If you are looking for my heart, you need to contact Kat Elle as she has ripped it out of my chest and I'm not sure when she plans to return it.
I don't usually read war books. While I haven't experienced war first hand, I live each and every day thinking about the Holocaust and the horrors and atrocities that occurred. I cannot explain why it affects me so profoundly when there are people suffering around the globe today, but it does. I therefore stepped into this book with some trepidation.
Blanca Hernandez is the main character in this book. She is a 23 year old Latina who has had a difficult life. She and her younger brother, Mateo, were bought up through the foster care system. When she was old enough, she joined the army and served in Afghanistan as a combat medic. Her intent was to come home to Mateo, her only family, and ensure they would never be separated again.
The day of Mateo's university orientation, while visiting the science building, an experiment goes awry and they find themselves in 1943 Nazi Germany, in the middle of WWII. Blanca's entire focus shifts to survival mode. She's not sure how she can get them back home, to their own time, but seeing so many people dying all around her, she knows she needs to keep Mateo safe.
This epic saga follows Blanca along with a small group of survivors - Mateo, her younger brother, Priya Simmons, another student who had been attending orientation, Iain Claflin, a physics doctoral student at the university, and Otto Zimmler, a Nazi fighter pilot who they rescued and then kept as a prisoner to act as a translator and guide. While survival is their first priority, they also endeavour to avoid altering history.
There is so much I want to say and share about this book, but I'm not even sure where to begin. Other than being a heart wrenching read, and making me cry more than any other book in recent history, the book touches on so many important topics including faith, purpose, love, hatred, bigotry, racism, and more.
Seeing as I continue to struggle to find the right words, I will leave you with a few quotes.
"You are better than what you have been taught."
"This is a dangerous time for faith," he remarked, nodding to her rosary.
"With all due respect," Blanca replied, "this is a dangerous time to be without it."
"An end in terror," Sophie called out passionately, "is preferable to terror without end!"
"The end of something," said the man, "does not erase it. All things must come to conclusion. The only choice you can make is the path that leads you there."
"War remembers statistics and forgets that each of those numbers represents a person's entire life, from the day they entered this world and changed a family forever, to their first steps, their first loves, their tragedies, and their triumphs, all of which culminate in that exact moment," she snapped her finger, "of death".
“Always remember that behind every face is a story, and every expression, a journey. A life is not a static thing, meant to be counted only once. It is an ongoing, thriving, cumulative masterpiece of knowledge, tragedy, joy, and love. And the loss of any one life - no matter how seemingly insignificant - means there is one less beautiful tapestry of experience existing in our confusing, tumultuous world. One less perspective from which we might learn to be true humans, with all the empathy and magnificence that makes our species so terribly unique.
Never forget these stories, Blanca. Never forsake them, and never silence them. Always be ready to sit at the feet of your fellow human beings and listen. If you do that, you will always be wiser tomorrow than you were today.”
"...please remember that your life is important on its own. You are your own greatest achievement, your own peace, your own center, your own deity, and your own spirit. It is a wonderful thing to love as deeply as you do, Blanca, but doing the right thing for the worst sort of deception, because it is the lie we tell ourselves. Do not lie to yourself, Blanca. You exist in your own right."
If you are certain you will not be triggered by the topics in this book, I highly encourage you to pick it up. While the material is fiction, the topics are very real and thought provoking. While I have set the book down, it will stay with me for a long time.