Listen, I thought I was going to love this book. It was a story I was really interested in, and it started off well. There were parts I really liked, but slowly but surely things went so downhill for me.
As always, spoilers ahead.
First off the writing was a mix of good and bad. Parts of the prose were great, but the dialogue. The dialogue stone cold murdered this book for me. The first and main thing was the weirdly formal way of talking. And I could have dealt only this book is 440 pages of this. So, for example, everything was 'he is' instead of 'He's'. Or 'I am' instead of 'I'm'. A few times? Sure. But almost every single sentence? No. No way do people actually talk like that. This might be the edition I'm reading but I also noticed several typos. And the emotion did not hit home because everyone was making very poetic speeches the entire time, to be point where it felt almost fake because it sounded so formal and grand. Our protag Rose has a seven year old child who is 'unusual' (Possibly on the spectrum, from her behaviour? But that's never stated but it would make sense.) Most of her quirks are put down to the fact she grew up in an abusive household, which makes sense and I could accept that. But sometimes they took it way too far with the way she talked. I understand she's a clever child and all that, but sometimes it sounded like a grown woman talking and idk, it just felt weird.
Now, this book is about domestic abuse and that was actually written very well. I know the author did her research, and the majority of Rose's abuse is emotional which isn't something we see a lot. I really thought that was a good way to go and it highlighted a lot of things that don't always get talked about and how anyone can find themselves in that kind of relationship. That was a strong point in the book. Her husband is honestly awful and that is reinforced totally.
But you know who I also thought was awful? The other men. Like we go through her alcoholic father's recovery and redemption - all good, they make up and it's not brushed over. But the two love interests, Ted and Frasier, were total let downs.
Ted was a nice guy (tm). There's a moment where he's rejected and proceeds to insult and lie about Rose and ruin her relationship with Frasier. He ends up apologising but he also inserts himself into the aftermath of her husband attacking her later on in the book. Also, he apologises for trying to kiss her without permission only after he realises her husband was a rapist. He just ignored her before that. It's the trying to kiss her that's treated as the really bad thing, and it is, but they sort of skate over the fact that he turned on her the instant he thought she was seeing someone else.
But you know who else does that? Frasier, the big end game love interest! Like, moving past the fact the love at first meeting trope could have been done well but wasn't really, he was just forgiven. He turns on her as soon as she reveals she had kissed Ted. He apologises, but he doesn't go into the fact he called her pathetic. After she had explained about her prolonged domestic abuse, he's so sorry and protective. Then he turns on her and calls her pathetic. Because of course, she's this broken little flower who can't so much look at another man because it doesn't fit with his hero complex? Jesus!
Also, these guys are so dumb. They both say 'I knew things with your husband were bad but I didn't think they were that bad so that's why I felt like I could treat you this way'. Or, that's what implied. Like, you couldn't guess? You really think she would have fled in the night, refuse to have sex, refuse to talk about anything that had happened, if there wasn't something deeply wrong in the marriage? Seriously.
There's a lot of great moments where Rose confronts them about their behaviour but they don't last long. She says it's basically her fault for leading Ted on (wrong!). Then, when she confronts Frasier about being hot and cold about his feelings and for making decisions about her life, she still wants to be with him. There's a moment just before this confrontation where she wonders what it would be like to go upstairs with him. This is like...a few days after her abusive husband found her and tried to rape her. She spent the whole book not wanting to have sex with anyone but not really because she actually does think about it??? (I mean thank god that that isn't something that happens or that they follow through on because it would not have made sense but still)
It also didn't need to be as long as it was, like, at all. A lot of the conversations were the same if i'm being honest.
So, yeah. Like I said, there were some great moments. I can't speak to the abuse rep but I did feel that it had been done well and it really lets you see how Rose ended up where she did. But the writing and, lets face it, the characters, dragged it down.