2.5 “We’re the only ones who matter.” stars
“I’m not letting you go, Freckles. I’m just not. You can call it a business arrangement, an affair, a kidnapping, some kind of midlife crisis. But whatever you call it, you’re mine. And I protect what’s mine.”
I’m so sorry book, it really pains me that I didn’t like you more than I did. I wanted to love you so badly but sadly we just weren’t meant to be.
I don’t think I can begin to explain how sad I am that this book did not work for me. This is not something that often happens to me. I almost always love Onley James books and it’s really rare that they do not work for me. I absolutely loved the books in this series so far and this was the book in this series I was the most excited for. But somehow … this book just did not do it for me.
Brief summary
Atticus is sent to kill a man. He finds the man and another guy who’s already torturing that man, Jericho. Jericho and Atticus start flirting and Jericho gives Atticus a blow job. They cannot get enough of each other so they meet again and again. They realize that they are meant for each other and start a relationship.
First, I really enjoyed the dynamic between Atticus and Jericho. They had really good banter that I loved to read. They fit really well together and really seemed to compliment each other wonderfully. They were very well suited and I definitely loved them together. I did really enjoy how Atticus opened up to Jericho and how Jericho was the one person to make him feel, it was so sweet and so on brand for Atticus, it really worked for me. I also loved how protective of each other they were, it was so damn sweet. I also loved how starving for touch and attention Atticus was and how he seemed to come alive when Jericho was touching him, it was just lovely to read about.
Second, I did like how being with a guy wasn’t an issue for Atticus. He was attracted to Jericho so he went with it, even if he thought he was straight before. It was a really refreshing take on the straight guy trope and I really enjoyed it.
Third, I really enjoyed how obsessed with Atticus Jericho was. They met once and Jericho had given Atticus a blowjob and was already super possesive of him and calling him his, it was lovely to read it. I really loved how possesive of each other they were, it was so damn lovely to read about.
Fourth, this book had a lot of sex scenes and they were all ridiculously hot, because this is Onley James and her sex scenes are always insanely good to me.
Fifth, the meet cute in this book is one of the best meet cute I have ever read. I absolutely loved it and it was so damn good. I loved how they met because they both wanted to murder the same man and both very instantely attracted to each other, if that isn’t love then I don’t know what is.
Side note, Freckles is such an adorable nickname and I just love it so much.
Sixth, I really loved the start of this book. The premise was lovely and it was so promising to me. The first few chapters of this book made me think I would have another 5 stars read on my heads. But after a few chapters, the book just lost me. I felt like nothing was ever developed enough and all the cool ideas in the premise were not explored as much as I wanted them to be.
Case one : The entire premise of this book and we’re told this in great details in the prologue is that Atticus doesn’t have many feelings and mimicks people and mirrors what they do to fit in … but he does it like twice in the entire book. The rest of the time he’s just feeling good old emotions, which the premise let me to believe he wouldn’t be feeling, but he was somehow feeling them all the time. Nothing about Atticus attitude in the book was in tune with who the prologue and the first chapters of the book told me he is, it was hard for me to understand his character because of that.
Case two : At the start of the book Jericho and Atticus had more of dom/sub relationship ans they talked about Jericho being in charge and controling things and Atticus obeing. But it dissapeared after a few chapters. For most of the book there wasn’t a very pronounced power dynamic, there was some little hints but we didn’t get any of the things they talked about wanting at the start of the book. From earlier scenes in the book, I was expecting them to have more of a power dynamic and Jericho having a clear dominating role while Atticus had a clear submissive role (they have conversations about Jericho taking over and deciding everything for Atticus, etc.) … but thats not what I got, instead I got Jericho bossing Atticus a little in bed, and nothing else to hint at their power dynamic.
Case three: The book started off with Atticus thinking he was straight so I was hoping a part of the book would be about him exploring his sexuality. But while the sex scenes were hot as fuck, none of them felt like Atticus was new to being with a guy. The sex scenes sounded more like they had been a couple for 10 years and knew everything about each other than sexual exploration. Which is fine, I guess I just had too high expectations and wanted it to be more of a sexual exploration based on the premise.
Case four: There was a lot of instances in the book where they were torturing people but we were never shown most of it. There was a lack of gore in this book for me. We got to see them torture some people, in very short moments. But there was atleast three instances where they were hurting and dismenbering people and they all happened off page. I just wanted to actually read about the gore instead of being told that it happened without witnessing any of it. I feel like if you’re going to give me violence in the book, I rather have it be graphic than just told it’s happening but never witness any of it.
Case five: I really appreciate the different flavours of psychopaths in these books and I liked how Atticus wasn’t like the others. But, I really missed the psychopath characteristics that were really present in the first books of the series. We are told that Atticus is a psychopath and why is that in the first chapter of the book but I feel like I never got to see him display any of those traits, most of the time Atticus just read closer to being alike to Jericho, who isn’t a psychopath, instead of someone who is a psychopath.
All of this to say, the book just felt unfinished to me. This book felt like the big lines of a draft instead of a fully developed book. Every plot point felt barely developed and like there was much more information that should have been there but wasn’t. It felt like I spent the entire book reading an extended blurb and never got the actual book.
Seventh, I just want to talk about the side characters for a second. I don’t know what happened here but this book somehow made me really annoyed with the main characters of the previous books in the series, characters that I loved in their own books, but that were just really mean in this one. The entire Mulvaney family was really mean to Atticus and always made him feel bad for who he is and I couldn’t help but be very annoyed with everyone. Also Felix, Jericho’s brother, really annoyed me. I understand his motivations but I just wish he was nicer because every time he talked in the book he was just mean to our main characters and it got on my nerves after a while. I prefer side characters that are nice and supportive to side characters that are mean for no reason and I definitely felt like everyone (but Caliope, who is still my favourite here) was in the second category in this book.
Eight, the side plot in this book was them investigating what happened to Jericho’s sister who had dissapeared 8 years before and who was just found death and missing her liver. While I enjoyed the investigation parts, I felt like it was a little too predictable for me to really be invested in it. I would have liked a couple of twist and turns to keep the invesgation fresh but I had guessed what the reveal would be from the start, so it made me less interesting in reading that part of the story.
I think the issue here was that my expectations were too high for the book to ever reach them. This truly was the book in the series I was the most excited for, so i’m most likely just asking too much of the book because I was so excited for it.
P.S. All the teasing about Thomas’ book in this one had my absolutely living, i’m way too excited for that damn book.
I received an ARC of this book, and this is my honest review.