definition of insanity

by bizarrestars, Zeppazariel

Pretty, straight boys will tease, and they will tangle you all up with feelings you can't even describe; they will give you hope the way you give them an in inch and they take a mile; they will twist you around their fingers just to see you dance, just for the entertainment, just because they're bored; they will like you, and like you, and like you so much as a person, like being around you and how good you make them feel and the power it grants them to make you feel in return; but they will not fall in love.

In all of that, through all of that, they do not fall in love.

(Or, the one where Regulus flirts a little too close to the sun and loves getting burned.)

54,788 words

Genres: Fan Fiction, Romance, Queer, LGBT, Magic, Fantasy, Harry Potter

200 pages, Unknown Binding

Published April 20, 2023

Reviews

[Sofia]

god i love horny religious imagery

[Kate]

This was like a Hozier song: horny, beautifully written, and steeped in religious imagery.

THE PREMISE: Regulus keeps falling for pretty straight boys … lucky James isn’t as straight as anyone thought.

TROPES & VIBES:
- Modern Marauders AU (Regulus and Sirius were estranged and their relationship is just so lovely)
- Religious trauma
- Boy obsessed
- Flirty friends to lovers
- Novella (50k words)

I love Bizarrestars. His writing style and chapter notes are: everything.

4⭐️ 1.5-2🌶️

[Daisy]

So cute!! I love them.
All the best people are going to hell

[Misia]

bizarrestars has done more for the queer community than any modern politician❤️❤️❤️❤️😍😍😍😍

[Malena]

estuve escuchando false god en mí cabeza todo el tiempo.

hay algo en James coqueteando descaradamente que siempre va a tocar esa fibra en mi

[megan ◡̈]

JEGULUS MY LOVES

[bea ♡]

yeah this definitively made me insane

[Olivia]

"You smell good," James whispers, nosing behind Regulus' ear, at his hair, at the warm spot right under the hinge in his jaw that exists like an intimate little secret only lovers are supposed to know about. "Like, really fucking good, Regulus. Shit, like—like the best thing I've ever smelled. What, um. What cologne is this?"

"I'm not wearing cologne," Regulus whispers back. "That's just...me."

"God, I could live here," James mumbles, pressing his face further into Regulus' throat, pulling him closer and holding him tighter.

It's the most natural thing in the world to fall in love with James. Regulus couldn't have stopped it if he tried.

He never really tries.

There is the buildup, and Regulus falls in love, inevitably. He does it every single time, and he does it alone.

"Dumb fucking hat," Regulus mutters against his mouth, fingers tightening in his hair, trying to pull him closer. "It has a *fish* on it. What the fuck is wrong with you?"

"I thought you liked it," James mumbles, speaking against his cheek and chin, keeping his mouth on him even as he evades the kiss Regulus is chasing after. He's smiling, lips split around a grin as he speaks. "Saw you looking at it like you liked it."

"You look fucking stupid."

"I always look like this."

"Exactly."

James huffs a laugh and lifts his head, nose running along Regulus' cheek, making him shiver and then shiver again, harder, when James whispers in his ear, "And you kissed me anyway."

"Shut up. God, *shut up,"* Regulus orders, and kisses him again, yanking on him to find his mouth and get lost in it once more.

Drowning.

Drowning.

Drowning.

The clock runs out, and Kingsley boards a plane. Regulus watches him go and thinks, idly, that they'll lose touch, and only keep up with one another through social media, but maybe that's alright, too. Maybe, sometimes, people come into your life, and they teach you new ways to love, and then they walk out of it.

And, still, the love remains.

James coughs. "Just didn't work out, then? He wasn't your type?"

*He wasn't you,* Regulus doesn't say.


First jegulus not the last jegulus

[Mollie]

“He'd know this, loving James, if he was blind. In the dark. Lost at sea. ”

God i love religious trauma reg, it just fits so well. Can’t believe I’m back in my marauders era after a six month break. I thought I’d matured but this is clearly a lifestyle. I’m obvs a jegulus girlie til I die.

‘Sirius essentially saved him, and so Regulus takes everything he says like it's the word of god.’
^^^^ The black brothers 🥺🥺

[noa (james’ version)]

that was a masterpiece i swear. Changed my entire life perspective

[izzy]

It was about regulus and James slowly falling for each other. James was the token straight boy of the friend group, but was a total flirt. Regulus has a type. They like to flirt and play games but before they knew it, it was a little too real. I really enjoyed this book, there’s a lot of pining. And I do really love, when characters are gay without knowing they’re gay. James one through a little bit of a sexuality crisis. The characterization of everyone in the book was really good, I genuinely have no complaints about the read.

[Laila Learns to read]

I love how the marauder fandom hust decided to put all worthy fics up on goodreads.

[Han]

3 stars!

another fic as we research for a cure (we don't want) for our marauders and co addiction with my bestie, lila! 💗

[khai]

religious trauma regulus is fun

[Florian]

it was really good and i absolutely loved the metaphorical and simile containing descriptions... it was really beautiful

[I Read A Lot]

“Oh, I'm going to hell."
“Haven't you learned by now? All the best people are."
Jegulus for liiiiifeeeeeeee 🤍🤍🤍🤍 Hozier is so perfect for this fic

[Rebecca Batson]

the real definition of insanity is me reading this fucking thing. ash why.

[Sofia Culiañez]

fanfic perfecta mi prima bizarrestars nunca me falla este regulus yo le entiendo a unos niveles muy personales y en ocasiones hay cosas d la doc q han hitteado muy cerca de casa james pequeño bebé le amo con toda mi alma y no sé ha sido perfecta se me ha hecho corta quiero mas mariguana

[⭐️🦌claire🦌⭐️]

3.5

[Toanella]

Leeré todo lo que escriba? Si. Por más que me haga sufrir por momentos? Por supuesto. Primero porque tiene la capacidad de poner en palabras lo que no sabía que necesitaba poner en palabras y segundo, porque es más barato que terapia (aún así, hay que ir con un profesional capacitado pero no le quitó mérito a les autores de fanfics porque la tienen más clara que el resto y encima lo hacen por amor al arte).

[Hannah]

guys i’m at that point where im not ashamed that i read fan fiction. so just deal with it okay. james and reg are my life blood now. expect to only see me reading about them for the foreseeable future

[xime]

why is religious imagery so fun? honestly

[bequinha ☆]

“And he’s straight, so don’t flirt with him”
“I’m not gonna fffffff- fucking hell”

Regulus flirts and james turns out to be not so straight



OH MY FUCKING GOD
THIS IS SOOOOOOOO FREAKING GOOD!!!!!!

James is not only not straight, he’s completely obsessed with regulus, like, OBSESSED!! And regulus has this tendency to get with pretty, straight boys, so he thinks that james’s that and, therefore, is just toying with him, meanwhile, james is just so completely, hopelessly and utterly smitten.

[isa]

me gustó harto:) ya había dejado 2 fics de bizarrestars sin terminar pq no me parecían muy buenos (just lovers y best friend's brother) así q además de querer leer crimson rivers en algún momento no le tenía esperanzas a la/le/él? autorx pero aunq sea cortito este fue bkn

[meg]

god i fucking love james potter

"Oh, I'm going to hell."

James hums, tilting his head back to speak, grinning up at Regulus as he says, "Haven't you learned by now? All the best people are."

[Keiran]

i love endings that are just so pure and beautiful they bring you to tears

[Michaela Horan]

no one writes jegulus the way zar does and that’s that

[Susanna]

I love religious trauma reggie

[g]

this is probably my fav zar fic

[Nancy]

4.89