Margaret Trudeau's memoir published in 1979 sold well, fueled by the curiosity of the public and a scandal filled book tour before it was released. It was the first of Margaret Trudeau’s many books, her first efforts focused on her search for happiness after a disastrous marriage to Pierre Trudeau the Prime Minister of Canada and her later books focused on her struggle with mental illness.
After a secret wedding to the fifty-one year old prime minister in 1971, the beautiful twenty-two year old Margaret was quickly thrust into the spotlight of becoming a First Lady, a role for which she was thoroughly unprepared and one which she came to hate. Six years and three children later, she left Pierre after a scandal filled period during which she danced at Studio 54 with rock stars, had several affairs including one with a handsome US senator (later identified as Ted Kennedy) and smoked pot under the noses of her RCMP security detail.
This is the first of her three memoirs, the second, “Consequences” was published in 1982 and “Changing My Mind” in 2010. In this first book, she describes how during her years as Pierre’s wife, she was the object of so much attention she felt like a fish in a fishbowl. Before her marriage she had greeted life as a free spirit, traveled the world and sampled much of what it had to offer. She was able to do what she wanted without the constant criticism of anyone watching her closely, ready to call her out and bring attention to every misstep she made. She found it uncomfortable and suffocating.
She was eighteen when she met Pierre Trudeau while on a vacation in Tahiti in 1968. At the time Trudeau was Minister of Justice. Margaret did not know recognize him but was charmed by this intelligent, athletic, older man and they began what Margaret describes as a “fairy tale romance”. Their secret relationship and six-month engagement was known only to their families so Canadians were shocked one morning to wake up to the news their Prime Minister was married. However, they were thrilled that their free wheeling, bachelor head of state had finally settled down and were thoroughly taken in by the pretty young woman he had chosen, a women who had sewed her own wedding dress and converted to Catholicism to marry their head of state.
When she married Pierre, little was known about Margaret except that she was one of the five daughters of former Liberal Cabinet Minister James Sinclair. Her life was about to change dramatically. After the couple settled in Ottawa, Margaret took on her role as First Lady but experienced difficulty from the beginning. She was unprepared for the ceremonial duties and blindsided by the intensive press stories about everything she said or did. She had always been an independent minded young woman, who followed her own muse, did what she wanted and answered only to herself. In Ottawa she felt like a caged bird, like a “glass panel” had been gently lowered around her to prevent her making her own decisions or being exposed to public criticism.
Initially the public enjoyed seeing what appeared to be the couple’s close and loving relationship and after having three children in quick succession Margaret gained their admiration as a loving and caring mother. But behind the scenes things were quickly falling apart. Margaret resented Pierre’s long work-related absences and over time the marriage fell apart. They separated, Margaret left the children with her husband and became a much-photographed jet-setter, often headlining the news with her various outlandish antics, granting revealing interviews to both Canadian and American magazines and leading a high-flying life.
This book is about her marriage, an honest tell all book about what went on behind the scenes of the unlikely union of a flower child and a high-profile politician. In it she gave many private details of what it was like in the “long tunnel of darkness” of her marriage.
Written with startling honesty, she describes the realities behind the often-glamorous facades, adds details to the scandals that had already been widely reported and explains how the red tape, the ever-present security, the numerous grand parties, state visits and teas stultified her search for independence and self-fulfillment. She found it impossible to live restrained by the numerous rules and protocols required by her position. Desperately unhappy and plagued by mood swings, she began a trial separation from Pierre in 1977. What followed was two years of absolute mayhem in her personal life.
At that point after so much bad press, the public had little sympathy for her or her erratic and outlandish behavior. Every time she did something outrageous, like serenading the First Lady of Venezuela with a self-composed tune at a state dinner after secretly taking hallucinogenic peyote, it brought her more publicity. It appeared she was deliberately engaging in provocative behavior to get attention. Her purpose in writing the book was to present her side of the story and many readers, equally curious, disgusted and sometimes charmed by her acting out, bought her book which sold well.
Margaret candidly shares her perspective on the life she lived from the time the picture of her was taken as a demure child bride, to earth mother and then as a jetsetter determined to be free. It did not gain her much sympathy from the public as she turned her back on the Prime Minister and thumbed her nose at Canadian political life. The public no longer saw her as charming, instead they saw her as relentlessly selfish, unstable and a little “ditsy”.
As she embarked on a promotional tour for the book, there were rumours that it included stories of her intimate and private life with Pierre and the one-night love affair that was the last straw of her troubled marriage. This of course fueled sales for the book further as did the serialization of the book in the British papers and the news the paperback rights had already been purchased. Adding to the chaos and furor was that Pierre Trudeau was in the middle of a campaign for re-election and put in the distasteful position of having to compete for media attention with his wife. As Pierre addressed audiences and spoke about unity and economic stability, Margaret was traveling across Canada and the United States talking to spell bound audiences about how she had to smoke weed to get through a day in Ottawa. It had an interesting effect on the campaign with the Liberal Party worried that Margaret’s ongoing discretions reminded Pierre's audience of his bad judgement in choosing his wife.
Margaret wrote the book with the help of ghost writer Caroline Moorehead, who says Margaret took the project seriously, her effort focused on explaining what it was like to be so young and the wife of a Prime Minister. Although some were sympathetic to her plight, her detractors pointed out how Margaret did not enter her marriage blindly. She had lived her life as the daughter of a high-profile Ottawa politician and had already experienced what life was like in a political family. What was she thinking life would be like as the wife of the highest politician in the land?
Margaret developed the title “Beyond Reason” for her book because she said that was what the public accused her of, behavior beyond reason. What was not known at the time was that Margaret had an undiagnosed mental disorder, a fact that came to light only years later. One of the reasons she says she acted as she did was because at that time in her life, she was not thinking with a rational mind.
Looking at the narrative, it is easy to see many of the danger signs of a life headed for trouble and about to implode at some point in the future, but it wasn’t until several years later that Margaret was diagnosed with bipolar disease. Given the resources available to the highest office in the land, it is difficult to understand how that could not have been determined years earlier so that Margaret could have received the help she needed. Although anyone suffering from those issues must acknowledge they need help and Margaret was probably not ready to do that as she refused to consistently follow any medication regimen that was offered her. And realistically, any hint that the Prime Minister’s wife had a mental disorder would have its own inevitable fallout. Perhaps no one was willing to make that call given what might have followed.
Those interested in Margaret Trudeau’s life and her evolution to eventually become a respected mental health advocate would be wise to start with this book. It certainly puts her journey in a context that is helpful in understanding how and why she took the paths she chose.