Edith Stein was arrested by the Gestapo on 2 August 1942, while she was in the chapel with her fellow sisters at the Carmelite convent in Echt, Netherlands. She was to report within five minutes, together with her sister Rosa, who like Edith had converted from Judaism to Catholicism, to the great pain of their mother and siblings, and was also serving at the convent. St Edith's last words to be heard in Echt were addressed to Rosa: "Come, we are going for our people."
A life lived in service of the truth and in service of humanity.
Upon her investiture as a Carmelite sister, St Edith took the name Teresa Benedict of the Cross. This name brought together the two main strands of her life and her spirituality, which came to a collision course towards the end of her life: firstly, a deeply lived interiority, rooted in the spirituality of St Teresa of Avila, after reading whose autobiography in one evening she was moved to declare that "this is the truth" and would shortly afterward seek entry to the Catholic church; and secondly, a deep knowledge ("scientia") of the cross.
One of the great gifts of the Catholic Church is the Communion of the Saints. This is a chain of believers whom God was able to use through salvation history to bring something of his life to this Earth. He used broken vessels to pour his love into our hearts. He used human weakness to demonstrate divine strength.
Recently I read St Teresa of Avila's Interior Castle and enjoyed it very much. It taught me about Carmelite spirituality, living from within, having a place of refuge within from which to step out into the world. A place of peace within me that no person or power can take from me. An inner stillness and serenity which I hadn't tasted before.
While reading the Interior Castle I suddenly became moved to read some of St Edith Stein's writings, and it was only when I began reading this book now that I made the connection that it was St Teresa of Avila who had led St Edith Stein to her conversion. It's funny how it works that way. There is a chain of faith across history and the saints help us to bridge this gap.
Dorothy Day is another character who fits into the mix, who was heavily inspired by St Teresa of Avila and named her first daughter after St Therese of Lisieux, another latter-day saint who was also inspired by St Teresa of Avila. It is a chain of love and faith that stretches across time.
So what do I take away from this book? Quite simply that it is in the cross that true freedom lies. The most free act is to accept the burden that is laid upon my shoulders, to take up my cross and follow Jesus. When I live in this space, a deeper freedom opens up and I begin to see myself and those around me in a new light, in a true light. I see rightly, because I see with the heart, to paraphrase the words of Antoine de Saint-Exupery in The Little Prince.
But to see with the heart means to endure pain. You need to be willing to feel stuff and take stuff inside. It hurts. It isn't easy. Waging interior warfare. But it works. It builds strength. It builds character. And you begin to see things more clearly.
But maybe I'm deluded and maybe I'm out of sorts. Maybe. But I think there's something true here. Something worth pursuing. Because after the cross comes the resurrection, and with it new life and restored hope. A deeper hope than that which the world can give. A hope which is beyond time and space. The science of the cross.
Anyways, enough from me. Time to plan my lessons for tomorrow.
Oh and lastly, that's another thing that I relate to about St Edith - she was also a teacher, for nine years, no less.
Wishing you well,
Benedict