Wow... at last, the book this subject always needed...
If you read books on the urban guerilla movements and or terrorism, you get used to a lot of exteriority. Everything is looked out from outside. Motives are analyzed second hand, events are mummified in timelines, speculation runs rampant as everything seems to move behind signs, hiding behind a layer of mystery and a lack of verifiable facts, lending itself to seeing what one wants to see, a dream screen for would be social theorists and political axe-grinders looking to project pet theories and implicate villians. This makes sense, after all, the terrorist act is symbolic and the terrorist structure is always occulted. The sacrifice the terrorist makes moving into the symbolic is to lose his or her voice. To no longer be heard in polite company, as a thinking feeling person, forever.
Enter Michael 'Bommi' Baumann... with a straightforward style and a candor ringing clear as a bell, Baumann tells the story of his journey from working class kid from Berlin to one of the leading lights of the German urban guerilla movement of the 70's and most importantly beyond.
Baumann writes like you and he are sitting comfortably on the edges of a genial party, there is plenty of beer and he's got all night to answer the question "how did you become a terrorist?" His self-knowledge and perceptions are hard-won and we are fortunate to be able to share in the science he drops so casually and so clearly. Baumann elaborates and thinks out loud about the emotions and situations that pulled him into first the counterculture and then the resistance in Germany in the 60's. Not the ideology, not the abstract, but the loves, the desires, the friendships and personal impulses that drew him into history. Not on a train of indoctrination vis a vis al queda, but as an experiment in living a life outside the machine that wanted him as a slave for life.
Buamann short circuits all of the idiotic and dumbed down ways about thinking about armed resistance to the capitalist machine. His revelations have a lot to do with parsing out the actions from the intentions and self-analyzing all the ways to deal with, and put into action, those intentions. In this book, he is one person talking to another person, not a movement, not a ideology, not a symbol, and it is this very personal thing that powers that be would like to see go away. The idiotic, dumbed down and reactionary approach to resistance is one they would like to see perpetuated, and it is in this context that Baumann's thoughts becomes crucial. It is also why the German state went after this book with such a vengeance.
But back to the all important beyond, it is significant that Baumann, as he put it, threw away the gun, it is equally significant that he doesnt renounce or condemn his actions as a terrorist but saw them as a necessary step in a path of self-actualization but most of all it is significant that he moved beyond that phase and started to think about the next phase, Love.
So for everyone who knows there is something wrong and that there must be another way, Baumann's book should be required reading, not because his path should be your path but because the things he brought back from his journey might help clear the mist from your road.