This is a tough review to write because it's very hard to put my finger on exactly why I felt like I needed to DNF. We started a little beyond the line of content I'm comfortable with when in the prologue, we get a flashback to a girl being assaulted by her mother's boyfriend. He gets cut off before he can take it all the way, and the description is very minimal, and there's a very clear warning to skip that section if you need to, and overall, I felt like it was handled about as tastefully as it could have been. So oddly, my DNF isn't actually based on the kind of rough past the heroine had, or the kind of rough situation I assume the girl they end up helping is living in. Which is very odd because I could understand that kind of thing getting too much for me, but as far as I had gotten, it hadn't.
So, with that kind of usually-too-much content not bothering me for once, it was strange the little things that got under my skin. There's a scene where a group of guys goes out to a microbrewery/restaurant for drinks, and yes, I've become convinced that the question of drinking (not drunkenness) is more of a legitimate issue of conscience than some of the church believes. But I can’t help but wonder, what purpose did it serve to have the youth pastor go out for a drink with the guys and have a conversation about why it's not wrong, when you know there are enough other people sensitive to it that you have to defend including it. They get food once the ladies come; could it not just have been a restaurant and avoided the topic? Because it wasn't at all necessary to the story as far as I can see; Gina's mom is an alcoholic, but she also doesn't have a problem with drinking and is more impressed that Jaydon also drinks than anything. It felt...squeezed in to say "hey, look, we're not your ordinary legalistic Christians" and nothing else. Maybe that wasn't the author's intent, but that's all I got from it, and it bugged me. So did other things, like a comment about Jaydon's niece teaching bad words to her toddler brother, and her dad's comment on being asked where she got them being "hey, we're preacher's kids, but we're not perfect." I mean, I know that's true, but as just a throwaway comment that's more of a handwave than anything? That really grated. There were other things like that too. Jaydon's obviously sold out for God and a great youth pastor, but Gina keeps getting glimpses of ways he breaks the mold, for lack of a better term (wait, he's got a tattoo? or, hold on, this isn't a Christian band he's listening to) that...are supposed to make him more interesting or attractive? Why? It's not that the things were blatantly sinful or more than matters of conscience, but you know they're controversial or you wouldn't make a big deal of them. Is Jaydon supposed to be a more desirable guy because he falls on the edgier side of those issues? Because it doesn't bother me that he has a tattoo. But it bothers me that his having one is supposed to make him more attractive and interesting and "not like other church guys". It just bothered me, and I can’t fully put my finger on why.
The attraction was pretty solidly on the physical side--not necessarily descriptive, but the mental exclamations every time Gina noticed how hot he was also made me uncomfortable. There were a few uses of "sexy," some mention of "boobs" (from her POV), and a recollection of an incident with a high school boyfriend that somehow made me more uncomfortable than the flashback to the assault. None of it on its own had crossed the DNF line; it just kept building into a more and more uncomfortable stack. And then, they're still barely getting to know each other, he's just heard a little of her story for the first time, and he's still trying to assure himself she's not like his manipulative ex, when they're suddenly kissing. Long. And Hard. Stepping away and then coming back to it. This isn't the first book I've read where a kiss comes out of left field, but--it was so random and so intense that I couldn’t put my eyebrows down. Not that it was descriptive, but...it was intense. And it was like, one second they're making plans to help a teen in trouble, and the next they're kissing. And kissing. And kissing. And then a few minutes later he gets sucked into a funk of remembering his ex, and she snaps him out of it by a joking comment about being naked? What? And when she kids him about that word waking him up, and isn't he supposed to be a preacher, he uses the same "I'm not perfect" line that his brother did before. I finished the chapter, but the pile of discomfort had gotten too big to ignore, and I didn't feel comfortable going on.
I've enjoyed some of this author's other work, but unfortunately this one was a miss for me.