“You will be ok.
This will not stop you.
This will not break you.
This will not end you.”
p.8 – The voice I heard was my wise inner voice – the one that’s tapped into the universal mystery of life itself. We all have one. No exceptions. It wasn’t new; it had always been there. I just hadn’t been paying attention. “Ask yourself for the answers.”
So I started practicing listening to and paying attention to this voice, and the more I did, the more I saw how much I’d ignored it over the years. I also began to see the enormous amount of stress, anxiety, and fear that had built up in my body and in my mind. I started to realize that my inner world mattered more than anything else and that it would always lead me in the direction of growth, self-love, and my highest good. “Allow things to unfold.”
p.12 – Creativity, I believe is a powerful tool we can use in learning to take exquisite care of ourselves. Everything in life is intertwined. Life, art, grief, joy, pain, creativity, gratitude, sorrow, ease, disappointment… and through it all, our bodies and our wise inner beings know exactly what we need to do in order to return to balance and peace. We just have to be willing to listen.
The journey inward, back home to our truest selves, is a lifelong one, but it’s the most important journey of all absolutely worth taking. Plan is often a catalyst. If you’re a human who is going through or who has gone through something hard, know this: creativity as a healing tool is available for you, too.
p.20 – Six months after Ryan died and not long after my baby girl was born, I started a 100-day project called “100 Messages to Myself” […] as a way to show up for myself in a small way each day.
p.21 – I got quiet, I turned my ears inward, and I waited for a message from my innermost self – the voice that wants nothing but the best for me. “Let the waves move through you.”
Through listening, hearing a message meant just for me, and then drawing I was able to calm myself. To acknowledge where I was. To comfort myself. To figure out how I was actually feeling. To heal. I never had a plan. Each day was its own experience. I just had to show up and my inner self took over from there. “You deserve the best.”
Making art centered around my own words to myself was a lifeline. It still is. Sitting down to make art become a way to have a conversation with myself and to process the beautiful mess of my life. Because that’s what it was – a big messy swirl of all sorts of emotions that were hard to sort out. This was my way to untangle myself each day.
What do I need to hear today?
What do I need to know?
What will make me feel better right now?
As I asked these kinds of questions while sitting in the quiet, I discovered the answers were already inside of me. All I had to do was ask and then listen. “Do your best. Be kind. Tell the truth. Love people.”
p.26 – If you can, try to create a routine and sit down to create around the same time every day. Set an intention for how often you’d like to play and practice. I’d suggest at least a few times a week to really get into a good rhythm.
Create a ritual for yourself to get into your intuitive space. Perhaps you could light a candle, recite a little intention / prayer / mantra for yourself, close your eyes and take some deep breaths, bring a cup of your favourite tea with you… anything that will help you settle in and mark the beginning of your artmaking time for self-care.
p.28 – Your relationship with your intuition and with yourself will deepen, soften, and expand.
• Whatever you do, just keep showing up.
• Keep going.
• Let yourself be a beginner.
• Take a tiny step. Then another.
• Allow your path to veer.
• Make a mistake.
• Keep going.
• Give yourself permission to not have all the answers.
• Allow heartbreak. Allow joy.
1 – Going Inward
p.36 – As with anything, the more intention and energy you put into this practice, the more you’ll get out of it. The process is not meant to be difficult, but that’s not to say it’s easy. Some days you won’t want to show up, but the more you do, the bigger the reward will be: Calm. Satisfaction. Pride. Connection. Presence. Comfort. Self-Care.
p.37 – Invest in yourself and your well-being. Take yourself seriously. Show up for yourself. Keep your word to yourself. Treat your creative process with care. Treat it with kindness. Treat it with respect. Nurture it by showing up, and then by continuing to show up, even when parts of your mind are saying you don’t want to. Sometimes showing up in those particular moments is the most potent and important of all.
“Every bit of light matters.”
p.39 – So, where ever and however you choose to create, believe that it matters. What you’re doing for yourself matters! Every bit of light that each of us adds to the world in the form of learning to love ourselves more matters. (That includes you!) It adds beauty and goodness to our world, which our world needs in a big way.
p.40 – I used this time as a way to check in with myself – to sink down and settle in. It felt like a relief. A big, long, deep breath. A pause. I’m not used to pausing. Pausing feels like a luxury that I don’t have time for. But ironically, when I make pausing a priority, everything flows more easily – in artmaking and in life in general. It’s all intertwined.
When you sink down and settle in, you’re forgetting about the to-do list. You’re forgetting about time and obligations for a little while. (Don’t worry – they’re not going anywhere!) You’re pulling all those strands of outward-reaching energy back into your body and into the present moment.
