In light of the crisis at the Fukushima Daiichi Nuclear Power Station in Japan, the remarkable personal story that comprises Fear Itself becomes a cautionary tale.
Unwittingly exposed to low-level radiation in the 1940s, Candida Lawrence has lived courageously with its effects throughout her life. Fear Itself traces her years struggling to have a child and her slow waking to the secrets that governments and institutions withheld from the women of her generation. The task for her—and for women who have shared her experience—has always been to believe herself into wholeness and to survive her losses and her illnesses until there is nothing left to fear. As always, Lawrence’s writing is filled with smart, gentle anger, sweet sadness and the most private sense of what is vital and important.
In Fear Itself, Lawrence’s deeply felt remembrances grant us an honest account of what it is to live in an unstable world. It is a truly personal account that sheds wide light on the world’s ongoing nuclear decisions.
This is reported to be one of three memoirs by Candida Lawrence. Born around 1940 and a child of the nuclear test era by virtue of the work of her physicist first husband and her own early career, Lawrence was subjected to low level radiation. The book chronicles her health and reproductive issues amid a deserved growing awareness and paranoia of radioactive materials. She is a self-described loner of sorts and admits to some lack of self-esteem as a wife and a person.
The author claims ownership of fifty books on radioactive research and its dangers, along with numerous news clippings. The book is exceptionally candid and a reminder of the dangers of governmental cover-up, political ignorance and the hazards of radioactive research and its resulting waste. It is not a "fun" read, but a single small voice calling attention to the author's personal struggles.
The book's primary language was German, so this is a translation into English.