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55 pages, Paperback
First published January 1, 1994
Hace algunos años, mi interés por los acuarios me llevó a decorar mi salón de belleza con peces de distintos colores. Ahora que el salón se ha convertido en un Moridero, donde van a terminar sus días quienes no tienen dónde hacerlo, me cuesta mucho trabajo ver cómo poco a poco los peces han ido desapareciendo.""Una frialdad y una crueldad de acuario, con la que convivimos a diario, que disculpamos y hasta perdonamos. Crueldad como la de esos gobiernos que niegan la asistencia a sin-papeles o a enfermos de costosos tratamientos; la de esos vecinos que asaltan los centros de drogodependientes cercanos porque hacen bajar el precio de sus pisos o piensan que son una mala influencia; la de esos grupos que se divierten apaleando vagabundos u homosexuales; la crueldad de la soledad no buscada ni merecida; la crueldad con mayúscula y doble subrayado, la de la propia vida que se acaba sin remedio.
[T]hey were so ferocious and carnivorous that they wouldn’t put up with the presence of garbage fish, not even for a moment. I once put in a couple of garbage fish while the axolotls were sleeping I stayed for a few moments to watch their reaction. Nothing much happened during the first half hour. The garbage fish got to work, and with their big mouths stuck to the glass they started to eat the impurities in the fish tank….As soon as I left the tank, though, the axolotls attacked and devoured the garbage fish. I returned a few minutes later to discover the carnage.While the garbage fish try to keep the tank clean, similar to the white blood cells, the axototls destroy them and condemn the tank to a slow death. There is a sense of hopelessness that permeates Beauty Salon as the narrator recognizes that no amount of care can ever cure the infected and that all he can do is ease their suffering as their body deteriorates towards an inevitable death. He remains indifferent to them, careful not to get attached, painfully resigned to their expiration date. He allows no sense of hope, discourages encouragement when symptoms temporarily subside, and bans any religious prayer or icons. He belongs to a community outcast by religious institutions, and the totality of destruction wrought upon those touched by the plague could easily lead one to feel they are outcast by a creator. There is little light to cling to in the story, and the little there is dims with each turning page as the reader witnesses the narrators dive into sorrow and solitude, resigned to his own painful demise.
Perhaps this is the feeling my mother had when, after years of being examined in hospitals, she was told that she had a malignant tumor…She sent me a letter I never answered. Now that I find myself in a similar situation, there’s no one I can write. There’s not even anyone out there who doesn’t want to write to me.

It's no longer just my acquaintances with the sickness advancing through their bodies. The majority are now strangers who have no place to go. If it weren't for this place, their only alternative would be to perish in the street.
–and–
Now I have to run the Mortuary. To provide a bed and a bowl of soup to the victims whose bodies have already been ravaged by the disease. And I alone must do it.
I ask myself {as lovers come to the Mortuary's door seeking the dying} what moves those poor creatures to search for the sick. And why come in? Only to find themselves before someone who is no longer a person. Someone who, besides the space they take up, is nothing but a simple carrier for sickness.
–and–
{The Mortuary's inhabitants} become so mired in their lethargy that it's often no longer even possible for them to ask how they're doing. This is the ideal condition for doing my work. It's how I avoid getting involved with any one of them in particular, which makes my labors more expeditious.
We took up collections to purchase his medicines, which were exceedingly expensive. It was all useless. The conclusion was simple. The sickness has no cure. All our efforts were no more than vain attempts to appease our consciences. ... Because of that experience, I made the decision that if there was no cure, the best outcome was a quick death, in the best possible conditions for the suffering.
The more I sang, the more clearly I remembered new songs. It kept growing, the sensation that I was entering, bit by bit, the memories they evoked. Slowly, the fire burned out, until it was nothing but a slight wisp of smoke rising from the charred remains.