“Let yourself relax completely.”
p.42 – Close your eyes and breathe deeply. Inhale and exhale, as many times as you want to. What feels good? What do you need right now? How can you offer it to yourself?
Practice getting back inside your body. All the worries, all the fears, all the judgments and voices and people and roles you play can all melt away, just for a little while… Anytime a thought pops in, simply imagine pulling that outward energy back into yourself.
Stay there until you feel settled. Relaxed. Open, soft, calm, light and loose.
When you’re there, you’re ready to listen and receive.
p.43 – The point is that you’ll need a way to get into your body and let go of the chatter and your scattered energy. As you practice, you’ll find it easier and easier to drop into that state whenever you need to, whatever you happen to be doing. It won’t take as long as you’ll be able to spiral in and out of yourself to get what you need, when you need it. You’ll be able to drop down and check in with yourself anytime you please.
p.47 – While I was out for a thinking walk one day, listening for a message for myself, I heard these words: Everything is working in my favour. Since then, this has been my favourite lens to look at my life through. If everything is working out in my favour, then every experience must be useful to me in some way. […] It helps me get curious. It reminds me to accept what’s in front of me rather than resist it. Because the fact is, in the moment, things can’t be any other way than the way they are. There’s no way to change it. And that’s where the radical acceptance comes in. it’s a willingness to say yes to life, however it shows up.
p.48 – The resistance to what is, is what causes the suffering. The surrender and the curiosity about what is, is what causes expansion. Joy. Magic. Miracles.
“Everything happens for me, not to me.”
Every moment is a new chance for a new awakening into the reality of the present moment.
In every moment, acceptance is available.
Setting an intention to accept your day / your situation / your life as you settle in to listen for messages for yourself will allow your intuitive inner voice to share new perspectives and insights about you and your life. Ask your inner voice to show you how to accept and to show you the way.
p.50 – Thinking Walks – I’ve learned to discern my fear voice and all my mental chatter from my real and true voice that only wants the best for me. The messages I receive on these walks feel like a deep knowing. Like clarity. Like something that simply showed up in my mind without me having to thing about it. There’s a sense that I get when the message is just right, like a piece of a puzzle that clicks into place. Sometimes I bring my phone or a small notepad with me so I can write down the message(s) I receive so I don’t forget by the time I get home (that’s happened before)!
p.51 – Meditating – Meditating is one of those things that can feel intimidating and like you have to get it “right,” but really it’s just about getting quiet and calm and turning inward.
• Close your eyes.
• Take a few deep breaths.
• Set an intention to receive a message from yourself.
• Each time you find yourself carried away by thoughts, bring your focus back into yourself.
• As you breathe, keep a curious and open awareness for any voices, words, or images that you might see, feel, or hear.
• [Write them down afterwards.]
“My peace is my priority.”
“Trust your hunches.”
“Move your body.”
“Go outside.”
p.64 – You Inner Voice Always
• Wants the best for you and will lead you toward self-growth and self-love
• Only speaks to you kindly, compassionately, and encouragingly (and perhaps firmly sometimes!)
• Feels like a confident, calm knowing in your body, not only in your mind
• Wants to help you create inner peace
• Tries to get your attention, so trust your hunches.
• Speaks kindly about others
Your Inner Voice Does Not
• Speak negatively to you
• Judge, shame, criticize, or intimidate you
• Want to keep you small
• Create internal chaos or anxiety
• Speak negatively about others
• Justify bad behaviour or decisions
• Always give you the answer you want (this is why we so often ignore it!), but always gives you the answer that’s right for you and is what you need
p.69 – Your respect for yourself will skyrocket. You’ll trust yourself above all else, because you know that you inner voice will never lead you down an unkind path. People who live life guided by their intuition and their inner voice are guided by light, not darkness. You will move closer and closer to being internally unshakable.
p.74 – I can inwardly ask myself questions like:
• Is this useful for me?
• What can I learn here?
• How can this help me know myself better?
“Heart forward, mind inward.”
p.78 – Some days your messages will be more universal and generic, and other days they’ll be laser-beam specific to whatever you’re currently experiencing. Some days you may get one word, some days you may get a sentence, some days you may get an image with no words at all. It really depends. What every message will have in common, though, is that it’s tailor-made for you and exactly what you need to give to yourself in that moment for comfort and support.
p.80 – The most important thing to remember is that the messages you receive will be in service of your highest good. Your wise inner self wants only the best for you and knows exactly what you need to feel inwardly comforted, supported, and loved.
“Focus on gratitude.”
Prompts:
• Identify a feeling
• Identify simultaneous conflicting feelings “love and sorrow.”
• A message in one word “Rise.” “Breathe.”
• Cheer yourself on “You got this.”
