I couldn’t put this book down. Maybe partly because I identified so well with Jess, but also because it was fairly well-written and you know there is danger around the corner and you don’t know if Jess will survive (well, there is a 90% chance she does because this is LDS fiction, but other than that…)
As much as I indentified with Jess, though, she was just plain stupid. I was the same age as her when I started making online friends, but I didn’t give out personal information and I wouldn’t have let them control me. You can argue Jess was really insecure and had no friends, but the same was true for me.
Maybe that’s part of why this book was a little difficult for me to read, though. Because maybe I would have shared Jess’ fate is I had been stupider and more open about myself.
But it was also difficult to read because this really happens to young teenagers. Many are too trusting and too open about themselves. Luckily, the majority of people on the Internet are good people and try to protect one another.
But the stupidity shown by Jess made sense. She felt a like a real person making mistakes she didn’t understand, and it didn’t help how the people around her (unintentionally) treated her. I loved watching her struggle to find her place in the world and I loved watching her grow as a character. It all felt very natural and she reminded me so much of myself at that age.
To switch topics a little… Kate—the mother. I didn’t really care for the chapters from her POV. The beginning of the story presented her as the perfect mother with the perfect home and the perfect family. Granted, that was all her illusions, but it was still really annoying, especially when she was such a jerk to her daughter.
I understand having your child do new things (even if they are opposed), as maybe they might actually enjoy whatever it is, and I understand having your child do at least one active thing to keep them in shape, but Kate… I really wanted to slap some sense into her. And I don’t understand why Jess was the only child with responsibilities. Yes, she is the oldest and she did enjoy much of her jobs, but it was still completely unfair. I just felt, as a mother, Kate didn’t get it. She was more concerned with being the perfect mother and with babies than with her actual kids—especially Jess. Which was kind of the point, as to drive up tension, but the character of Kate just kept pulling me out of the book, instead of in.
Even with Kate, though, I still loved this book. It’s not often I come across LDS fiction that isn’t afraid to touch on hard subjects. I might buy myself a copy of it if I see it somewhere. It certainly is a page-turner, and the ending is perfect.
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I just feel the need to expand my point about this book not being afraid to touch on hard things. Namely, when it comes to sexual abuse. That is a very hard topic to write about, and I felt like this book nailed it perfectly. There is one line that lets you know it is happening, and that line is more powerful than an open declaration, as it sent shivers down my spine when I realized what was going on. The book left it at that with the one line, but that was all it needed.