失敗者回憶錄（上下巻合售）

by 李怡

　　我一生所主張所推動的事情，社會總是向相反趨向發展的，無論是閱讀，獨立思考，或民主自由，都如是。……在事實敵不過謊言、真理敵不過強權的世界，在權錢色騎劫所有價值體系的世界，作為一個忠於自己的寫作人，很難避免不停地產生挫敗感。尤其是我寫作的時間如此長，面對的中國、台灣和香港的轉變如此大，回想我一生推動的不同時期的目標來說，我想到的無疑就是一個個挫折，是實實在在的「失敗的人生」。──李怡

　　他主張寬容異見，維護言論自由，希望中國社會有多黨的民主制度，當權者至少受到新聞監督。他極力守護香港的底線，也成為因言論而遭到人身攻擊和政治仇恨謾罵最廣泛而嚴厲的一名知識分子：由他認識共事過的左報的「叛徒」、「反華」、「反中亂港」到「港獨」，以致同一陣線他曾工作過的傳媒也抹黑他「抄襲」等種種可笑的誣陷和恐嚇。他很堅定，不向極權和流氓屈服。

　　信仰和理想重複幻滅，轉而重新認識香港、熱愛香港，畢生讀書不斷、思考不息。

　　他生於中國、熱愛中國、移情台灣香港，最後其實還是死憂於中國。他在晚年以「失敗者回憶錄」為題寫自傳，為未來的香港人存紀錄、敲警鐘，其時代之雲天壯濶，人事之湖海險奇，足以為香港史ߎ

918 pages, Kindle Edition

Reviews

[Wing · Rating 4 out of 5]

Written and serialised during the last eighteen months of his life, Lee Yee’s unfinished memoir is a catharsis about misplaced innocence and the search for authenticity. It is at times confessional, apologetic, and even remorseful. The unbearable weight of cognitive dissonance ultimately led to liberation and redemption. Whilst the book has a litany of laments, it also emanates a passion as intense as it may appear quixotic. I don’t doubt his integrity but he does make occasional insinuations that beckon if not demand fact checking by the reader. Don’t expect any arresting exposé. Rather, enjoy his perspicuous analyses and sharp observations. He may not be right all the time, but his opinions should surely stimulate the reader to think and critique. His prescience was painfully and tragically accurate. The book is not for the faint hearted. It’s poignant, wistful, nostalgic, and sometimes downright depressing. In any case, it has an immense and interesting cast: sagacious literati, dreadful opportunists, naive idealists, and laughable hypocrites. Published posthumously, it does need some editing to declutter the occasional repetitiveness and to organise the disjointed. (Is it really necessary to have three chapters on parallel-counterpoint poems?) In having said that, it’s a page turner even when one already knows its inevitable ending. At over 800 pages, it’s certainly long but is never a drag. Many instances are indeed deeply moving. It’s truly an inspiring testimony to savour.

[Allan Hao · Rating 5 out of 5]

李怡先生去矣😢，谁助我读懂香港？

[Shannon Tsai · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book gave me a brief history of HK movements

I did not know the scene behind the Hong Kong movements . This book gave me an insider view of how happened in Hong Kong for the last sixty years. I would have no idea what we’re happening when I was a teenager or a young adult. It also told me how communist party worked in Hong Kong and China. It revealed the dark age of Hong Kong history. Hope that the future will not be darker than then.

[Unknown · Rating 5 out of 5]

從頭溶掉我多災的信仰 鑄造更光更亮 淋過冷水 也等得漫長
隨著每個打擊 我會愈強 最難舌劍唇槍 怎樣武裝 和人言打仗
其實這鋼盔 天天加厚 最後令我 站著亦牽強
我縱是內傷 但強人 哪可休養

[MWY · Rating 5 out of 5]

Great book spanning from modern chinese history, and HK political developments from 1980s to 2020. It was really easy to read as they are mainly personal compelling stories!

[Arvin Wu · Rating 5 out of 5]

10年前就开始听李怡先生主持过的“一分钟阅读”，
如今阅读他的回忆录，他历经世事的嗓音依然回荡。
从李怡先生60多年的文坛生涯，让我们读者从他的横贯视角更深刻地了解到香港的人事变迁。同时亦更能理解到自由新闻与法治社会对人民大众的重要性。非常值得阅读的书籍。