It’s 1982, and at 22, fresh out of drama school, Katharine finds herself part of a repertory company in Broadburgh-on-Sea – and the early part of this book is an entirely absorbing first person account of life behind the scenes. Her own appearances often fraught with problems, only increasing her feelings of inadequacy and clumsiness, the real joy in her life comes from her intense relationship with Nicholas, the company’s “star”. Her view of him is perhaps somewhat blinkered: his treatment of her is, at times, appalling, while he shares her digs, expects her to be at his beck and call, spending many hours honing his stage performances while she shores up his inflated and considerable ego.
By 2022, her own career set aside while she supported his, she sees things more clearly – Nicholas might have become a knight of the theatre, but as she considers his many grave misdemeanours over the years she decides that the time might have come to step out of his shadow and live her own life. With a fair bit of bravery, and considerable aplomb – I found myself really urging her on – she realises that it’s not too late to follow her own hopes and dreams, and to find the happiness and contentment that’s eluded her throughout their forty years together.
The characters in this book are quite wonderfully drawn – and not just Katharine, whose younger self entirely won my heart at around the time when she dragged a rose bush onto the stage attached to her skirt, all played out in front of her much-loved father and a visiting London agent. At her mother’s last visit, she pulled a cupboard on top of herself – a totally self-centred former darling of the British film industry, their relationship never an easy one, Moira certainly has a great deal to do with Katharine’s oft-voiced feelings of never being quite good enough. But Katharine also has a number of people very much in her corner – particularly Simon, the company’s director who harbours feelings for her that he knows won’t be requited, and long-term friend Cleo (her own story well-told too – I really liked her) who perhaps has a rather clearer view of the way Nicholas is controlling her life. The friendships and family relationships are fascinating in every way, and quite perfectly handled – but so is the insider view of life in the theatre world with its many excesses.
But perhaps what I loved most about this book was Katharine’s personal journey – her later-life decision to acknowledge her own needs and make a life of her own most certainly doesn’t mean that all her problems are over, but the way she responds to every new challenge and secret that emerges proves tremendously uplifting, with an ending that’s satisfying in every possible way. At 62, she finally starts to become the woman she was always meant to be – and sharing her very real life experience was everything I’d hoped for. At an emotional level, the author judges everything quite perfectly – and, I have to say, her storytelling is pretty well perfect too, with an ease to the reading that totally draws you into the lives of her characters.
I read this lovely book in a single sitting, identifying with Katharine across the years and through her life’s many ups and downs, entirely immersed in the world the author so brilliantly created – and really felt the joy of the happy ending its heroine so richly deserved. Yes, this will be one of my books of the year – and I really couldn’t recommend it more highly.