Book 2 of the Great Beagle Reread.
Disclaimer: This is going to be an un-apologetically emotional review, because I do not have thoughts about this book, only feelings.
This is Beagle's first published work, it came out when he was 19, which is utterly depressing. Reading this is a bit like watching a toddler pick up a violin and play Mozart.
I wasn't even 19 when I first read it, and it floored me. Now, rather more years later than I'd like to admit, it has exactly the same effect. You'd think some sort of wisdom acquired in the intervening years would have diluted the power of this book over me but, if anything, it cuts deeper.
This is the least subtle of his works; it is so densely packed with insights and philosophy that it's a bit like drowning. I found there were chapters I couldn't get through in one sitting, I had to keep coming up for air, going away and writing some of my own thoughts, then coming back, suitably armed, for the next barrage. He writes like someone who knows they are dying, who must get out every important thought and realisation they've ever had in one go, before their time is up. That would be a criticism, if it weren't for the sheer quality and depth of those insights.
I was surprised to find I had forgotten entirely about Mrs. Klapper. Perhaps it is because she was the only character I couldn't relate to. I like her well enough, but the one chapter from her point of view just seems so empty by comparison. I think not getting Mrs. Klapper says more about me than the book.
So what is this about? I could not presume to tell you, but for me, this book is about life and death as a choice, and not something that happens to you. It is about people who are alive, but not living, and people who are dead but more alive than the rest of us. (ugh, how clunky that sounds after reading such beautiful prose.)
I could quote from any page of this book, it is a book of quotes really, loosely strung together with moments of humour and sadness, but for me the summary is this: (and it's near the end of the book, so maybe don't read it if you're planning to read the whole thing.)
We are all ghosts. We are conceived in a moment of death and born out of ghost wombs, and we play in the streets with other little ghosts, chanting ghost-rhymes and scratching to become real. We are told that life is full of goals and that, although it is sadly necessary to fight, you can at least choose the war. But we learn that for ghosts there can only be one battle: to become real. A few of us make it, thus encouraging other ghosts to believe it can be done.
See, it is not subtle, and that is what I love about this book. In his later works Beagle wraps his thoughts in gentle layers of poetry and myth and symbolism, either to protect us or out of humility, I'm not sure, but in this he is fearless, he holds nothing back.
Beagle is the ghost who makes me believe it can be done.