... but so taken back by their love. This was more than story about love and addiction.. it was a story about kids who have nothing but each other to lean on and coping the only way they know.

One last thing, this author needs to have these books published (I've also read Dusty which is also unbelievable)!!! She needs to be recognized on a bigger scale for the poetry she writes. Seriously.. you are a poet and I am a big fan.

[Jess · Rating 5 out of 5]

you broke my heart with this one.. but god did I fuckinh love it and fan girl on it.. GODDDDDDD

[Annabelle · Rating 3 out of 5]

It was very hard for me to rate this book. It was still Mary's brilliance, but after reading her published books, I feel like she could have done so much better. First of all it was too long, repetitive, with unnecessary sex scenes and constant I love yous. Intimacy should tell the story and not trash it. I didn't really get the connetion between Bella and Edward. It felt unreal and somehow the "forever" was unrealistic and forced. The author could have given a better glimpse into Emett and Rose's story using dialog or a more interactive way. Their story was very interesting but it missed substance and the characters felt like cardboard in the background. In spite of all this, Revelry was still one of the best books I've read this year. Mary is an amazing author.

[Zurri · Rating 5 out of 5]

I absolutely loved this.

It might be shocking to some people but others can relate to it. It was very emotional.

This book is how life really is for most of us - Yes we are all addicts one way or the other, it might not be cutting, coke or heroine, sex, or weed but even love, hate, fear, adrenaline, information, technology and even friendship can be addictive. We all choose our poison differently.

Normally the stories we read are all fairy tales, flowers and sunshine.
This book is not sugar coated - it's raw and bitter sweet!!!!

[Laxmama · Rating 4 out of 5]

4 STARS Amazing! I was shaken by the intensity of this story, I was drawn into their lives and all their conflicting emotions. I was consumed by this story, it will stay with me for some time. After reading Dusty/Delinquents, I had to read more from TeamBella, incredible.

[Amber Fellows · Rating 5 out of 5]

obsessed with this story line

[angel medina]

Okay! Where is this? Are you publishing this story? Because if your not, you should. I mean. I would read anything you write!