✰ 2.5 stars ✰
“These summer days,
these Sunrise Nights, they hold
a richness: maybe we were born
to this inheritance of chance love. We find
who we can’t be without.”
I always wondered why I never was drawn to watch the Ethan Hawke and Julie Delpy Before Sunrise film trilogy.
Now, I have my answer. 😐
'Captures the intoxicating rush of falling in love' --- in a night or three nights - give or take. Isn't that the same as the mad rush of insta love too - love at first sight-kinda feeling? I mean, the idea is good - two aspiring artists - Jude, the one unlovable photographer and Florence, a dancer with a crippling eye defect - who meet only once on the final day of camp and confess their heart-to-hearts, which is enough for them to change the direction of their lives. ❤️🩹❤️🩹 Devoting the entirety of their time before each other, where they exchange truths and thoughts and jokes and honesty that will undoubtedly bring them closer together, especially when (We only have 'til dawn) one night only.
Yes, I could not help but have Dreamgirls' song echoing in my head.
But, even in the span of one night, okay, well, three Sunrise Nights that brings Jude and Florence together - it really comes down to the wire of having each second - minute - documented in order for the readers to believe that a relationship was being built, only agreeing to return to the same night again once a year, devoid of any social contact - 'meet up again with someone who could become my favorite person. 🥺
As much as I know instant attraction and love at first sight exists, I don't think a span of less than twenty-four hours, over the course of three years apart from each other is enough to start a healthy relationship, let alone firmly believe that they are the love of their lives. I know they have the rest of their lives to make up for the years missed - I've read it happen before and I didn't mind it there, so I don't quite know why it's bothering me now. 😕 But, it is very insta love for high school, that also makes it rather unrealistic and unbelievable.
“I was thinking that this is what you hope
love is: you enter a house
full of monsters with someone
and then you fight for each other
until you can’t fight anymore.”
And yes, I could have forgiven the romance. Jude and Florence had some cute interactions and tender heartfelt confessions that bolstered my belief that there were some lingering desires in them both that were sincere during 'this small little collection of hours up here in the northern end of nowhere.' But, then I would need the other part of the book to have enough strength to tip the balance in its favor. And that would have to be the writing.
I did not have a strong connection with the writing, due to the way it played out. 😮💨
I always respect when authors attempt free verse to convey a story. It has to be very engaging and interactive and compelling to make you feel the reason why one narrates the plot in that format. But, with uneven shifts in perspective between the two, that did not only alternate unevenly with the characters, but the transition from free verse to snippets of dialogue, which was more than just script, was not at all smooth or easily balanced. 😒
“Because what’s holier
than to feel deeply?
To feel deeply is to be alive
and what’s holier than to live
and feel.”
To me, the poetry snippets were just a substitution for having both characters echo their inner thoughts and sentiments - broken drown at intervals for each of them to otherwise reflect on their actions and events of the sunrise nights. It made then the change BACK to long drawn out scenarios hard to stay invested in. 😥 And I love poetry! Look how many highlights were of their poetic thoughts, as well! I liked getting inside their heads; both of them were experiencing emotions and fears that were relatable and rational. I'm not saying that YA books should follow a certain pattern as to how to share their stories, but to keep the readers interested - there has to be some engaging interaction that would make me feel like I should care about their chemistry or their relationship. 😢
The characters did not have enough weight or personality to them - because of how limited the time frame we got to spend with them. I felt like in the actual written parts - there was more freedom to it, and if the authors had simply chosen to tell the story in that format - I think it could have been a much better well-executed story. I mean, we get TOLD of their many talents and skills in just a few words or sparse glimpses; I guess, then, the emphasis of this story really was just to focus on how romance can exist within these few meetings.
There were some worthwhile moments. Ones that shined with youthful exuberance of the exhilarating rush of standing on the precipice of falling for the unattainable. Of knowing that life and your emotions are at war with each other, when all one wants to do is give into temptation and desire. 🥺 The happiness of finding a kindred spirit in the sanctity of the quiet darkness that exists for only a number of hours that is devoid of any interruption or daunting fear, but the chance to speak one's own fears into the void and have someone return in kindness - a word of comfort - a word of understanding. 🫂
“Sometimes I think the only things we’re put on this earth for are to create art and make connections with the people we’re supposed to connect with.”
I was glad when Florence exhibited some form of reasoning that it is impossible to believe they could be in love for how brief their meetings were - 'these three nights that, like, flooded me.'. 💘 It was hard to see how she struggled with the loss of a passion she loved severely and her attempt to find something more to hold her interest. I felt for Jude's doubts and insecurities over himself and his own capabilities. I liked seeing him find ways to cope and help himself. I appreciated that the authors did not allow their lives to be entirely stagnant in the time they were apart. That as much as they held onto the promise of reuniting and returning with the same feelings, it was not without consideration. That it did not permit them to not experience life in the ways they could have. 👍🏻
I did not like, though, that one of the reasons for their fallouts was miscommunication, nor for the fact that deception was such a point being pushed upon. 😕 Some of the dialogue exchanges also felt a bit too perfect and pretty to feel natural or sincere, to me. I don't know - it's been awhile since I was sixteen, but they were just so wholesome with each other from the start, that as much as it did not bother me that the two of them were together, it also still did not feel like a relationship that was a real one.
Does that make sense? 🤔
In any event, I don't deny that the overlying message was made, it just did not click with me. It was difficult for me to stay truly interested in it - I think, it took me three nights to complete - not kidding! 😩 It just felt unnecessarily long, and I think if it had chosen to tell the story in one singular format - I would have enjoyed it much more and felt a deeper connection and affinity to the characters' relationship. But, with the original base of their premise being one that I don't find entirely favorable either - then it is safe to say that even before I read it, it had already set itself up for a possible troubled read. I only wish it could have proven me wrong. 😞