I feel like I wasn’t supposed to enjoy this as much as I did.
And I kind of hate that I’m saying that. It makes me feel like I need to justify why I enjoyed this, even though that is one reason I write reviews. But this feels murkier, as if I need to explain to defend the reason I enjoyed something.
It’s ridiculous.
There are three things to know before reading this:
1. There is a huge age gap between our two men. Emery is 19, repeating his senior year of high school, and Abe is 44 (45?), a high school football coach,
2. Abe is Emery’s best friend’s father.
3. Abe is married to a woman. So you know what that means? There’s cheating.
The author warns you of these three things at the beginning of the book, and all three factors are relevant to the story.
I can see how and why some of my friends didn’t like this, but I was glued to every page from the moment I started it. It didn’t feel like 499 pages, and I was flying through it before I knew it. I almost missed the train to work this morning because I only got four hours of sleep after finishing this unexpected gem late. Clearly I was entertained and delighted. It was full of dumb drama; the wife was painted as the villain in a way some people will hate, the cheating was not justified, and the romance could have used some development. The special words, “I love you,” were said a little too early on, so I hear you all on that. But I turned two blind eyes to everything that was wrong happening in this and was in for the ride, and let me tell you, I enjoyed it to the max. If I were less picky, critical, and petty, I probably would rate this five stars for the enjoyment itself, but of course, there were some things I didn’t like that faltered my enjoyment just a little bit. However, I feel like part of the reason I enjoyed this also is that I knew what I was getting into. It’s not to say others didn’t, but after reading a couple of reviews and different perspectives, I had an idea of what the story would be about and how it would progress.
I like the route the author took with this. The characters felt a little refreshing. I loved how Emery was written, and I never found him stereotypical. I can’t tell you how many boys and men in real life can see themselves through him. I liked that he grew a backbone before the novel started. I admired that he stood up for himself and wouldn’t let himself be handled inappropriately without putting up a fight. His dad was homophobic, abusive, and completely negligent, leaving him to fend for himself and find ways to take care of himself. Emery has been on his own for a long time, and even after making progress, they’re still torn to shreds by his kin. I found him to be strong but vulnerable at the same time. He needed someone to help take care of him, and when Abe’s arms started feeling like his new home, he knew he was gone. I like that, as the shallow person I am. I thought it made sense, considering everything Emery was going through. Even though they were both drawn through lust first, I thought their interactions were enough to see the growing feelings between them. I think you can and can find that person in life that makes you see life differently. I don’t believe Emery was “healed,” but he was found, and the new home given to him was a pair of strong arms that loved holding him. Also, I’m a sucker for hugs, which was just a bonus.
As for Abe, I felt bad for him. The author intended to paint his ex-wife as the villain. I know there are those romance books I enjoy where both characters are still friends or get along, even after getting a divorce, and there’s no jealousy or hard feelings between them. But, you know, here and there, I like the drama. Life isn’t perfect. As much as I love fluff, I need some spice sometimes. And I don’t mean it sexual. I mean the life spice, where shit is happening with the characters, and the problems make them make poor and wrong decisions that make them question everything. Why did the author choose to make a female character like Teresa? Beats me. Somehow, it all worked for me. Her aggressive tone, hypocritical standing, and selfish attitude added entertainment to the story. She felt like the evil villains in the novelas my dad used to watch. They were villains and meant to be disliked, and my dad always commented on how much he hated them yet applauded them at the same time for playing their roles so well. Teresa felt that way–the intention was never to like her. Regardless, I liked Abe’s character. As a father, he has a natural desire to protect those he loves, so he naturally started caring for his daughter’s best friend until that care became love, lust, want, and need. I thought he was a wonderful and caring person in Emery’s life. I loved seeing the devotion they had to each other. Emery is 19, so he struggled a lot more with trust issues and communication, but there weren't any issues with their relationship after they talked everything out. Abe acted his age and knew what he was doing. I’m not necessarily defending his actions of cheating, and some may say he should have divorced his wife, but where’s the fun in that?
The relationship is consensual, and I never once thought Abe took advantage of Emery or manipulated him. It always felt like both men knew what they were doing and what risks they were taking. It does get pretty sappy and OTT. There were a few eye-rolling moments, but all those moments had me giggling at them. I love this kind of content, so I’m not surprised to see how it worked so well. The romance was adorable, although difficult for the two men at times. It was never angsty for me, even with the thrilling moments they had to hide.
But, all good things come to an end.
I wish there were a little more drama added to Maddy’s reaction. It didn’t take long for her to accept the relationship, which was a little unrealistic. I would have expected more fights to be put up, but she gave in pretty quickly. I was glad Teresa got out of the picture, though. I also didn’t like how Abe knew what Emery was going through but didn’t do anything about it. I wasn’t buying the “He’s 19, so technically, there’s nothing I can do” bullshit. Even though Emery is and was responsible for his actions and how he lived, Abe had the responsibility as the high school’s coach to report it. It made no sense to me why he let it go for so long and did not do anything about it, despite knowing what Emery was going through. It also didn’t help that he constantly said he cared about Emery yet didn’t do anything to help. Despite how caring and protective he became, this felt a little two-sided as if he needed to pick a side. It did bother me a little but not too much, to the point where I was not too fond of Abe’s character entirely.
I feel like I wasn’t supposed to enjoy this because of the backslash I’ve seen it receive. I was a little hesitant and worried, and I thought I would hate it from early on. Instead, I felt blessed to have read more than 80 pages in one sitting without having anyone or anything bothering me, and I only wanted to continue. As far as I’ve seen, if you enjoyed this, you’re in the minority here, but there are a few of us, so welcome.
I’m not going to go into detail about the story because I feel there isn’t much I can say. Regardless, I enjoyed this, even though I agree with many criticisms some of my friends have made. There were a few issues I wish were addressed more (the cyberbullying, guilt-tripping, Emery’s dad), but as I said, I turned a blind eye to it all. The story is not perfect by any means. As a matter of fact, it’s easier to point out the issues.
Life is short. Enjoy any book you want while you can.