Jimmy Piersall had a lengthy career in major league baseball, playing for 17 seasons with five ball clubs. He was a rising star as an outfielder with the Boston Red Sox in 1952 when he suffered a “mental breakdown” after a series of altercations with opponents, umpires, and even teammates. Pearsall ended up in a mental institution where he was treated for extreme “mental exhaustion” which was later to be determined as bipolar disorder. He returned to the Red Sox the following season and resumed his career. He was a top-notch outfielder and solid hitter - winning two Golden Glove Awards and twice making the American League All-Star Team. "Fear Strikes Out", a memoir detailing his life and career - and struggles with mental illness - was released in 1955. It was followed by a film version, directed by Robert Mulligan, produced by Alan J. Pakula, starring Anthony Perkins (as Piersall) and Karl Malden (as his father). It was released in 1957.
Having seen the film a few years back, I naturally assumed the memoir to be somewhat different and I was correct. Piersall’s memoir is precise and no nonsense. The tone is conversational. He held nothing back and never pointed blame on another person nor did he look for pity. He was not ashamed of his diagnosis or the methods (electro-shock therapy being one) used to stabilize him. He writes about his undiagnosed struggles as a youth growing up in Waterbury, Connecticut. At various times and all at once he dealt with insomnia, hyperactivity, intense fear of failure, and crippling migraine-like headaches. He was a natural and gifted athlete, but could never sit still or quietly reflect on his achievements. He could be combative and highly competitive when he was not playing; he barked out instructions to teammates and paced relentlessly on sidelines or in dugouts as if he was a coach. Both parents struggled with health and mental issues as well; Piersall's mother spent time “resting” in a mental institution through his teenage years, while his father developed a serious heart condition. Piersall’s father is portrayed much differently in the memoir than film - it was true, that he had a “plan” for his son to achieve a career in baseball and was strict about his practicing and staying in shape, but he did not place overwhelming and relentless pressure on him as was the case in the film (which led viewers to believe, such as me, that was the main cause for his mental breakdown). The memoir gives credit to his wife’s endless patience and the support of the Red Sox organization for seeing him through his struggles and giving him a second chance despite enduring his unstable and often bizarre behaviors in his rookie season. I did find this kind of amazing as Piersall certainly rubbed many people the wrong way and infuriated opposing players, umpires, team management, and teammates with his behavior. However, this was the 1950’s and many mental health issues were still misunderstood. In the updated afterward from the 1999 edition of the memoir, Piersall mentions his distaste for the film and how he thought it portrayed his father in a totally negative light. He also went on to mention that Anthony Perkins was not the best choice to play him in the film because he did not have athletic, not to mention, baseball skills - nor did anyone else in the film!