• Complete this sentence: it’s ok to… “It’s ok to start over.”
• Respond to your day “Life is messy and complicated for us all.”
• What would a best friend tell you? “You are a blessing in this world.”
• Give yourself permission “
• Address unkind thoughts “Complaints can be gratitude in disguise.”
• Active listening throughout the day – listen for messages as you go about your day. Stay curious in conversations, while reading books, listening to podcasts, in yoga class, in music lyrics, you never know when or how an insight or a message will come to you!
• Complete this sentence: I am… “I am always right where I am meant to be.”
• Change your tone of voice “Girl, choose well.”
• Complete this sentence: You are… “You are free now.”
• Allow you own experience “Feel what you feel.”
• Express gratitude “Thank you for this moment, where everything is calm and quiet.” “Thank you for good sleep.”
• Write a message to you fear voice from your inner voice “Garbage thoughts breed garbage days.”
More Prompts:
Complete these sentences:
• I can accept…
• I get to…
• My superpower is…
• I appreciate…
• My pain teaches me…
• Today is…
• If I could start today over, I would…
• I can believe…
• I can stop believing…
• My biggest wound that still needs healing is…
• I can let go of…
• I’m ashamed of…
• I’m proud of…
• If I could change one thing tight now, it would be…
Ask yourself these questions:
• What’s true for me right now?
• What do I need to be fully happy?
• What have other people told me that I believed but isn’t true?
• What does my childhood self have to tell me right now?
• What do I need in this moment?
• How can I practice self-kindness today?
• What drains my energy?
• What can I do to feel better?
• Where am I out of alignment in my life?
• What does my future self want for me?
2 – Insides Outward
p.97 – Once you’ve spent some time navigating your inner world, and you’ve started to get a feel for how your inner voice communicates with you, it’s time for the artmaking fun to begin!
p.99 – Depending on the type of person you are, you might like to have a creative plan for yourself, or you might like to just wing it and create your artwork however it feels right each day.
p.101 – My favourite painting professor in college used to tell me that I had to be willing to make the bad art in order to get to the good art. What he meant was that it’s all part of the process. Nothing is wasted. You just have to be willing to start creating and to trust the mystery of the creative process.
“You know what to do.”
p.109 – Your inner child – Think back to when you were a child. What did you love to do the most? How did you do it? What came naturally? What did you lose yourself in?
While making intuition-based art is most definitely a “serious” thing to do in some ways, it’s also not meant to be taken too seriously.
p.112 – Your childhood self is still alive within you. Every past version of yourself still lives in your energy field and in your memory somewhere. It can be incredibly healing, profound, and FUN to ask your inner child to come help and create. Try imagining yourself as your childhood self and listening through your childhood ears. Does that change the way you hear any messages from your inner voice? Are the messages similar? Different?
“Find balance.”
“All of this is you finding your way.”
p.170 – Albert Einstein famously said, “Creativity is the residue of time wasted.” Get out there and do something unproductive. The times when you loosen up and disrupt your usual patterns are often times when inspiration flows in effortlessly.
• Get outside! Go for a walk in the woods. Sit by a river. Examine trees, bugs, birds, plants, and flowers
• Go to a bookstore and look at beautiful books
• Go to the library and find books about things you find fascinating
• Go somewhere brand new
• Read poetry
• Watch documentaries about creative people
• Take a class and learn something new
“Every experience has a deeper invitation.”
p.184 – Life is always trying to wake you up in order to help you grow. Every moment is asking you to step into your wisdom… the wisdom that already exists inside you.
Sometimes you’re not going to want to show up and make time and space for your artmaking practice. And in those moments you’ll have a choice. Will you keep your word to yourself, or won’t you? Will you grow, or will you stay the same? Will you explore your inner world, or will you tune it out?
p.185 – There are no right answers here; some days you’ll choose to show up, and other times you won’t.
Showing up for yourself means checking in with what’s true for you in the moment. If you’re paying close attention, you’ll discover that every day and every moment are different.
“Your life is always trying to wake you up. Listen.”
p.190 – You don’t edit or judge along the way; you just let your subconscious take over and get your thinking mind out if the way.
If your judging and thinking mind tends to get in your way as you’re making art, try practicing this technique: as you create, just keep your hand moving – drawing, painting, collaging, or whatever. Don’t try to guide your image in any direction at all; just make the next move that feels right. Intuitively choose the next color. Whatever comes to mind first is the right choice. Let the process unfold. Let it guide you instead of you trying to guide it. Loosen up. Let go of control. Pay attention to what’s going on inside of you rather than what’s happening on the page or on the canvas. Think of it all as a big experiment. Whatever happens externally doesn’t matter. What matters is following your inner guidance.
“Slow progress is still progress.”