This Catholic brother gave me lots to think about. His Catholicism did not distract or hinder my reading.
I had thought this book was a personal testimony, based on the title, but in it he covers all the aspects of the Christian walk: a form of personal testimony that was more comprehensive and interesting than the facts of conversion. Plenty in there to revisit at some point.
“In contrast to architects, painters and composers, writers have a mixed record in God's service. They are so numerous and varied that it is risky to generalise in any way, but it is remarkable how many writers, in all civilisations, have tended to take a critical view of established order and sought to subvert it. It is probably the single most striking characteristic of the mind which wishes to express itself through the written word. Now, of course, in subverting order they may be carrying out God's purpose, and there are plenty of instances in the Old Testament where that is exactly what its more passionate writers are doing. But I have spent my entire working life among writers and I know very well that the cast of mind which they habitually possess, and which harbours huge resentments of the world as it exists, is not necessarily motivated by selfless altruism. To praise God is not usually the writer's intention in picking up a pen or sitting down in front of a word-processor. More likely it is to express a grievance or work off a resentment or articulate a personal longing or simply to rage - in addition to making money, of course. Writers are sinful and fallen and unsatisfactory man writ large. It will be, for me at least, one of the great points of interest of the next world to see how God, in his justice, sorts out all the giants and pygmies of the pen. How will Voltaire fare? Some Christian polemicists write as if he were already in Hell, but I am not so sure. A man's writings have to be judged in their effects, if any, over many generations, and these may be contradictory and, in aggregate, difficult to assess. We may be sure God will do them justice, however, and this may often in the end surprise us. Where will he place Tolstoy, that astonishing combination of humility and arrogance, wisdom and madness, piety and destruction? He will have difficulty with Milton, too, who sought - so he said - to justify the ways of God to men and ended by writing a masterpiece whose hero was Satan. I do not know how Shelley will fare, he who professed atheism and practised a kind of exalted pantheism, who preached socialism and was a monster of personal selfishness. The fact is, nevertheless, that men and women have been uplifted and inspired by Shelleys poetry and become better people in consequence.”
“There are a number of beliefs to do with behaviour and civilisation which are so self-evident that the request to prove them creates uneasiness.”
“Jewish moral theology is often superior to the Christian equivalent, in my judgment. Jewish teachers have been at it twice as long, to begin with, and they have not been burdened, as Christian theologians and teachers have been, by the immensely complicated dogmatic theology of the Trinity, the Incarnation and the Eucharist, which has led to so many controversies and splits and schisms within Christianity. The Jews have escaped all that, and they have in consequence been able to devote more time and thought to moral behaviour. Indeed, that is what Judaism is really about - what a Jew should do or not do."
“Nevertheless, when all this is admitted, the awkward fact remains that the Jewish and Christian religions are, or at any rate appear to be, mutually incompatible. They teach things which are in violent and seemingly irreconcilable conflict. If Jesus Christ was the Son of God, as Christians must and do believe, then the Jews, in refusing to acknowledge the fact, reject the truth, and God's plan for humanity, and cut themselves off from the process of religious development which the Old Testament records before it lapses into a significant silence. The warnings about the Messiah, the foreshadowings of Christ's coming in the prophecies, are ignored, and the Jewish self-criticism which is so prominent in the second half of the Old Testament is seen to be abundantly justified. If Christ is God, then the Jews forfeit their claim to be a Chosen People, a priestly elect, a light to the Gentiles, and become the stiff-necked reprobates so roundly denounced by the prophets for their blindness and disobedience and defiance of God's word. Alternatively, if the Jews are right and Jesus, far from being the Son of God, is merely a false-Messiah, one of many, then the whole of Christianity is a delusion and the two millenniums of the church are a gigantic sham. Put thus bluntly, the quarrel between the religions is awesome. There appears to be no possible basis for compromise, no overlap at all. The two teachings, at their central point - Almighty God's programme for humanity - are as incompatible as it is possible for such things to be, and reconciliation is logically ruled out.”
“We could see no obvious way out of the dilemma. But then, as we observed, human intelligence is limited and human ignorance is great. By contrast, the power and scope of the divine wisdom is limitless. In Chapter 11 of his great Epistle to the Romans, St Paul, Jew of the Jews and Christian of the Christians, speaks eloquently on this point: 'O the depth of the riches both of the wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable are his judgments, and his ways past finding out! For who hath known the mind of the Lord? Or who hath been his counsellor?' Who are we, then, to say there is no bringing together in truth and harmony the beliefs of his Chosen People and those of the Children of Christ? It is not beyond the power of God to find a way and in his own good time to reveal it to us, Jew and Christian both, and then a deep and painful schism in the story of the spiritual development of humankind will finally be healed. It will surely be worth waiting for, this squaring by God of the Jewish-Christian circle.”
“No one ever lost his or her faith by rejecting the idea of Hell. And Hell is still, albeit to a more limited extent than in the old days, a deterrent to sinners. I know of one beautiful and fashionable lady who is prevented from deceiving her husband and taking lovers almost entirely because she fears she will be sent to Hell if she does.
“No; it is far more likely, in my opinion, that faith is eroded or diminished - perhaps even fatally undermined - by our lamentable failure to make the rewards of Heaven seem real and worth having. Heaven, as presented by the Judeo-Christian tradition, lacks genuine incentive. Indeed, it lacks definition of any kind. It is the great hole in theology.“
“[Prayer] does not be solve problems, but it always makes them easier to bear. It rarely dispels the darkness, but it creates a small corner of light on the gloomiest occasions. It is the one thing I have found in life which never fails completely,”
"It is an amazing thought that, of all the powerful people in the universe, protected by banks of security guards and secretaries and personal assistants and scrambler telephones and ex-directory numbers and protocol, the one who is master of the all is totally, instantly and invariable accessible [through prayer]."