Very few people have come out the Northern Ireland conflict, having been heavily involved in the bombings and shootings and then had a 180 degree about-turn and been so vocal and unambiguous a campaigner about the futility of revolutionary AND state violence; Shane Paul O'Doherty is one of them. For that alone this deserves a read. An IRA volunteer at 15, Shane doesn't shy away from his involvement in a grubby bloody sectarian war. On the contrary he retells it, in graphic detail, through the eyes of his adolescent romanticised former self, along with the dreadful details of the harm he caused to himself, his family and his political and military enemies at the time. This is a heart-felt, eloquent, rational and coherent narrative of The Troubles, all the more remarkable in its objectivity, criticising both paramilitary groups for their mistaken blood sacrifice ideology and state actors - police, army and prison warders and governors for their unjustified violence and abuse of prisoners. Ten years after being sucked into the IRA, Shane has an encounter with the person of Jesus Christ in his prison cell via an argument with a racist Jesuit priest. From that point on he has seen himself not as a revolutionary with a justified cause, excusing his violent actions but as a human rights violator, required to ask forgiveness from his victims, and in need of restoring his relationship with his community, himself and God. Although determined and committed to the cause of peaceful political change and justice, thus begins an excruciatingly difficult path towards restoration and freedom, via solitary confinement, a psychiatric ward (for asking for forgiveness of his victims) and humiliation in the UK national media. Shane's story of how he navigates these troubled waters is compelling. It also gives a unique insight and testimony of the nature and extent of injustices meted out to those who were on the frontline of The Ulster Troubles, yet without excusing their acts or twisting the narrative.