(This was not exactly new reading for me, but I just wrote an essay largely on it, hence the 'date read' above.
Also, trigger warning. I quote from Sade, albeit briefly. Quote is in italics, so you can skip it if you so choose.)
Sometimes I think of myself in opposition to Sade.
This is too simple, of course. I can and have defended Sade on a variety of occasions, in a variety of different contexts; I don't think he should be censored, and in fact am quite glad that his works have been published and made accessible. I agree with most of what Angela Carter says in The Sadeian Woman. As a person, I find him contemptible and not a little bit pathetic (he was an aristocrat! In pre-revolutionary France! He owned a castle! And he wasn't intelligent or cautious enough to get away with his crimes?). I read his books and know that he's trying to shock me, and I would like to be able to dismiss him for that reason, as I do with Lautreamont, to tell him, with gentle malice, "You can't shock me," and close the book. But, with Sade, I cannot do that.
As I write this, the hot, early summer day breaks, crashes into a torrent of rain, and I remember the first time I read 120 Days of Sodom, as a very young teenager, with the door to my bedroom furtively closed. I took the reading of it as a serious task, an unpleasant but necessary obligation. It took some time to get through. It made me cry.
Sade stands against much of what I believe in. He stands against the gods, against humanity, and, most of all, against compassion. In his novels he sets up a dichotomy of libertine and victim, offering no other moral poles, nowhere else for the reader to identify. He tries to force us into complicity with him, to participate in the dehumanization of his victims, or, if he cannot succeed in that, he tries at least to make us vomit.
It's all extremely adolescent. Critics who dignify his treatises on hypocrisy and corruption by analyzing them as serious works of philosophy anger me, as do those who enshrine him as a martyr to the cause of sexual freedom, imprisoned for the sake of his society's prudishness, forgetting, perhaps, that the acts he committed were crimes because they were nonconsensual (seriously, the amount of victim blaming that goes on in Sade biographies is utterly obscene). So why do I bother with him?
Because he does me the service of showing me what I am fighting against. He lays it out for me, story after story, passion after passion, unsoftened and adorned only with his vulgar, repetitive euphemisms. He shows me all these different ways that people can degrade, can hurt one another, and, moreover, how those stories can be told in such a way that they cut out the humanity of the victim, turn them into a gothic paper doll, an instrument of gratification.
"She was still breathing when she fell, and the Duc encunted her in this sorry state; he discharged and came away only the more enraged. They split open her belly and applied fire to her entrails; scalpel in hand the Duc burrows in her chest and harasses her heart, puncturing it in several places. 'Twas only then her soul fled her body; at the age of fifteen years and eight months perished one of the most heavenly creatures ever formed by Nature's skillful hand, Etc. Her eulogy." - the death of Augustine, 120 Days of Sodom.
There's a reason why it's 120 Days that I keep going back to, not the relatively inoffensive Philosophy in the Bedroom, which is easy to agree with in principle at least until the ending, or sly, parodic Justine, which encourages its reader to laugh along with the narrator - for didn't we think Pamela was ridiculous too? Even the massively long and extravagant Juliette, which I read for the first time last month, is partly a rollicking, bawdy fairy tale, complete with an evil ogre. But 120 Days, largely due to its unfinished nature (as you can see from the excerpt above, the final three quarters of the titular stay in the Castle of Silling are written in abbreviated sketch form), doesn't do any of that. You can see the hard iron inner workings in Sade's fantasias of totalitarian atrocity, sharp and hard through the lacy frills of the Duc de Blangis' massive monologues and the narrator's sickening invocations of "Apollo, that god, somewhat a libertine himself, [who] mounted his azure chariot..."
I realized long ago that, when I read 120 Days, I am reading a different book than most people who pick it up, and certainly a different book from the one its author intended to write. I cry at it, not vomit. For me, it's the story of brave Constance, with her unending fortitude, principled Adelaide, who holds true to her values despite unbelievable hardship. It's the tragedy of Aline and Zelmire, and of Celadon and Sophie, who manage to find love under the most atrocious circumstances, only to have that love turned into another tool to humiliate and torment them. And it's the story of Julie, Julie with her loud raucous laugh; Julie who believes the libertines because they're her father and her husband and she has no one else to listen to; Julie who may only be pretending to believe them; Julie who, against all the odds, survives.
I've cried with relief that Julie survives. She's the only one of the 'victims' who does.
Most critics never even call the victims by their names.
So here is Sade and here am I. We look at one another. We are separated not only by time, but by the fact that we have been placed on the opposite ends of several dichotomies, dichotomies which can be more permeable than many like to suspect, but which should widen the gulf between us until it is uncrossable. He is a perpetrator and I am a victim; by society, he has been deemed mad and I (for the most part) sane. But we both understand about imprisonment, and we both have written to save ourselves from it, written as though our words and our stories are the only things keeping us alive. And with my words, I've found, I can fight him, I can combat his vision of the world and substitute my own. His power, even though he can trigger me, even though he can make me cry, is no greater than my own. This is what reading Sade has taught me. And this is why he matters to me, why it matters to say I am in opposition to him.
One day, I plan to rewrite 120 Days to tell the stories that I see in it, the stories of Constance and Adelaide and Aline and Julie. And that will be more of a victory than closing the book ever could be.