This was not a feel-good type of book. It was dark, it was depressing, and it was very bleak. You get taken on a journey through this dreary, rundown Purgatory type of realm with a group of deceased who are all kind of assholes. Well, except for Mara. She was okay. I don’t know why she was there. While on Earth, she didn’t seem to have lead an indecent life full of mistakes and regrets, like the other three, and she didn’t commit suicide. She was killed in a car accident. Although Samuel had ended up there because he had committed suicide, he wasn’t really that awful of a person while alive either. He’d just made a lot of wrongful decisions. Kole and Major were just plain bad. It’s a wonder why they didn’t end up in a Hell realm.
Bleakness aside, I couldn’t help love the weirdness of it all. I loved the aspect of a dying world not just going dark and losing the life that dwelled on it, but also losing the smells and sounds of its surroundings and how the tastes of whatever consumable foods that were hanging around would fade while being eaten. The way that, whenever Samuel started fires on this dying world, their flames were tinted sickly green and were barely warm. Cool, unique and imaginative world building.
I loved the Purgatory feel of this realm. The barely lit sky and the long stretches of baron landscape. The silent forests that were devoid of wildlife, except for the pack of demonic wolves. The sparsely furnished, dusty old cabins that were all alike. And how the foods available were mediocre things like cold canned sour krout and packs of processed cheese and crackers. So Purgatory. Not an afterlife of fire and brimstone and Eternal suffering, but still definitely not a place one would want to be stuck in after dying.—Even if this realm wasn’t on borrowed time.
I like the whole thing with the “reflections” as Major called them. Items of sentimental value from Samuel’s life that appear out of nowhere and help him get some of his memory back, but then they disappear. For me, it added to the depressing feeling of being in this place. It was sad when the picture on the cabin wall of Samuel and his wife, which was taken during happier times, had faded to being a blank, black square. And when a treasured pocket knife he had gotten from his dad during a special moment in childhood had came back to him, only to disappear too. It also sucked that Samuel couldn’t get any answers to what had ever became of his wife and where had she ended up.
I did not find this story confusing. All worlds die and go through a reversion—both those of the living and non physical. As they die, they get swallowed in by dark nothingness. However, all worlds become reborn again, and the cycle continues like a cosmic pulse. Samuel, Major, Kole, and—I guess even Mara—had all lived unsavory lives and ended up in a purgatory realm but this realm was going through a reversion. Although they weren’t the happiest bunch, they’d rather hang onto their lives as broken souls than get sucked into the nothingness. Their realm of Earth as they knew it had already undergone the reversion. So they have to work together and figure out how to open the right portal and escape to a realm that isn’t under threat. Samuel and his funky little talisman have the power to help them make this escape. Or rather, Samuel and one other character. Two among the group perished while the four of them were trying to escape the demonic wolves and a crowd of zombies called the undead. While all this is going down, Samuel and Mara have flashbacks about things that had happened in their lives and when they’d crossed paths on Earth. To add to the complexity, this story has a Sliders aspect, where they could teleport into an Earth realm, but it would be a different Earth than the one they had lived in.
There were quite a bit of loose ends. But I assume the missing pieces come together in the other books? Such as—How come Samuel got amnesia when he’d entered Purgatory, yet Major remembered his Earthly life pretty clearly? I thought Samuel’s suicide had something to do with his amnesia, at first, but Major had hung himself too. In one part of the story, it’s explained that many on Earth had committed suicide by hanging when their world went through the reversion, with Samuel being among them. Then later on, you find out Samuel’s suicide was due to a different reason. Maybe this is one of the reasons some reviewers found this story confusing? What were the significance of the wolves and the zombies in the dying purgatory? Were they a part of the cloud of dark nothingness that was slowly consuming everything? Did they come from the cloud, like reversional henchmen who were out to help it consume? And what was the point of Kole being among the group? Even Samuel couldn’t figure that one out. Also, once again, why was Mara really there? Aside from the fact that she, Samuel, and Major were—it seemed—spiritually related somehow and very important to this Dava entity who was in charge of the reversion and re-creation process. Either Samuel or Major would sometime take Dava’s place—But why them??? Neither of those guys seem even the least bit fit for taking charge of such a godly position! Or am I confused too? This is one of those way-out-there types of books that should be read two or more times to really, really get it.
One thing that I do not understand is the aspect of dying twice. I’ve seen this in other fantasy stories, and it’s just weird and doesn’t make sense. Somebody dies and goes to an afterlife realm where they—as a soul—could die too. Seriously? What? Like death is a nesting doll of multiple layers? The characters in this story who’d died after they’d died had even bled and suffered with pain, just like physical living people. Further to my frustration, neither in this book, nor in the other books with this aspect, is there any explanation to how or why someone could die after they had already died. And if a person’s soul goes to a spirit realm after the person dies, where does a soul’s soul go after they die again?
Despite the loose ends and what a mind bender this book is, it’s a very cool and unique story. However, it’s an acquired taste, and I wouldn’t recommend it for every fantasy reader. Like I’d said, it’s bleak and depressing. None of the characters are likable enough to where I was rooting for any of them. Especially not Kole and Major, who were total dickheads. If you’re looking for a light and easy read that is not only as uplifting as it is entertaining, but also has a happy ending, this book is at the opposite end of the spectrum. But if you’re into all things odd and way-out-there and dark, taking a plunge into this purgatory adventure might be an unforgettable trip.