Oh, the things this book did to me!! Words fail to express the beatings my heart was subjected to, the incomparable lust I experienced, or the nauseating trepidation that plagued my stomach. Avoiding Commitment isn't just a story, it's an emotional, lust-filled, gut-wrenching journey that will be on your mind long after you finish that last page.
Avoiding Commitment follows the path of Jack and Lexi's all-consuming, intensely passionate relationship over it's 6 years. The blurb for this book had me expecting something else entirely, and I certainly wasn't expecting these characters when I picked it up. Lexi…god, where do I begin with this wholly confused, used, and troubled woman?! Written in third person and switching from present to past settings, the magnitude of the relationship between Lexi and Jack was slowly revealed piece by piece. Lexi without a doubt became enthralled by this man as time went on, with little thought for her own self-preservation. She was like an addict who couldn’t see the heartbreaking aftermath past the mind-numbingly intense experience that was “her” Jack. I wanted to shake her when she went back each time, and by the time she was at the point of utter desperation I wanted to lock her in a sensory deprivation chamber and throw away the key! She was in a constant state of denial, always wanting to think the best of Jack because deep down she knew he claimed her. And she was by no means innocent in the choices she made, at times not caring at all about the ones she hurt in the process. God, I was so frustrated and baffled by her for so much of this book, but she was still this character who I just adored and wanted to see FINALLY get the peace her heart has constantly desired. Do I sound contradictory yet? Yeah, wait until you read it!
Then of course there’s Jack. Jack the dreamboat. Jack the liar. Jack the sex god among men who does things to a woman’s body no other could fathom. Jack the selfish. Jack the tender and loving. Jack the cheater. Jack the biggest narcissistic ass this side of the globe. There are so many Jacks we get to see in this story, I decided they each deserved their own introduction, and even their own tongue-lashing. I was back and forth between loving and lusting over this man, to wanting to see him experience a world of pain for his lack of consideration for Lexi’s feelings. I could not comprehend how he could love this girl and care and yearn so deeply for her, yet not think about what his actions meant for her. I have never EVER felt so torn about a character, with such strong conflicting feelings that were on polar opposite ends of the spectrum!! The chemistry between Lexi and Jack, though, that was just without a doubt astounding. They were the moth to each other’s flame, and together they became a raging inferno capable of taking out a whole countryside! My heart raced just in the anticipation of what could happen every time they were together, and Linde made those moments beyond memorable!! They consumed each other and nothing around them held any meaning, it was like they entered their own universe and you can’t help but be sucked right into it! It was incredible!
The secondary characters played a big part in my feelings about Lexi and Jack as well. There’s Chynna, Lexi’s filthy rich, outspoken, constant support who likes to tell Lexi exactly what she doesn’t want to hear. She won me over for that alone, because someone needed to beat some sense into that girl. Then there’s Bekah, the current flame of Jack and the reason for Lexi having to be confronted with her feelings for this man when she’d rather stay away. I didn’t like her for obvious reasons from the get-go, but I grew to loathe the woman like no other for what she is capable of. And finally, there’s Ramsey, Bekah’s brother who captivates Lexi’s attention when she needed it most and turns out to be more than he seems. I love this sexy knight-in-shining armor (of sorts!), and I hope and pray that he will be the one that finally puts and end to the train wreck that is Jack and Lexi’s dance of heartache!!
The last chapters of this book were a complete shock! When the big twist is revealed, I was just fuming mad. My heart broke for Lexi, she was just shattered and had taken so much at that point that it was inconceivable that she could bear any more. Honestly, I couldn’t get to sleep for awhile that night over the way this came to a close. Lexi handled it maturely, and I hope to all that his holy she sticks with her final decision (you go, girl!!), but I still hope there's some pain for those that hurt her. They deserve it, and Lexi deserves to have some vindication if for nothing other than her own self-worth!
This book is absolutely a new favorite for me, and I can’t say strongly enough how much I recommend it. It was just so intense from start to finish, and I feel like I was holding my breath for the entire book! I’m so anxiously awaiting getting my hands on the sequel, I want to dive right back into this insane mixed-up world that Linde created…after my heart recovers a bit!