It's been a long time since I read my first novel penned by Laura Kinsale. It was Flowers from the Storm, and I loved it. What I remember most about reading it is feeling anxious about the outcome. I knew that the ending was the one thing I needn't have worried about — I was reading a romance novel, so a happy ending was a given — but I couldn't help myself. I was a ball of anxiety till the very last page. I decided then and there I would read every book written by this author. So far I've read seven more, and in the process stopped worrying, and just enjoyed the wonderful, complex stories and characters. The Dream Hunter brought back the anxiety.
*I've written quite a bit about what happened in the book in my review, so spoilers?*
This book was not easy to read, nor did I expect it to be. I don't pick up a Laura Kinsale book when I'm looking for something light and easy to read. However, I didn't expect it to be this challenging. I did not expect the heroine to be this challenging. All of Ms. Kinsale's characters were like real, complex, flawed people, and like real people they made mistakes. I understood their actions, even when their actions were wrong. I could say the same about Arden and Zenia. But Zenia, my God, did Zenia try my patience. More than that, I lost my patience with her at one point, and never got it back. I still understood her, but it became unbearable. The book ended with on a happy note, but I'm not convinced she didn't turn her back on Arden for the hundredth time.
Arden was much easier to like. Although, I do vaguely remember it wasn't always so. The first part set in the desert was my favorite. I didn't think it would be while I was reading it because it was fraught with danger, but somehow England proved to be a more dangerous ground. The desert was where Arden went in search of a legendary mare, and to get away from his parents who were pressuring him to marry and produce an heir, away from the society and the people whose company left him ill at ease; where he went to be free. There he met Zenia, though he did not know it.
Zenia was the daughter of Hester Stanhope, the Queen of the Desert who was a remarkable woman, but not a suitable mother to Zenia. It was obvious Zenia had led an unenviable life under her mother's command, though it wasn't until later on that it became evident just how much she was damaged by her upbringing. It was no wonder her biggest dream was to leave the desert and find her father in England. She found in Arden someone who could could help her do that... if she helped him first in his mission.
In their travels through the red sands, Zenia was by Arden's side as his faithful companion Selim, a Bedouin boy. Zenia feared and admired Arden for his fearlessness, and clung to him for his strength. And fell for him. Arden's feelings for Zenia became a mess when he discovered Selim was only a disguise, but he didn't have much time to ponder over it. He too pretended to be Arab, and when their deceit was discovered, they were sentenced to death. In the night before their execution, they sought comfort in each other's arms. The execution never occurred, of course. They got away from that. But they were attacked. That time, only she got away. With Arden's papers she made it to her father. She had a daughter, and Arden's family took her in as his wife, while he was presumed dead.
Two years later, Arden came back to London. He looked for her to see if she had made it to London as she had dreamed, and found she'd been living in his parents' house as Lady Winter, and that he had a daughter. One would expect he'd run there, and be welcomed with open arms, tears of happiness, and declarations of love. One would expect a HEA would be right around the corner... and one would be oh, so terribly wrong. That was when trouble started. That was when I became sad for Arden, sad for his little girl, just sad. In the English surrounding Arden and Zenia were strangers. Arden was as uncomfortable there as ever, but willing to do anything to be with her and their daughter. She was not. She was consumed by irrational fears, she acted irrationally, yelled I'm not like my mother and then behaved exactly like her. It was exhausting reading it. It gave me a headache I can't get rid of.
I've said I don't find Laura Kinsale's books to be easy reads. However, the ones I've read recently all had chapters where everything was right as rain between the main characters. Sure, afterwards there would come a hard time for them, but they had their happy times. Sadly, Arden and Zenia never had those. I missed those chapters. The only happy moments in this book were the ones with Arden and Elizabeth, and even those Zenia would ruin with her hysterics. I've seen a lot of criticism directed at Zenia. I hate to pile on, but it's unavoidable. It was a relief when someone would call her out for her behavior. I've also seen a lot of justification for that behavior. Yes, a deeply damaged heroine, she was. She had as many issues as there are grains of desert sand. I get it! However, there was a child. There was a child, and she was doing to it what she despised her mother for doing to her... Oh, my God, how exhausted I was. I could hardly enjoy Arden's shy nature.
There was a vengeful part of me that wished Arden would say in the end: Frankly, my dear, I don't give a damn. But there was a child, and he loved them both, soooo... Whatever...
When I finish a Laura Kinsale book, I think I can't wait to read it again. At this time, I don't see a re-read of The Dream Hunter happening in the foreseeable future. Once was enough, I think.